Hi - an update from me, also if that is ok amillion. I have deteriorated, which is not so good. After much debate not involving me, "someone" has been found to work with me. But isn't available for me to meet for 2 months. And then I don't know anything other than she only works one day a week, a short day at that, and it is a day I have to be in work. I cannot change my days of work due to the work I do. I work part-time, well will be going back after maternity leave in February. The only way I can see her, and not sure if I can see her yet as she not met with anyone to confirm it, is if I take half a day a week off work (due to where would have to go to her, the time of the appointment and then time to work. I think the only way to have this time off is to ask for a fit note from gp - which would then trigger Occupational Health, then gossip at work (that is what happened in my last job, sigh). She isn't able to see me until March anyway.
So - can only have counselling if I admit to work what is going on in personal life. Then when have next round of redundancies (due in May due to financial reasons) I will top target - I was targetted last year as on maternity leave, had email from top person asking me to consider reducing my hours more than I wanted to.
I cannot have medication yet, until seen a doctor who cannot fit me in until March, again a day I work - and no, dr will not see me any other day.
Really struggling to see any answers to prayer - am losing hope. Am struggling at being able to return to work, but can't cope being signed off either.
Sorry, mememe post. Haven't managed church for many weeks now, have no energy to get out of bed, dress, brush teeth - so trying to pretend am ok at church is one step too far.