Hello vq I sent you a pm :)
Well, it turned out that my incision wasn't infected- it was the fold of skin above it, likely caused by how much time I have to spend sat feeding the babies. I feed them together - in a tandem football hold I believe it's called- on a boppy pillow and so have to sit in the same position every time I feed them. This has led to my skin getting sweaty where there is an overhang and caused the infection :(
As per the excellent suggestions from you all, I put some tea tree oil onto a sanitary towel and kept it next to the infected skin by way of a crepe bandage I found in our medicine cabinet. I'm almost certain that it was the tea tree that sorted it out, rather than the hydrocortizone cream that the doctor gave me. I didn't like having to touch the area to put the cream on :(
Anyway it's all looking better now so all's good.
I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself this week. I was certain that the twins would find their own level and come to a routine by themselves by now. They have not. They will not sleep if they are not on me and appear to be cluster feeding from about 1pm until 9/10pm. I've felt so tired and so useless that I've teetered on the edge of tears for the last ten days or so. Last sunday I sat and sobbed to myself for an hour while feeding the babies. On top of everything I was feeling, I had caved in to my vanity and squeezed myself into the compression vest thing (like a corset) that I had bought to try and help get my figure back. It was fine while I was stood up, but then I sat down to feed the babies and it squashed me horribly and just seemed to serve to show me how hideously fat I am. I sobbed for Britain. What made it worse was that by the time I got it off, I felt like it had made my stomach swell and my ribs hurt. I looked bigger than when I put it on and hurt all over my middle. That'll teach me.
I decided yesterday to start imposing a routine on them instead as I had nothing to lose. Tried the self-settling thing with limited success yesterday, but measurably more success this morning. It gave me enough time to put some washing on, tidy up etc, but more than that, just have five/ten minutes at a time to myself. I feel more positive now :)