Feel like I can’t face one more day. I just can’t.

[Pleasehelpimexhausted]

Yes I’m depressed and yes I’m seeking treatment. This is really just me writing down my feelings in the hope it will lift even a tiny weight from my shoulders.

Is it normal to feel like this? Like you just cannot face one more day of sleep deprivation, mess, whinging, every little thing being made as difficult and time consuming as possible? My body is knackered from never resting or sleeping, lugging car seats around, pushing prams and lifting kids in and out of chairs/baths/cars. Mentally I’m utterly drained and sick of the sound of my own voice telling them not to do something, or not to break something, or not to hurt each other. My entire life is childcare from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I close them, only to be forced awake an hour later.

I wake up and just don’t want to get out of bed in the morning. I love them both and they’re not actually difficult kids but I honestly can’t see how anyone enjoys this. I’m a shell of the person I used to be.

@Pleasehelpimexhausted I related so much to this, especially the waking up and just simply not wanting to do it. I have 3 little ones at home with me all day, well eldest is nearly 6 and in school but 2 little ones between 9 and 3 and it’s so bloody hard. I eat, sleep and breathe childcare, it’s all I do from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I close them and even then I’m up in the night with the baby. Would love to hear you’re feeling better now and things have gotten easier over the last year?

I hope it’s better now for you xxx and hope you went back to work x

I was a single parent to a 2 year old over covid. Anytime I was off I'd try to put him in nursery. I remember the tiredness and feeling like I couldn't go on. One child is enough for me.

Nearly two years later - how are you doing OP? Xxxx