I'm sorry I'm crying as I type. I have 2 lovely ds but I'm under an enorm amount of pressure. I shout a lot, I cry every every evening, I have panick attack every evening..I'm also a cm who is looking actively for more work as I have a lot of debts. I do my absolut e best to provide for my family, I work full time.
The story is : dh has been promising for 3 years that he will retrain in order to make money. Last year, we took on a new house (rented) with a more expensive rent. It makes sense as I was doing well and that dh said he will be training or earning more money at certain point.
The situation is that I 'm carrying all the pressure on my back and I have to do more than I can as I dont have the choice. We have been living in this aera for 6 years and we love it, we have all our friends here and the ds are in a good scchool but it will look as if we have to move as I cant cope anymore, its too much..
I have suicidal tought every day but I wont do it as I have ds, my precious ds but it is so hard to get up in the morning. Sorry for moping