Right... I'm back, notes at the ready. (When I was pregnant, I used have to write down what I wanted to say because I had babybrain. Now, it's sleepdeprivation...)
Again - I want to thank you all. I had such a bad, bad day yesterday... I know everyone is dealing with a lot at the moment, and the strange thing is, rationally, I do know that yesterday was just another day, but no matter how much I tried to tell myself to just snap out of it, I couldn't do it. I kept fighting the tears all day, and if I had been able to, would've loved to just hide in bed with a good book and a mug of hot chocolate... The horrible thing is, I know that when I'm feeling rubbish, he ends up being clingy because he can tell I'm feeling rubbish and he desperately wants reassurance and wants to know that I love him... and when he needs it the most is when I'm least capable of giving it to him. :(
Anyway, by the time DH came home, I was feeling so guilty and that made it worse. But you know what? He really surprised me by sitting down and telling me that it's no wonder I was feeling the way I was, and he wouldn't want anyone else to be a mother for his child, and all that cheesy stuff that I guess I needed to hear, even if I didn't feel it. Went to bed after a big pint of Guinness and Lukas actually had a decent night, think he only woke up three times.
I've tried to make up for being such a miserable un-responsive, un-cuddly mama yesterday, and we've actually had a really lovely day with lots of giggles and cuddles.
And, all of a sudden, he walked. Like, really walked. He took his first steps four weeks ago to the day, but has only been doing 4-5 steps here and there. We've been wondering why he's not doing more, and thought he just preferred crawling because it's quicker. I guess we thought he'd go from 4-5 steps to 6-7 and then some, and some more... but no, suddenly, he just walked. And he was so excited and proud that he just kept doing it until 8.30PM! He's finally crashed now...
But, do you know, I re-read what you all told me, and it's all so different and all so good, I'm going to write this down and have it as a to-do list for the next "rainy" day.
Pav Looove the idea of a zombie creche! I really wish we all lived down the road from each other! Funny you should mention make-up, because I was just talking about this with a friend the other day; I didn't really "do" make-up before Lukas, but now I find myself putting some on more often than not, I think because it's one of the few things that we can do just for us, in just a few minutes.
Skorpion See... that's the thing, sometimes I think I slip in to... not ungratefulness, but definitely perhaps taking the way things are for granted. And we should never lose sight of the fact that we are really blessed to have these miracles in our lives, and that really, they are teaching us so much about love, every day. (Also, how's the nappy situation? I think it's generally better than vomiting, but still worrying, of course.)
Laugs They are little people that deserve a lot of respect. I loved what you said about basically apologising for being tired and miserable - we would to any of our friends who had to put up with us, so why not the little ones? I told him this morning that I was sorry for being so rubbish yesterday, but today was a new day and we were going to do lots of fun things.
MsInterpret and SirB I wish I'd have thought of going for a walk... DH suggested the same. Exercise is always good, fresh air does wonders, and best of all, you do almost forget for a bit that you're mummying, as long as there are no wails from the pushchair! Also, definitely in the newborn wow-stage here... although I had a slight wobble today with the walking; what's the next milestone now? School? 
Also, SirB WELL DONE, be proud! (Must say I'm jealous of the knitted boob!)
Scarlotti Your "let it out, then stand up and square your shoulders..." THAT will be my mantra from now on. You are such a strong, amazing woman! It must be hard to drop the boys off, but I hope that in time, you'll start to see your alone time as time to recharge and pamper yourself, and be YOU, not mama and wife, for a bit. (Not that there is anything wrong with being a mother and a wife, but you know what I mean)
Fruit ...yes, that's the thing. Sharing, although I felt guilty for offloading, did help - especially after having read what you all said! It's too easy to just wallow and think "it's just me..." Also, YAY on the sleep!!! Long may it continue!
DWB 
at the nose/nos! How cute! I think I felt a bit sore after the 20 week scan because my bladder had been over full (was actually told to go and wee because I was squashing the view!) and I think that's when you can feel a bit bruised? Not because of the squashed baby, but because the bladder might get bruised with all the internal pressure when someone applies external pressure too? Funny that DC2 has legs crossed, do you know what you are having? Will you find out? (Have you told us and I've missed it?) Also, if the position is uncomfortable for you, maybe the "spinning baby" positions would work, or it could be too early for that, I don't know.
Right, marathon mememe post over and out.