Fucking hell, I skim read...
Garden I would like to write a longer post - will tomorrow - but thoughts are with you. You know my feelings, men can be total dickheads. Lots of thoughts and hugs... and 
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DP is being a silly bugger currently and making fart noises over the baby monitor. And playing his 'bullshit' activator. I do hope he is doing it in the bathroom, as Oscar is in the basket. I am downstairs doing a wee party dance. I think he is trying to tell me to come to bed! 
Oscar is OscarWoscar. No idea why. 
Osciepants sometimes. Weird. You would think plain Ozzy would be fine. Especially given his first name and middle name initials are OZ!
The appointment was shit and pointless, but thank you for asking. I've started a thread asking for advice on sick pay. Feel fecked. Told the same old crap 'its just a big epis, its going to take time to heal'. Yeah. Great. Thanks. Men wouldn't put up with this shit, seriously. Why are women expected to just put up and shut up when it comes to birth injury. I've felt quite angry this evening really. I'll not whinge on, but I want to fucking function like a normal person. That is all. :( Been discharged and told to come back after 6 months if no change. Told that it has been stitched fine - oh yeah, well why can I feel lumps on the outside. Told it is slightly tethered on the inside, but nothing that needs anything doing 
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The only consolation was the look on her face when she realised she could see the scar on my butt cheeks without me even parting my legs. Yes. I know its huge. Fuckers.
Apols for the swearing. I needed a vent.