i just thoght i would share my panic attack with you,
i woke up as my 4yr old dd wanted the loo so i got her to the loo and realised my 17mth dd was not there in the room i had my 3yr dd in bed with me so she didnt wake others too early my 4yr old dd went back in her room and said "wheres abey shes gone" so i replied she was in there,but i couldnt see her there so without turning lights on i went in the room couldnt see her there went in my sons room she wasnt there starting to real panic now went downstairs to see if dp took her down but she wasnt there so ran upstairs again turned all lights on and found her under the bed asleep.
i started thinking of all sorts of things