April 2015 thread 2 - ruling our lives and stealing our sleep, our babies are growing up already!

[PenguinPoser]

New thread for those of us left here

I will try that penguin I didn't realise it would hurt quite as much as it did.
I don't know if it was because it was busy the same thing happened at the show last week I just assumed it was tiredness but then again today, I think I freaked myself out as everything felt so loud and I couldn't concentrate so just packed up and left saying I needed to get home, I felt better once I got out side again.

I hope your dd has a better night tonight.

Ds2 used to bite me Monkeybabiess111, I used to say no very sternly, remove him and put him on the floor then put him back. He learned quite quickly.

I was better by mid morning thanks PenguinPoser, no idea what caused it. Had a weak, nauseous moment while i was feeding ds3 his tea. I'm so worn out at the moment, having a few irrational rage moments I just feel like life is too tough! Just wish I could be at home with my boys and forget about everybody else. I've taken two days off in half term to spend some time as a family and hopefully have a bit of a rest. The weekends just don't have enough time to get everything done and also have some down time.

Cinnamon I'm sorry your feeling that way
I will try that if she bites again.

Dd seems a bit more like her normal self since this afternoon, I bought a Sophie giraffe today and she has been chewing furiously on her leg so hopefully it's helped and you can now see the tooth. She went to sleep quite quickly so I hope we have a better night than the last couple.
shiteforbrains no I haven't tried that but will buy some tomorrow, thanks for the tip.

monkeybabiess111 I asked the NCT bf support advisor what to do if they bite and she said similar to cinnamon a sharp No and keep removing them and they should get the message quite quickly. I hope the ad's make you feel better soon.

penguin I hope your dd sleeps better tonight. Have you tried children's olbas oil? I put some on a tissue under dds crib last night and it seemed to help her breathing.

cinnamon and for you, sorry you are feeling under the weather you sound like you cope amazingly with your 3 boys, working, Sams hospital appointments but I hope your DH or somebody else can maybe help you out and give you a break because it sounds like you need some you time.

It's hard when they put on a sad face, I tried to do the take off put down thing dd just laughed at me :/.

I've woken up feeling Okishthis morning, I think the fact we only had 4 wake ups rather than 6/7 helped, it makes me scared to take the next ad considering it knocks me out of focus for a majority of the day but I know I have to.

Our plans are to stay in as I have both alone all day and ds is being funny while out at times on buses so don't want to risk a meltdown happening today.

Ive just built dds ikea high chair but she is having a nap so can't check if she is ok in it yet.

It's a lovely day here so I'm going to walk into town and buy some anbesol and its baby massage this afternoon so will see what mood dd is in as to whether we go to that.

monkeybabiess111 I'm glad you felt ok when you woke up and I hope things start to improve for you.

Wine I hope she likes the high chair and feels ok for baby massage.

Feeling really tired again I don't like this I thought maybe something was working I guess I need more patience,
I need to pay more attention to things I turned up to pick ds up and today's the day they get the yearly photos done, if I had known that I would have dressed him in better clothes. They did his at the very end and took a few of dd so I hope they turn out ok.

I need a vent about well lots of things feel free to ignore.
Dp goes full time this week I'm really scared as even though he doesn't do much having him around so I can at least cook,clean do things without leaving the dc unattended is helpful as ds likes to tip dd over if he realises they are alone.
Not only that he's not going to get paid for a month as of today and he's only just told me this we move soon my savings cover that, I thought he had savings he doesn't luckily The money I get already pays the bills but now there's also the car insurance and petrol money will need covered by that to.
It's stressing me out I put money aside for Thursday as I'm meant to be going to meet people, I'm sort of dreading/ looking forward to it if that makes sense I know if I go I will be fine but it's the getting ready and getting there and I do do better around people although it worries me they know quite a lot of what's going on which is embarrassing when I think about it.
Everything right now seems so hard so freaking hard I want to sleep all the time but I can't as either dc are up or my brain doesn't stop and I know there just thoughts in trying to remember that but there overpowering.
I'm trying to act normal or as normal as I can be but I keep landing up going to a different room from the dc to cry and half the time I don't even know why I hate it I hate me, I just want it to stop and a full nights sleep.
Dp did look after them for 2 hours tonight but I couldn't switch off and he's going to work again.

You can do it, you will do it. I take ds3 in his bouncy chair to the kitchen as recently he doesn't like to be away from me or in his door bouncer on kitchen door for cooking. I can't imagine going from weekly to monthly pay but you'll get by, perhaps you'll need to walk more if it's just petrol that the problem, or could you use an overdraft as you know you'll have the money at the end of the month. I think you need to leave the kids with dp and go elsewhere for a full nights sleep once a week to help you, catch up on your sleep again. I am struggling the last week or so and feel like I spend a lot of the day trying not to cry but I don't think my boys realise so you're probably seeming more normal than you think.

High hairs are so exciting wineandchoccy, hope it fits well and enjoy the sunshine! Thanks for your cuppa and cake! I don't think anyone can help really as it's just work on top of everything else. I'm currently working 7.30-6 4 days a week and only 8-9 and 3-6 Friday's so will have a little more time. I have a very active into everything 14 month old mindee who is exhausting plus everything else required for minding and my general family life. Thankfully hospital is down to once every three months now but life doesn't give me a break. Even little things like remembering everything my kids need for school on different days are taxing my brain at the moment!

I'll reply properly in the morning but just sending to you all x

Thanks shiteforbrains I looked for a diffuser but the supermarket didn't have one. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we are over the worst of it as she slept better last night after using shower steam to clear her nose again. DH was trying to give her expressed milk before that and she kept pushing the bottle out of her mouth so she could breathe. But fingers crossed we are getting there.

Wine I hope the high chair is going down well! DD knows now when she goes in hers that it's food time. Her appetite seems to be increasing as well. I'm a bit worried that she's dropped some breast feeds but still seems to be thriving and wetting nappies so I'm assuming all is ok and I just keep offering regularly and she usually had a few gulps.

Cinnamon I don't know how you're managing all of that - long hours are exhausting. Are you still getting any time to yourself and going running? Just thinking of ways you can de stress. It's ok to have a cry too I think it often helps. Obviously not ideal in the middle of the day while looking after children though

Monkeybabies things will improve. It's early days for the ad and I wouldn't expect that it's having any positive effect yet but it will in time. Side effects normally improve after the first couple of weeks. I hope you can manage to go and meet people on Thursday. I think it's actually a good thing that they know what's going on! You don't have to put on a front or pretend everything is fine if it isn't with them. Getting out of the house might be good - I know it's hard for you though. Moving house is bound to be stressful it would be for anyone but hopefully it will lead to less stress in the long run.

I'm meant to be at bf group now but just as we were getting ready to go dd looked really tired and I didn't want to miss the opportunity so I've got her down for a nap in the pushchair. we can't take the pushchairs into the group room so I've just stayed at home. Going out later to see an exhibition of the poppies that were at the Tower of London and hopefully DH will be in this evening earlier as he's worked overtime the last 2 days. Only an hour each day but it's a long time when I'm trying to feed dd and prepare our meal too. Hope everyone has a good day.

Cinnamon I'm sorry your feeling like that, I've found crying does take the pressure off momentarily.

Penguin I hope you got out to see the Poppy's, I also hope your dh gets home early.

I need to remember the ad aren't a quick fix its just hard waking up exhausted I feel like I'm walking around in a daze half the day with the side effects then just wishing to shut off the other half I cry waking up because I wake up I feel like an idiot at times :/.
I'm going to try and go tomorrow it's a long day and a lot of travelling that's what's worrying me as if I do do whatever's been happening there it's along way home but I want to go, I've gotten everything packed to go I hope dd sleeps tonight.

I'm still running PenguinPoser, Saturday morning parkrun and a Tuesday evening are my standards and I try to get an early morning run in too. Monday night I went with my canicross club and felt sooooo much more positive and I then walked in the door to find ds2 in clean clothes which he had covered in dinner. I lost the plot big style with dh who was obviously trying to be helpful but seeing as ds1 was out of uniform why would ds2 not have been if it had been clean enough to save over to the next day. My reaction was massively disproportionate and I felt awful afterwards but it made me so angry having spent 1.5hrs that day ironing while ds3 and my minded little boy slept and the other two were at preschool!!!!! You can't take pushchairs in? So you have to wake them up when you arrive, seems a bit mean!

Cinnamon sorry your having a tough time, don't feel bad about it, i would have been upset to, I hope you can rest tonight.

I made it today I had a few moments where I panicked only a few noticed as I walked away to get my self together then on way home I panicked as the train was packed, I feel good for going for the fact I did although my concentration isn't the greatest at times I was getting lost in conversations. Dp picked me up so we are heading for food then home to do bed time.
I'm utterly exhausted so I'm hoping it's an early night to night.

I hope everyone else has a good night.

Woo hoo our garden is finally finished, DH started it when he was on paternity leave and dd is 6 months old next week! It looks lovely we just have to wait until next year to enjoy it because it's took that long to do its not BBQ or sitting in the garden weather.

Today's entertainment has been a trip to pets at home she loved watching the chinchillas and the goldfish. Free fun is good because I have been to 3 baby groups this week and have gone for coffee with some of the mums afterwards plus I've been shopping to Next for some baby clothes in 6-9 months so it's been an expensive week.

I hope everyone has had a good day and all babies are fast asleep.

That sounds good Wineandchoccy- at least next summer dd will be able to really enjoy the garden . What a good idea too for going to the pet shop! I might do that. Have also been for more tea and cake than is good for me (and having more in the morning!) and shipped in next.. Ans now some of my online sale purchases have arrived in store to collect! I've been buying 6-9m too but dd is still so small she's only just into 3-6m and I just can't see the bigger stuff ever fitting! Although I know it will.

Cinnamon hope you had a more relaxing day yesterday. And hope you're having a better night Monkeybabies.

We were woken at 3.15 as there was a power cut and all the local burglar alarms were going off at once. Thankfully it only lasted 20 min and dd actually slept through it typically woke an hour or so later though. Just about to attempt the transfer back to her crib.

My body's given up on me today, I've not got out of bed today I've not slept and I can't eat, I feel empty like there's nothing left of me now.
The only thing I've done is feed dd lying down, Dp fed her her breakfast lunch and dinner.
I've failed them all I agreed I wouldn't go back to this I've broken that promise.
Ds is asleep dd is being fussy I just want her to sleep so it's quiet.
I keep trying to remember how long until the next appointment (11 days) it's getting harder not better I know they take weeks to work, it just feels like a lifetime away I've only been taking them since Sunday.

Ignore this I just wanted to write somewhere how I feel :/

I hope everyone had a good day and has a good night.

You might be lucky and get a few more sitting in the garden days wineandchoccy!

Obviously you have to do what you feel is best Shiteforbrains but keep trying to transfer him. Perservance pays off and I presume you won't want every sleep in you in the future. I've done it gently with my eldest and with minded children and eventually they so sleep on their own.

You haven't broken any promise because youve spent a day in bed monkeybabiess111, your body is telling you you need a rest. Be kind you yourself

Thankfully all went smoothly at parkrun today so I was home by 10. Had to collect ds3's feet casting so had a wander around as its in a town we don't usually visit, did boys homework and that's about it for my day. Ds3 had egg today, which always worried me as my friends ds had a terrible reaction when weaning, but he was fine and loved it

monkeybabiess111 I hope things start to improve soon for you but remember we are all here for you, keep taking to us if it helps

shiteforbrains I can't believe that your ds is crawling and pulling himself up already, my dd is a day younger than your ds and is not doing either of those you are going to have eyes in the back of your head very soon

cinnamon that sounds like a lovely relaxed day and glad he enjoyed another new taste.

penguin I bought some 6-9 months sleep suits in Next and thought they didn't look that big in the shop but they are huge on dd.

We haven't done much today food shopping and a walk into town, dd was tired after her bath and didn't feed for very long so I hope it's a good night.