Struggling so fucking much

[Mammmmama]

DS 13mo

never slept through the night. I am on my knees exhausted I don’t even know what I’m doing wrong

it just took an hour to get him to sleep when he was clearly tired

DH thinks we should do controlled crying. I can’t leave him to cry at all so this is hard

hes pulling to stand and standing and doing little steps but so wobbly so he’s constantly slipping and tumbling and I feel like constantly falls and I’m on edge so scared he’ll hurthimself

im so lonely and upset I am suffering majorly with a lack of sleep I was losing my patience getting him to bed and even said “why are you doing this to me” which I feel physically sick at I can’t believe I said something like that when he doesn’t even mean it

im sorru I just need to vent

Just want you to know my baby is the exact same! Ans everyone I talk to their babies sleep so much better and I do envy them.
We co sleep and his bed time is different every single night and I try so hard to get a routine but it just doesn't work!
He's teething, not been well , walking with his walker and stranding for long periods now, learning new words. I think this age is so hard (also 13 months). He's started having full blown tantrums and is at an age where he doesn't want to play with toys, he just wants to climb the stairs all day . Sending strength. I am exhausted every day and wondering when it will get better

That's meant to say "standing " for long periods lol. He's getting ready to walk I think x