I shall call him Shiney and he shall be mine and he shall be my Shiney. Come on, little Shiney. [stung by jellyfish] Ow! Bad Shiney, bad Shiney!

[mittz]

Hello.

I am Mittz.

Today, I am mostly eating....Granola...

glad shes back home bella, send her my love if you are texting

Its hit mini quite hard going back to nursery school - has upset her tv schedule

I react very badly to LA. it will have to be a hospital thing whether it is la or ga. but i react better to ga then la. SO i suspect ga will be the preferred option. Last time I had LA for a filing they nearly called an ambulance

Temp drops at night and i am in the coldest room in the house, with low blood pressure, low iron levels and a circulation disorder that means i virutally always have cold hands and feet. I dont like to be cold.

Does leave a big about the ice skating and clothing worn for doing it though

What can i say. I am a giant contridiction

oh not good about the LA reaction mucky, hope your ok with a GA, wisdom teeth are so bloody painful, i was like a bear with a sore head with mine

at mini TV schedule being upset, how cute

nope not really much better with normal GA. have to have special GA But being in hospital they should be able to sort me out.

Mini is very cute.

i'll give it a go with a pair of pliers Mucky you can down a bottle of voddy first, you wont feel a thing

i'm hungry

me too. mum has just handed me a secret stash of chocolate. to eat or not to eat. that is the question.

13th Lizzy I thought we were bad with the 8th. I know it is different for you as he is wee and just starting but I would be sectionable if I had to wait till the 13th.

Ex has had a big go at me last night, blaming me using my past as an excuse for punishing him as the break down for our marriage. He say my 'opinions' are disturbing, that what he says are facts but things I say are just feelings . There is a good reason why we were talking. He had said he would support me through my counselling but last night said I should be talking to the person that was key to my abuse about my feelings and not him. I can;t do that, I can't talk to him can I? You don't just waltz up to the person or people that abused you and give them a piece of your mind. Ex says I am just using it as an excuse. There was a lot more and I know I have issues, I know I am a mess, that is why I am in counselling. Because what He put me through was on top of what I had already been through. He was my husband. He shouldn't have treated me like that at all.
I am sorry, I feel like I have had the rug pulled. He says he has been OK for the 14 months after he left, that he has done all the work. He says I am remembering things wrong, I'm not really I am not. I'm sorry this should be on FB. Shouldn't start peoples days like this but I am a bit floored.

Mittz, trust your instincts and trust your Counsellor.
He can't rewrite history and mess with your head like this.

Sorry, have to dash but hope you have a good day

Mittz he is lashing out and knows exactly which buttons to push to make you hurt instead of him.

You are not remembering incorrectly, he is making you question yourself as a very effective way to disarm you. Can you start to write down what happened, just to give you a solid 'base' of knowledge?

I think that if confronting your abuser(s) was helpful, your counsellor would have already suggested it.

Yes, you have issues but no - you are not a mess. You were treated badly by a man who should have known better, and you had the strength to move on from that and build a happy, secure and safe home for your family. You are amazing.

Morning all. Mittz sorry you're having a hard time, sounds like there are good reasons you ex is an ex.

Good moaning one and all,

I would offer you tea but Trills is here & she'll give me that stern look

Mittz I agree with DIB he is saying things that he knows will have an affect on you, he's mouthing off & being an absolute jerk.

Trust yourself & your counsellor not a fuck wit like him. You know what is good for you, yes you have issues but tbh who doesn't, be them big or small we all have something we need to conquer & you taking steps to help yourself, be proud of that.

he is jelous because you are starting to sort your life life and need him less. he doesnt like it. It means he has less control over you.
Means you are doing something right and something well. Keep going!

Painting ds' room today. so madness around here. have a good day folks!

*sort your life out

Oh and if my posts dont make sense I have some wonderful meds (which i should have got months ago when i was poorly) and i am a little hyperactive.

dont think the paint fumes are going to help the brain function either. at least i am not doing the gloss atm.

morning all

mittz im sorry your ex has made you feel so bad, i agree with everything DIB said and you are not a mess, you are doing so well dont let him knock you sideways, stand firm girl!

I have been to hossie this morning for check up on my thyroid, good news is my thyroid levels seem to be coming back down to normal, and i am feeling well and everything else is ok, they are going to monitor me every 4 months now, had more blood taken today so hopefully that will be ok

bads news is i have put 2 kg on so time to start dieting again, i am divorcing carbs! only lean protein from here in, have had grilled bacon and eggs for brekka and now drinking green teen (fucking awful stuff)

i just have to be careful now that my thyroid doesnt start to swing the other way and become under active, as i am now feeling tired and lethargic a lot, where as before i was anxious, shaky and on the go

thyroiditis (which is what they have diagnosed me with) can swing from one to the other and there are many different forms of it, and under active thyroid runs in my family

good thing is they are monitoring it, so if it gets out of hand they will treat me straight away

i feel good knowing things have improved though

Hello all, just have a v nice burger, with a voucher too so not too expensive.

must.... do.... work....

i quite worried about the MN meet up, i seem to go around the board upsettings people (sometimes on purpose )

im going to be hated.....

dp upsets a lot of people but from what i gather she had alovely time and wasnt drummed out of the meet last year. You should be fine vinny.

btw- glad they sorting the thyroid ting now

thanks for the reassurance DEM, if DP didnt get flogged i should be ok then

anyway if shiney comes that'll take the heat off me

where is everyone?

im childfreeeeeeeee,

xp has just asked me if he can introduce in new gf to the finnster this weekend, this is 2nd new gf in a year, i said i dont give a fuck under my breath sure i trust your judgement! he will have lots of aunties

Glad you are getting the health stuff sorted Vinny. I have been out and about getting stuff for plastering the kitchen tomorrow, and looking at tiles.

I spotted a lovely old fireplace, all parts intact, which will look great in the back parlour (the room we decorated for the kids) as it hasn't got anything on the chimney-breast. Thirty quid! I couldn't leave it there. Cast iron, so bloody heavy though.

Oops, x-post- will go and read back and hope I haven't grinned in the face of bereavement too obviously...

Sorry vinny, I was painting the sky.

sorry shiney but the lady referring to the priest as the devil made me smile. Glad yesterday wasnt too bad.

Bof the fire place sounds lovely! What sort of tiles are you looking at? Oh and put a tea towel or something over your hair when plastering, plaster is nasty to get out of hair.

Shiney- I tried calling earlier but you were busy. I'll try again after dd2 is in bed.

Slug- I haven't decided on the tiles for the kitchen yet. I want my Design Consultant to check some with me first (aka DP). I'm sure he will enjoy the erotic possibilities of watching me plastering in a floral shower cap though

My plan is to hand him the trowel and slope off to do something less taxing, if I'm truthful.