A warm welcome HernamewasNOLA.
And many thanks for the incredible support and from my sisters here- it has truly worked to strengthen me in the past week.
Craftycorvid your words about "the craft of the wise" really hit home, of course that wisdom serves to inform all aspects of our lives, the emotional, life seasons, relationships, new beginnings, politics, nurturing, including self compassion.
HillsBesideTheSea thanks again for your words, and making me feel so very supported.
ISaySteadyOn I can sense the relief in your situation, you have been strong to recognise what your DD needs and impliment that. It was very courageous, and although you may have pangs of self doubt, I am sure you have made the right decision. You can already watch your daughter flourishing.
We don't always need long term plans, sometimes it is OK to say for now- this is what works. I wish your daughter well. X
queenrollo your words have given me happy tears. Thank you for your kind words and holding such a loving space for me.
Very wise words VioletCharlotte about looking after myself, yes I am missing yoga and feeling that I should be pushing myself to do more, because I know the calming power and grounding would heal and support. But my days are so hectic right now, that driving to a class would squeeze time for the rest of the day and add to my stress. I may attend a very early class tomorrow, 7am, but I can decide at the last minute. I know my sleep is very important too. I am glad your DS is enjoying his new job, and no surprise that your magic produced such a powerful manifestation at work! Times like this give us an opportunity to pause, take a breath and reset.
My situation hasn't changed much, my mother is still in hospital, making slow but steady progress. As she is continuing to improve and have treatment then assessements about next steps, discharge etc won't be taken just yet.
I was in such a panic at the beginning of the week, watching a terrible vision of my future as a carer to two vulnerable and needy adults, as I walk around as a husk completely consumed by the weight of my responsibilities.
So although the future is unclear I can see my boundaries more clearly, what I am prepared to do and what not.
We don't know how much improvement my mother will make and is she gets back to almost complete recovery that's fine, she is welcome home.
If she has substantial care needs then that is not something I can offer within my home, I am safeguarding my precious self to avoid becoming a husk.
I will do whatever is needed within my limitations- but no more.
I have spoken to the hospital and I have help to advocate my needs in any forthcoming decisions.
So whatever the outcome it will not include me becoming a carer husk- that is not an option for my life. I reclaim the right to my energies to invest within my own being. Reframing my situation has brought me so much calm. I do care, and love, I will care, but I won't do so to a level which will cause me harm.
And I truly believe that you amazing women here have bestowed me with so much strength, love and support that I see I have no need to fear. That is magic- strong and full of wisdom.
XXX