First year nearly done , our October 2010 babies will soon be one

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Convinced something terrible would happen to him. My appointments with a councillor guy so hopefully I'll talk my way to the bottom of it. Work was bad the first two weeks and I could feel mysf slipping so I decided to take action and do something.

hj get someone with a camera phone to send you a pic of dd3 having fun. It helped me to see that ds was ok and happy, I didn't feel so bad then. Also take a nice lunch, nothing worse than having a horrid day and then opening your lunch box to crappy bread. Honestly it will probably be hard but take it an hour at a time, and the phrase 'I've just come back off of ml' gets you out of most things and makes people more forgiving. Before you know it, you'll be back home.

Oh and drink tea, don't let them con you out of your right to a cup of the good stuff .

Sorry to hear about all the pnd. I was depressed after I had meningitis, it was the shock of it all and my new inability to cope with doing stuff. It was a really difficult time and I really feel for you. I wasn't physically able to work so didn't but couldn't have mentally anyway. Taking one day, or half day at a time helped, as did asking friends for more help with the children than I was used to. A couple of other things put it into context for me too. I saw a counsellor who told me that as part of her anxiety she couldn't drive around roundabouts. I thought, my situation might be bad but it's better than that - that spurred me on. I also met a friend's friend who had horrific bouts of depression throughout her life. I realised that I wasn't as bad as her, that my condition was temporary and that I couldn't allow myself to ever be like that. Ultimately I am fully recovered. I very occasionally have a panic attack - after my surgery for example, but only in extreme circumstances. Coping is about over-riding your instinct to be fearful or to panic, which is hard to do and about speaking positively at all times even when you don't believe it. Try reading 'you can heal heal your life' by Louie Hey (might be Hay actually). It's a bit 'out there' but essentially and underneath all the Americanism, very good for a depressed mind.

I don't drink tea but my place is very good at ensuring we get drinks & biscuits! My new desk is right next to the fridge & drinks stuff which may or may not be a good idea.

Hi Mock/everyone-just a quick post to let you know there is a Facebook memorial for red 4( I've liked it so the link is on my profile) also there is a local campaign for bornemouth to wear red to the airshow in honour today. It's really shocked everyone down here.

mock I hope you're feeling better this morning.

Thanks for the link Seashells I think its a great idea for people to wear red at the airshow . Last time I saw him we were hosting locals at a cocktail party together. All the old ladies fawned over him and he was politeness personified . He wasn't a red arrows pilot then, he was on Harrier Jump Jets.

Ok thanks Tribble. Now you mention how you were and are feeling I know what you mean about the anxiety. After DD's skull fracture I had constant visions of more injuries to befall her and terrible accidents. A friend of mine had the sleeplessness too and all she was prescribed was sleeping tablets. Counselling sounds like a much more holistic solution. Love your bit about tea! You made it sound like there's good tea and bad tea and you have to make aure they give you the decent stuff!! Great idea about the good packed lunch too and the photos. I am going to feel so sad returning to work.

I've been out for the afternoon with 5 kids. I will be counting all night.even dd3 kept disappearing( only under the next table )

HJ I think once you reach the five kids point, it becomes something of a crowd control situation. You basically are just trying to make sure that they all reach adulthood with all major limbs and organs attached. To be quite frank anything after that is a bonus.

Mock Oh you have to have the good stuff. Work have become stingy with the old cuppas at the moment. It happened over a week ago and I'm still feeling angry about it .

I think I got used to the old coffee mornings with DS. I miss my mid morning cup of tea and various cake like substance.

Mock Is DD going to a nursery or a childminders? I can't remember.

Bloody Government Cuts Tribble

We have to buy our own. I did notice last time I was in we had about 12 types of tea.
Dh is a coffee snob, we travel the country via costas as we don't have one here.
I drink pop. Pepsi before lunch, what ever is on offer after

HJ Oh we have to get our own, I meant more having an oppurtunity to have one of the bleeding things. We have a bit of a turf war going on at the moment over our tea and milk (and the taking of it). I saw someone marking up a bottle with a line where the milk was as he was finishing. I've had visions of someone making tea with my EBM after that one.

That's the one advantage of having to update the computers all the time, drinks & biscuits!

We pay too and we too have had milk issues at my job pre-mat leave!! People came in early morning and brought their cereal with them and used loads of milk meaning that by mid afternoon it had always run out and crates of the stuff were delivered each day!

The funniest thing was that the tea swindle had invested in a Nespresso machine and had those little pod things that you could pay 30p for to make a fancy coffee. (I did it once and decided it was a faff). So many cool 'topgun' types were walking around with little espresso cups and saucers that looked like part of a fairy tea set. Fairy teacup and leather bomber jackets don't go together! .

Mock I'm imagining guys with big beefy fingers trying in vain to hold a fairy tea cup with barely any tea in it and trying to look well tough.

Me I'm hard, my cup is a bucket.

Spring Thank you for sharing your story, it's helpful to hear others experiences. It shows there is light at the end of the tunnel.

HJ Are you still suffering with SPD? If so, the pelvic partnership told me that if you're still suffering more than six months post birth you may be eligable for a blue badge. I still have the book lying around somewhere, I think.

Right must go to bed.

Yes. I'm limited how far I can walk without pain/ being incapacitated for a few days. I'm seeing a orthopaedic specialist soon, hoping they will have some suggestions.

Id feel a fraud with a blue badge & living in a 4 story house.

So true Trib! . The funniest was an engineer who was about 6ft 3 beefy all over! There was a little pilot who looked like he'd be more at home sipping his espresso in the Italian Air Force.

mock I have such funny images in my head now!

Dh just rang me to say that ds really cried at nursery drop off today, am feeling really bad now. I think its just the shock after our weeks holiday together. He always seems happy there when we pick him up, and they are lovely there. Having a minor wobble!

tribble there really is light at the end of the tunnel, you will get there. I've had a couple of low points in my life, the first caused my a succession of traumas and the second my the bullying from my boss, and each time it has been so hard to believe things would get better, but the clouds eventually lifted

HJ my FIL has a blue badge and lives in a house not bungalow! Are you racing up and down the stairs with the speed of Sherpa Tensing in your own home but hobbling round Debenhams? No, thought not. You would not be a fraud. Its not like you bought your house in the full knowledge that your pregnancy would have this effect on you.

Ds has just pulled himself up, buggery.

I miss the days when I could just leave him in a bouncer.

Me too tribble!

I do lift the pram( with dd3) in & out of the house on my own which wouldn't look good. It hurts but there's no way round it.

hj I suppose it's good to know that there are options out there for you though. I know its hard, but hopefully you'll get better sooner rather than later.

Aah those days Tribble. I was just wishing it was February again. DD was just out of her hip harness and we were about to go on our first holiday .....

HJ, sorry to hear you are still in spd pain after ten months. That's terrible. You do what you need to do to make like easier for yourself.

Mock, sorry to hear about your pilot friend. :(

Been a busy weekend here - DH's birthday today, so I was making cake over the weekend, seemed to take ages! I get frustrated because my kitchen is so small, I can't spread out comfortably, and it's a balancing act making surface space to prep, ice, etc. I want to move! Also really want a garden for DS, and of course to grow some vegetables and herbs.