In the past few days and the run up to the equinox I have been feeling some very deep emotions- with a theme running through.
The motif keeps coming back to me in lots of different ways, but all about making peace with uncertainty.
The winds this week seemed to echo that message too.
By nature I like to be organised, and dare I say it a little controlling.
It works mostly, I have a great energy to enthuse and initiate, and when my kids were younger it was a good energy to have- a bit like Mary Poppins.
My OH has mostly humoured me over the years- he knows I am harmless and benevolent, if a little bossy!
But having adult children has caused me a great rethink- now I have to let go, to move around them more, even to allow them freedom to make poor decisions and bite my tongue, to respond more than lead.
I guess this is one of the aspects of moving from motherhood to crone.
I need to feel like a leaf in the wind for a while, to feel the ebb and flow, to let go, to follow and listen more. To become uncomfortable in uncertainty,
But I know this is a shift, things will swing back a little and find some balance.
But I need to examine how it feels for a while to be a little more passive, to be able to integrate and grow.
Ha ha- my own Tarot pick for today is suggesting to keep steering, a message that my children still need me to guide and support- they are going trough big changes too.
Much food for thought on that one then!!