pr You are not a shite mum, not in the slightest. I have days like you have described with my DD1. I fear we are far too similar and rub each other up the wrong way. I also am much nicer to E than I am to her and I too fear that she has picked up on this. It's hard as I love E's age, mainly as she's fun, does what she's told and can't answer back
. My DD1 is so headstrong and manic. She just does not rest for 5 mins at any point during the day. We're going to have great teenage rows! However having said all that I love her unconditionally, as I know you do your DD1. I just have days where I don't like how she behaves. She is now of an age where she knows and understands this. As she gets older things are getting better and we tend to now have more good days than we do bad. Please don't feel guilty (I know that I do after the bad days), but I always go to the bed with the intention that tomorrow I will be a better mum. Sometimes I am, sometimes I'm not but at least the intention is there! Chin up 
sophia I was just wondering why I had bad wind tonight too
. I'm blaming it on some quinea that was in our dinner. Odd stuff!
yw Glad to read of happy nursery tales and vq J is a very clever little boy.
det I'm forever very nearly running out of petrol to the point where the tanks has been at complete 0 on many an occassion when I've chugged it into a petrol station. Your tale has made me much more cautious about this now! Glad you got rescued.
I'm up far too late again. Really must start going to bed earlier! Rubbish.