Good morning sisters, it's been a tough few weeks here, my mother is out of hospital and doing well, but things are strained. She has a significant hearing loss which is helped greatly by her hearing aids, but she refuses to wear them.
Instead she assumes everything I say is harsh and critical.
So a conversation may be.
Me: Did you manage to get a hair appointment?
DM : Why do you always bring up my sister? If you want rid of me I'll just go and sleep under a hedge.
It does have comedic edge, but means normal conversation isn't really possible.
My DS helps me to find humour- we have the same funny bone.
She still has that stong vindictive streak- my DS calls her Livia, ( from TV show The Sopranos if anyone watched it).
I know many of us are struggling right now, things are hard here too- yesterday was particularly bad, I woke up feeling so much fear and sadness tearful, and no matter what I tried it just wouldn't lift.
I went to bed really early last night and have slept for 10 hours, perhaps some of my emotional difficulties were due to tiredness. My sadness has lifted his morning, but I am still planning a comforting day for myself. I have a manicure booked and plan to take myself down to the river to eat my lunch and soak up the energies.
I wanted to say more, but I want to get my day started, I will return later.
Sending love and support.