Coincidence or sliding door - enter here or there

[papillon]

Choosing your own reality is important but what external influences have shaped your reality.

World events
Local occurances
People on street corners handing out leaflets
A good book
A smile
Having a baby or two or three

So which ones?
And did it just influence you or did it influence others?

Morning

So what do u think of our thread (s)
and what is SoM tracks?

questions questions
seems that we all have alot of connections going!!

I think they are interesting - not sure if I fully understand them all , SoM tracks are songs from Sisters of Mercy CD. I like most music now except manufactured music but I do like Busted and Mcfly ashamed to say and I think Avril Lavigne is good. Waht about you

Hi all,
Sisters of Mercy? I liked them though didn't buy any of there music. In fact i spent most of my money on fags and cider and rarely bought records. I liked The cure though don't know if they're classed as goth?

Have u ever been to Whitby gothicmama? They have a goth meet at least once a year there. You know why though I suppose? We were there for halloween and there were lots of goths there then too. My boys were amazed

How are u feeling papillon? Hormones are bl* awful, bane of my life Men don't know the half of it do they?

take care all xxxxxx Must shower now and dress don't panic I have my dressing gown on

Hi girls

Just doing some researech on line for my artwork. I had a flash of inspiration last night on something that has been blocked for months!!cant wait to get my paints and canvases out.

How weird about the convo juniper!!!!

Yes I have been to WHitby , I also spent far tomuch money on cider, vodka and fags so had to go out and buy CD when I had matured. I think of the Cure as a Goth band Robert Smith played in Siouxie and the Banshee's on and off. Bye peopel talk to you later have to get ready or everyone will be moaning about the time I spend on here

gothicmama you aren;t the only one, i don't understand all the threads.

I feel so guilty at the mo, my DH has a really croaky voice (maybe cold?) and it's annoying the h* out of me. I keep feeling like punching him what a cow I am. It's just so load and awful!!!!

Right, that's my confession for the day - must go now or else no one will sit next to me at church

I meant so loud and awful btw

Morning Melsy,
glad to hear you're feeling inspired

right I'm off!!! talk later xx

SoM of course - was off on a tired tangent this morning and thouht it was somehow related to OM records or just OM - the buddhist OM - or even Soma records.
well I have re-woken up after a sleep so semi more alert.
Robert Smith definately still a Goth king

Thanks for asking after me Juniper - I feel fine, wonderful - except I think I might be pregnant. Oh dear - bit of a quick turn around there. I can tell when I am pregnant and don´t need a test - and am getting that feeling. Not sure whether to laugh or cry.!!.

I got my paints out yesterday Melsy!

Should I be congratulating you , ah darling??? So many spooks going on. Especially as you also said u got paints out!!!

I dont rememebr you sayiing you had hormone problems aswill as me???? Have I not been paying attention????

no hormone problems just full moon poblems by the feel of things

how the painting going? and did you see my post to u this morning on your metal thread.

Yes thank you, I just wouldnt know what to take!!! I have stopped taking echinacia as I got a really upset tummy from it.

Have you done a test yet??

What are you painting, there coud be some messages there. YOu muts have been passing them to me!!!

I juts thiught because Juniper mentioned hormones and how you were feeling!!!

You would have to visit a chiro or osteopath who practised metabolics and they would prescribe for you.

My painting has no theme or feeling just yet.

Will not test for awhile... did not with dd... just rocked up to the gyno and announced I am pregnant... I just know these things. It is very clear to me when I am up the duff!!!

wots your painting about...
I often feel I do visualisation painting... did one of dd b4 she was born - but am painting over it now.. Virgo and forever my greatest critic!!

Oh no dont paint over it. Dont. Are u really sure, are you happy shocked upset or all of them. Giving you a virtual hug {{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}.

I havent started yet , juts had a vision. I love hearts and Im alwaays buying them in various guises. I have an idea for some inch thick canvases I have. I used to do a lot of work with rich coluour and texture & then wove sewed (sp??)wire over it and then added more paint. Sort of collagey and rich.

I hope I havent upset you. I had the same thing a month or so ago.

To late with the paint over job
I am getting at painting so my sweet dh tells me - but I am a A for effort D for achievement painter really.
Your collage textural work sounds good. The layers of paint that have gone on my canvas makes it fairly deep... it will peel of in strips soon!
I need to feel more confident slapping the paint etc on.
I have some very thick cardboard I am thinking of sticking bits of egg carton on and do abit of painting over... its a thought.

How do I feel... tired - resigned to it really. Happy and welcoming but daunted by the hard work ahead. I feel sad for us all... Its abit of a load really and i don´t have family support here. Not sure how it will all pan out. At least dh is a very supportive, onto it kind of guy who doesn´t go to the pub etc.

Really!!
False alarm was it

• you have not upset me. You thought I was upset yesterday by you.... we are both sensitive things... quite alike in many ways. I really appreciate all the time we spend together and really look forward to meeting you one day. It will happen

I would love that, my therrapist was concerned about not making real life friends!! I said I would love to meet and hope to make arrangements one day in the near future. We have to meet , juniper angeliz , gothicmama & everyone else in our spiritual grp!!& also some who arent !!

Yes sensitive souls we are, but I beleive we have that as a gift to tap into so much more.

Yes false alarm, really got shocked. I am not going to be ready for it for a very long time. I felt very violated in labour and birth. Makes me wnat to cry. I dont wnat that again just yet. I have to build up my mental strenght 1st and deal with the anxiety attacks and the terrible thoughts & visions I have a lot. Sorry that unlocked something there. Althoiugh I think it must mean there is lots more to unlock.

I bet your painting is wonderful and expressive.

Im like one of those stupid women that tell the most gross stories related to what your experiencing , because they think it helps and u just wnat to hit them. Like; women 1 "I was just in a terrible car crash. I am very shocked", women 2 "yes, I was in car crash too , everyone died a terrible death, all except me".

What am I going on about. Please save me from myself today. Must be my AF , it does things to my mind.