The land where the bong tree grows 2005

[glitterfairy]

Ok guys I have done some spring cleaning and the yurt is dusted out. I am out on the deck enjoying a glass of fruit cocktail and a spiritual moment. Come and join me.

Lets build you an addition to the deck... now how you like it to be?

Hiya Paps. A strange week. We have ahd a family bereavement in January. A dear Aunt and my mother has been very strange throwing away her things and her whole book collection. I have been to oxfam and brought some of it back, but am hurt. This is on top of the current upset in my personal life. I am trying to distance myself from the hurt and rise above the insults.

Anyway, as I have said am off on a trip with DH to look at ancient watery palaces (venice) and glass and will hopefully get some much needed rest and relaxation and spend some time thinking and talking things through.

I am hoping to be in a better space when I return but for now am playing with the stones by the lake and watching the mer people and dolphins singing on the distant sea shore.

Hi Glitterfairy
Have been thinking about you lots and hope Venice is healing and a good space for you and your dh (((())))

Well from what you have said about your Mum these actions are probably no suprise to you. There are constantly lessons to be learned from the actions of others. Perhaps you Mum lacked the consideration to other members of the family wishing to have your Aunts possessions - or perhaps whe thought nobody wanted them? Did she ask?

Sometimes as you know with past experience with her... you have to reach out your hand. Not always to make peace but to honour yourSelf... to ensure that you walk your path and not walk hers... and allow the actions of others impinge on your feelings and thoughts. Do you know what I mean? Sometimes our own blocks in life can be best seen as others. That means they are our markers / teachers of how to improve ourselves, or not fall into their cycles/patterns/actions.

Communication is sometimes a lacking social skill because I think people don´t want to see what others think. It does not suit their frame of mind / their views... their Being. Instead assumptions take the role of communication. If we cannot respect anothers way, even if its not to our liking, we often will judge them and distance ourselves. Distance can be important when protecting yourself from being hurt, but still I believe it can be used as the mirror on the wall to see the actions of others.. how they affect us... and why that is so.

Cripes I feel like Dear Paps after that little speech. I will shut up now... except to say that do I learn from what I write/wrote.
Tonite I will dream in my dolphin body and lurk in the canals of Venice, hope the waters abit cleaner these days - might be the only dolphin ever seen wearing an Aqualung

Hello! I felt unicorns calling me.. there seems to be more than one now!

I have been here.. but just not posted about it. Not been here enough though. I just sitting on the deck now, drinking my kiwi and orange smoothie made by DH and listening to the sounds of the waves in the distance. I can also hear wind chimes...

Love to you all

SJ xx

HI SJ and yes the dolphins have sung them here too.

Paps you are a genius. Today mum was completely out of order again and I was thinking of cutting her off completely. THen I read your post and thought I will take my time and maybe I shoudl tell her how she has upset me and deal with it myself. Youa re right mum and I are quite similar in some ways and she is a guide to how not to live my life. She always goes for closure without thinking and recently I too have been facing decisions which in the past I would have made fast and dramatically. I am trying to take it more gently and sort my life more slowly not rushing into things headlong but taking my time.

Venice was wonderful. Romantic beautiful and gorgeous. We argued the first night but have agreed to take time to heal and spend the next six months being more honest. Your dolphin was much admired my friend. I am going to work wiht DH more and join his company more and we are going to unite for the a while and have counselling together.

Halloooo Glitterfairy and welcome home to Bong land honey

Glad the time in Venice was well spent... sounds good direction has been intented.

Glad too that my post was ok... felt abit apprehensive about it afterwards. It is so good to hear you are taking your time with decisions in life. I think that it will help you alot to sit and take your time wise woman.

Hi SJ... you have your own herd of unicorns now... they hear you talking to them more these days huh!!? Thats fantastic. The Bongian forest is glad of their footsteps

Tonite I have a drink on the deck with you all and we share our stories and laughter X

I am drinking a raspberry champagne and enjoying the spring sunshine and the acid green of the leaves full of promise that warmth is returning.

You are too wise ot offend me paps! Never fear it helps to have a friend who is unafriad to speak the truth. My mother is a guide in many positive nad negative ways and I need to find my balance with her in a way which will not affect my kids too much.

Paps B.A. (bongian analysis) at your service its the online bongian university degree

Raspberry champagne sounds tasty I will have a glass of that too. Yes the leaves are a fine acid green.. I love the colours of Spring. Baby paps was running around the park today in a semi state of undress and loving life! She is 1.5 years old today... happy half birthday to my darling sweet girl.

Goodluck with new ways with your mother.

Happy 1.5 baby paps! I am alone with my girls at the moment as my ds is out with a friend.

I like the sound of that uni paps I may have to join it!

please say hallo to your dd1 from me

off to the Bongian thistledown tree with dh to watch dvd, projected onto a friendly silverbacked cloud. Nite xx

Hiya Paps I hope your bed was snuggly and downy. I had wierd dreams last night. I have a few reccuring dreams and one is being in a house which is floating away after a storm and the river gets more and more angry and I get more and more scared. Only last night my mothers sister who died in January and is the cause of our latest row was there, plus for the first time I had a mobile with me!

Anyway today I am off for a ride to blow away the cobwebs. I will say hi to Esmerelda for you or come along too.

That dream is very revealing to me glitterfairy... is it to you as well...?

Yes Paps I have several anxiety type dreams and this is one of them. My Aunt was acting shocked at my mum by the way!

Esmerelda is playing with you paps due to too much long grass. My pony is also being naughty through too much freedom and too little riding I will gallop on for a bit to let her shake it off.

Good, yes the mobile is a good sign me thinks

Esmeralda at best dawddles except on the homeward stretch and she farts something terrible! Lets have a picnic next to the waterfall as its such a gorgeous weather.

THat sounds wonderful Paps. Am just of now for my ballet morning in rl.

Yes I think the mobile and my aunt as a spirit guide were both hopeful signs.

Hi Paps and Glitterfairy.

Your dream is fascinating GF.. I never seem to remember my dreams anymore... maybe I sleep too deeply - when I can - due to being so tired? I used to 'fly' a lot in dreams and they were sort of lucid in that I knew I was dreaming. Sometimes I knew where I was going! I used to feel scared/excited/exhilarated at the same time.. and unsure about going too high or being seen. It was all so real that since I have learnt about astral travelling I have sometimes wondered if these were more than dreams. But now it doesn't happen.. can't remember my last flying dream

I am off on Belle down to the Bongian Beach to look for the other unicorns. Why can I never feel this liberated in RL?!

((hugs))

SJ x

SJ with small stepping stones, you will notice with greater effect in RL, the power inducing libration techniques of the Bongian Way
Have you ever tried to astral travel in bed b4 going to sleep? With grounding and protection b4hand you might see some dreaming begin.

Did you try grounding Glitter? Oh and did you see the navel thread/powerspot ... might be of interest to you.

All this talk and discussion of dreams in the last two days. And today I read a monthly contemplation (from the Lynn Andrews site) regarding dreams... here it is...

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Contemplate all of this. There are waking dreams, sleeping dreams, and dreams with intent. Within which dream are you living?
You have loved in your dreams. You have been ambitious in your dreams. and you have felt love, joy, and pain, and all the emotion in your dreams. Dreams have been fulfilled and dreams have been shattered. Perhaps, it is good when dreams are shattered. Because sooner or later, you must wake up or you will remain fast asleep. Remember that your dreams can be addictions and they can be fulfilling and clear from intoxication. It depends on how you listen, how you fall asleep, and how you awaken. If you can remember in a dream, that this is a dream, then you are on the very threshold of awakening, of finding your transformation.
What is it, that you are running away from?

Hi guys. Thanks Paps for those words.

SJ I go through patches where I remember them and those where I dont but have about four dreams that haunt me frequently.

I am going to try the grounding again tomorrow paps.

Have spent today with the dolphins who have been whispering their sea secrets to me and singing on the rocks after an amazing display of acrobatics. They took me to a small island where I lay on the beach and dreamt of good things.

Well its been my turn to have dreams. And that has been interesting for me to investigate. One of the dreams I will share here as it has a story I can link ...it was about an unrequainted love of mine. I lay awake in the middle of the night feeling the almost forgotten feelings of desparations love net upon my Soul. When I rose the dream and feeling led me to the story of La Loba or Bone Woman

This story cheered me up no end

How did the grounding go glitter?

It was ok Paps but I need help concentrating whenever I set my mind free off it goes into spin! I did a lot of reading today and that has grounded me in a big way. All fiction and historical at that and I am loving it. It has always been my way of sorting things in my head. That and chess!

Your dream sounds interesting and I will read the story tomorrow.

I guess it takes practise Glitter. I am such a pea brain short attention span pregnant person that I don´t spend alot of time going through my body levels for the grounding... When I go to do it... I relax and concentrate on my feet then visualise my feet/roots wrapped around the earth axis.

I feel a connection very quickly which is lucky for me! My brain would wander off otherwise lol

I guess if I had any blocks further up the body I would take the time to ground and nuture that place.

Well I went to my favourite underground bookstore/market today and came home loaded with books

I got ´The book of Virtues´´Norwegian Folktales´ ´Cornish Legends´amongst ohters so will be a.k.a Papstoryville in the near future

With that in mind I am off to the forest tonight and will light a fire while it is still light... To read and feel warm and to get the embers ready for hot morsellian delights.

Paps I am round the fire with you.

Have had a terible day and my car got stolen in a garage forecourt nightmare. The worst thing is it had little Dds new tutu in it!

Am having to ground myself in order to stop crying!

(((BIG HUG))) Glitterfairy, what a crap thing to have happened. Glad that the grounding can help you. Have you tried the protection technique? You could but a bubble around yourself and your possessions.. such as the car.

Thanks Paps tell me more! A protection bubble sounds just right at the moment in every sense!

I have ridden out to the plains today.

Merry meet GF.

Protection bubbles are great. One way to do it is this:

Imagine a bright glowing light above your head. Any colour you like, but bright and warm and protective. Imagine the light slowly moving down over your head, shoulders, arms - relaxing and protecting you all the time. Carry on until you can see, feel, touch the bubble of light and it is all the way around you. The light meets under your feet so that you are completly protected.

If you really visualise the light you can learn to do it quite well. I use it as the start for meditations.