February 2011- the one where life gets better for all of us.

[GOLDdebka]

New thread open for business!!

I am anticipating MUCH weight loss, job improvements, sleeping babies, good health and one very eagerly anticipated BFP. :)

Oh, and thanks for anyone who was thinking of me and first Xmas without my dad. Weird thing happened, we got back from spending Xmas at my mums, and had a clear out of a top shelf of a cupboard to make room for the bottles of wine and whiskey dp had been bought. Anyway dp found an old Xmas present my dad had got me that I don't remember him giving me, it was a nice shaped bottle with 'blood orange vodka' in (this is making me sound like an alkie ) I think he must have got it from a Xmas market type place, it was written on 'to Sarah, merry Xmas, love dad' but not in his writing so they personalised it if that makes sense.

Long winded but nice in a sad way I just wanted to share

wiggles I'm 65 then as 7:30 is v late for me to have dinner - we have ours at 5:30

ponyo glad As eye is ok, that's really weird in a nice way you found that gift on christmas isn't it?

Right, off to bed I am 65 don't you know

wiggs we have tea at 5.45 here, what does that make me, 62??

blizy of course you feel sad, it's just.not.fair. We are all cheering for this to be your time again xxx

reastie so sorry to hear about your Grandad, you've had a right old year of it, haven't you :( They used to call pneumonia Old Man's Friend because it would quietly carry him off when he'd just had enough. There's an old chap with dementia I look after, he had pneumonia a month or so ago and made an unexpected recovery, but he's had no kind of life since, lost masses of weight and his dementia is getting worse seemingly daily :(

ponyo lovely story about your dad. Must be such a relief now Anya's sleeping a bit better, long may it last!

My 2 are fine, they play together nicely a lot now. Scream at each other a lot too but mostly play. S is such a little comedian though, she makes us laugh every day. And I can't believe I have to apply for school for Ims next month

Hello all

Sorry reastie about your grandad, hope he was comfortable. Nate eats masses of fruit and vegetables but they come out erm unchanged so I am not convinced that toddlers can actually digest anything other than biscuits.
Ponyo, glad you managed Christmas okay
Blizy best of luck for your appointment
Wiggles I was a die hard late eater, but always eat with Nate so it's 6pm for us too.

Bit of bad news from me, unfortunately had a miscarriage on Christmas Eve. Feeling a bit better now but have been very upset as I was nearly 11 weeks and we let ourselves get so excited. I know that sadly too many of you have been in this position, or worse, but really hope me and blizy get 2013 babies!

Oh Borg, that is crap. I'm so sorry, hope you are doing ok. I have everything crossed for us both for 2013. X

Borg - How horrible, especially Christmas eve.

blizy - Feeling a bit jealous and sad is completely natural, even if it makes you feel like a horrible person. Massive hugs.

reastie - sorry about your grandad, you've had a very rough year.

Ponyo - ahh, lovely story about the gift from your dad. I was hoping A would suddenly decide to sleep again, just like L does.

Christmas was lovely, we spent it with my family and they were very generous to L. The car was completely full on the drive home and we had to leave some things until next visit.

We are all ill and feeling rubbish right now. L had a fever a week and a half ago, followed by a chesty cough, then his fever came back a few days ago. I phoned the doctor to find that our health insurance company assigned us a GP who only works Fridays and doesn't have an appointment open until mid-January. I was able to register L with a paed recommended by a friend and will phone Monday if he's still poorly. I have a dodgy tummy so fingers crossed he doesn't get it too.

Oh dear borg I'm so sorry love. Mine was around that time and it stinks as you say you have allowed yourself time to be excited by then x
blizy normal reaction to have poor you. And why the fuck is she allowed to be of again anyway
reastie sorry about gd at least he's at peace now I guess.
wuggs we eat late always. I don't enjoy my meal with d grabbing at my peas or crying to "get down" they sound like fil he's always looking panicked around 4.30 when there is no bubbling pot on the hob.
ponyo that sweet about the pressie. I found a card from my nan from when I had ds 1 at 16. It was so sweet and I remembered what a good strong lady she was.
Well shit Xmas here I'm afraid. Noro struck Ella on Xmas eve D I. Xmas day dh on Boxing Day And me yesterday. I felt terrible all day Nd was alone. The worst thing for me is the aches and pains. I felt like I was being turned inside out.
Poor Ella keeps crying about her lost Xmas its so sad.

Oh borg awful news & even worse at this time of year...hope you & dh are having lots of time together to help ease the pain x

blizy don't feel guilty, perfectly natural to feel that way....& totally don't blame you....you handle things so well, I'd have been a complete, angry mess if it were me..

reastie sorry to hear of gd's passing. I lost my mum at this time of year & is horrible trying to get through it all. Hope your mum is ok & that the funeral all goes ok..

wiggs I'm the same as you...prefer to have dinner after N in bed...can enjoy it more. We always get comments like that when people stay with us...& yes a week is a bloody long time! We restrict stays with us to 5 days max .

ponyo glad you made it through Xmas ok...sounds like A was loving it.

Sorry to hear NV struck you ledkr. My sis had it too...12 hrs before she was due to fly down . So not sure when I'm gonna see her now...

N had a fab Xmas....wasn't bothered about the pressies until they were unwrapped (nor bothered about the paper...strange child!). But he's kinda been sleeping thru...still have the odd tantrum when we try to put him down...then that means he'll be up at least once in the night (as he did last night!)...need to nip this in the bud before we go back to work & I'm back to 4 days...

Off to gym in a mo...then maybe sales shopping as I need new work clothes...

Hope everyone has a lovely New Year x

Sorry ...hi to debka & american

Gosh granny poor sis. Did she get her money back for flights.
We have seen no family at all even ds1 was ill so had to send his pressies down.
D still not right. Just wants to cuddle all day and not really eating much at all. Meant to work tomorrow but no chance.

Na ledkr would have cost her £221 to change the flights so was cheaper to cancel them...she lost 2/3rds of the cost. I said I'd get her flights down for later in the month so she's not out of pocket bit she's not having any of it...

Oh dear....poor wee soul..I'm touching everything wooden in the hope we don't catch it here as by all accounts it sounds friggin awful...

Oh borg I'm so sorry. By 11 weeks you start to feel a bit more confident about things not going wrong don't you. I had a mc on new years eve 4 years ago and I still feel every new years eve since. Hope you're OK.

Blizy please report back from GP as soon as your apt tomorrow - we will all be waiting to hear any news

Ledkr what a rubbish christmas - poor all of you

Granny that's a shame your sis couldn't come, but then, probably best that than her getting it once she'd arrived.

american at the american health insurance system where you can't just see a gp like we can - so it seems thr NHS isn't quite so bad??

Went to a farm park this morning with Alice. Just a tiny local one - we were the only people there! Alice loved it and fed all the animals and tried chasing the ducks . We're hoping to take her to the zoo next week.

Borg I'm so very sorry xxx

ledkr You have my complete and utter sympathy, we were all so ill 2 weeks ago and I think it might be making a second round of our house. Anna has been sick and Mr W is looking a bit green. Poor Ella

My visitors have left , my Christmas tree is down, my house is slightly less glittery than usual, my fridge is empty - I've missed you normal life

I had Olivia at GPs this morning for throat swabs and blood tests, unfortunately she has inherited my disappearing veins It was horrible for a while but we able to do it, and she didn't even flich or her eyes didn't even water I'm afraid me and the nurse did enough of that for everyone She was a real star and ended up cadging a few 50ps of the older people who were getting their bloods done She practically staggered home under the weight of stickers and sweets from the surgery. S was almost jealous but then she nearly passed out when I took off Os plasters!

In case I don't get on later Happy New Year

I want to wish you all a happy new year, I hope all,of your wishes and dreams come true in 2013.

Not good news for me today, we have been referred to the fertility clinic. First step will be an HSG, which I'm petrified about. I'm down right fed up of things not going right for me, I must have been a right evil person in my past life! Sorry about the self pity as usual, anyhoo I hope you all have a lovely night whatever you do. X

Ah blizy you are right to feel self pity darling you have been dealt a shitty blow and have behaved in such a dignified manner. You had Zoe for such a short time and have since not conceived and that is very cruel. Then you have faced family and friends having babies and still hung in there.
Maybe the next baby isn't ready to come yet maybe having time to respect and remember Zoe is a good thing. I don't know but don't give up hope. This time last year you were nowhere near getting help and now you've got a referral which is a big step forward. Tests so far have been ok so in sure you won't need huge intervention either.
Take your time to be sad angry and self pitying but don't lose sight of that goal cis it' is entirely possible, your first daughter showed you that.
Much love to you and dh and happy new yr to the rest of you.
I am on tonight......but out all day tomorrow! Yey. Races cancelled so bevs in town it is for us girls. I will have to overcome feeling sick to drink copious vodka. At least Ive lost some weight to glam up lol.

I meant I'm in tonight, I thought that would shock you.

blizy ledkr is right as usual, the referral is a step forward. Wallow away sweetheart, its not self pity its just sadness, deep sadness and grief xxx

I too am in tonight (shocker ), Mr W is working, Anna is asleep, I'm minding Emma until 9ish - she is also asleep and Sofia and Olivia are upstairs listening to Pop Party I can't even blame Santa - I bought it for Olivia, solely for Gangnam Style

ledkr I wondered if you were going to the races when I heard it had been cancelled. Enjoy tomorrow .

blizy second what led said. Can you try and take a positive out of it- you have a referral now, which is progress. Life seems to be bloody cruel to you atm though. Sending you a hug. Will light a candle for Zoe tonight, she's not forgotten. xxx

borg so so sorry, that is vile and awful :( I hope the mc wasn't too grim for you. How are you feeling now?

ledkr enjoy your day out tomorrow.

wiggles what a brave girl you have there, are they investigating her throat?

Had a mammoth clear out and re-organise here today, feels awesome to have sorted our clutter precious things out. Celebrated with fish and chips for tea, God my trousers barely do up now . Need to pull my finger out and get back with the programme.

blizy just to echo everyone else. Life is so unfair and you are such a lovely person. The referral is a good thing to help you.

deb we had a sort out too - it's great organising stuff isn't it. I went into a ruthless mode of just wanting to get rid of everything! So how much weight have you lost now btw?

wiggles are MrW and Anna feeling better now?

ledkr I'm a bit slow but why are the races cancelled? Is it the rain?

Well, I'll be tucked in bed way before the new year as always

Yep the rain horses can't run on their galoshes lol.
I am minding dgs with the help of Ella in return for dil having mine tomorrow. Dh also working tonight I sent him an extremely rude text with regards to his we will see in the new year (all lies cos too late and tired) he hasn't replied so obviously busy dealing with early ny revellers or jockeys rioting went to panto today which d loved especially boo and hiss at the bady she sat through entire thing ill try to upload a pic.

Wiggs Anna is asleep? At 6.30 are you mad? Is she hoping to see on the new year

ledkr A is usually asleep by 6.30/7.00pm. She gets up at the same time regardless of when she goes asleep. The other two were the same until they started school. Even if they stayed up later they were still up far too early only they were in shite form as well

reastie Mr W felt really dreadful for a few hours, threw up twice, then felt better, so headed to work. They are so short staffed that they'd be welcoming those with Ebola tbh.

debka O was on antibiotics for 2 weeks before Christmas and they didn't help, so I brought her to GP a few days ago and got different antibiotic but also went slightly ballastic about her being so ill, losing weight and that I was afraid she was so used to having sore throats that she was constantly living with low level pain and only complaining of flare ups. I told him I wasn't happy going through another year of it, he agreed so he is getting blood tests done, ruling out mono etc and if we're still none the wiser by the end of next week I'm booking her a private appointment and sitting on the Consultant possibly literally until she gets on the list for tonsillectomy.

I'm now watching Top of the Pops with Sofia - I fear she has a bit of a crush on Tulisa [eyeroll]

wiggs poor little O and her throat :( Hope you get conclusive results quickly. My 2 are also in bed between 6.30 and 7, xmas eve they didn't get to bed till 8, were a nightmare by 4pm xmas day, stupidly overtired.

reastie 8st 11.5lbs at last count probably just 8st now after the week I've had though !! I'll be in bed by 10 too I reckon, unless DH makes me sit through Pulp Fiction don't ask

Thanks girls, you always know how to cheer me up. It's just that I feel like a failure iykwim?

Aww wiggles, poor O with the blood test, I gave blood on fri and was wincing as the woman couldnt find a vein, my arm is black and blue but it's for a good cause though. I hope you get some answers about her throat, it's been going on far too long, poor little sausage.

Wigs/ ledkr I'm having a quiet one too, trying to,persuade dh to go to our friends party, he wants to go but doesn't want to leave me. I'm looking forward to. A Night of trashy films and peace to sob and wallow tbh. No point in us both being sat in miserable.

Thanks deb, x.

Reastie, how are you feeling? Do you have plans for tonight?

Wiggs- tulisa does my head on with that song "we are young" who's she kidding eh?
I thought you meant nap time yes d went at 6 yesterday but up at 5.
Tonight she is resisting bedtime preferring instead to sample all six flavours of lip balm from her stocking
I stil feel constantly sick tbh and d vomits from time to time. Ella is under four stones and not eating well neither is dh. He answered my text with yes please. Does that mean I have to do it?
Watching the soaps now in front of a roaring gas fire lol.