Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
That's better.
So glad to hear e got some weight on Eliza, and also that she took some banana and a bit more by bottle. All very encouraging. I'm so sorry I implied bf was a choice for you - it somehow slipped my mind that it isn't. Hope you get out of hospital soon.
Det your yesterday sounded awful. I do hope today is a bit better.
Mm sorry to hear how you are feeling about dp. Hopefully when m is a bit better things will settle? The jobs issue is a tricky one though.
I am really glad it's sweary Wednesday as I am really fucking struggling. G wants to be held or entertained every minute of the day at the moment and is generally lots less settled than he has been to date. Which is bloody crap timing as dh and I are trying to come to terms with everything re dd, and I am desperate to do as much speech and physio work with her as I can. The house is a shambles and I'm really struggling to find time to cook etc. And whenever I put g down he shouts at me, and I'm really struggling with it. Doen't help that dh is having a tough time at work. Getting out and about helps a bit - but every time a tottering one yr old points at crawling dd and says "look mum, a baby" a little bit of me dies inside. Dd knows what a baby is and that she isn't one - she just looks really confused and I fucking hate it.