stupid dissertation <curls up and sobs in corner>

[ilovecaboose]

Have to hand in a chapter plan for my dissertation on 10th NOvember.

Can't even start doing that yet as has all gone tits up. Studying childcare manuals from 17th century and looking at how gender roles were taught to children. And ITS NOT IN THERE! Don't mention anything about sex of child. I am buggered well and truly. Haven't got time to start completely new topic.

HAve appointment to see tutor on monday, but can't really say 'have done f*ck all cos nothing in there I need' (especially as my last meeting wnet along the lines of 'I don't know what to do - everything has been written, sob sob')

Plus 2 secondary sources I am reading are shite. They're arguments are illogical and one seems to actually have made stuff up

Argh and I have joint presentation to do on Monday and there is no stuff on teh part I am doing and its not even marked ffs.

And I am feeling really ill and shitty and am working my arse off just to keep my head above water.

I want to get a really good degree (1st if possible) adn I need it to do an MA.

Tis all stress at moment.

also worried about my dissertation is hell trying to do it all with having a child and I have no childcare, so sending you good thoughts and positive vibes lol

My topic is also impossible to research well thats how it seems at the moment

Good luck for yours Jenny

thanks caboose, think I must be mad trying to do this with a child but I have the option to take a year out but i just want it over with, by next May it will all be over. that keeps me going

Why have I not found this message thread before? I am pg and writing my dissertation (due on 4th Dec) and I am struggling so kudos to you for doing it with a kid. We are strong women we can do it!!

I know what it is like to be so unmotivated to even put two words together and burst into tears over it every time. Adding to this I have been bleeding for the past few days and have an early scan tomorrow (I'm 9 wks). I am v.scared so as you can imagine the dissertation is on the back burner again. I am already on an extension and just want it over.

oh sweetheart - you must be so stressed at the moment.

Just focus on how proud you will be of it at the end (thats what I'm doing).

What are you doing (dissertation and university wise)? I'm a history student (in case you hadn't guessed )

gillian i hope the bleeding stops and that everything is okay, i think you are admirable for not giving up I am also finding it hard to get motivation, I am in homeless accomodation after the landlord sold our private let in june, a nearly 2 hour public transport commute from here in and out of uni and a son who is 7 and is having problems adjusting to the move and having problems at school. AARgh I have not done any work yet and need to start now, well tomorrow when I'm there I need to get some books at least,

I hope you find the strengh to do the work and get it over with, and I hope your pregnancy goes smoothly. Try and get it done as once the baby comes it is much harder, although once they are older private nurseies have them from 7.30 in morning untill 6.00 in evening if necessary so before they go to school it is good for going to uni but once they are it school it is harder, I found. are you in England? i live in Scotland but am interested to talk to other students, i am doing media and cultural studies

You are all so lovely, and my problems with motivation and pregnancy pale into insignificance when I read some of the stories on MN. JennyleEvil, hold on there girl!

I live in Newcastle and I an doing an MA in Museum & Cultural Management. This is literally my last few weeks as I have been doing it part time over the past two years. I should have handed in my dissy in Sept but because of work load in my day job I was granted an extension until Dec.

Thanks for your concern over by pg problems. I'm afraid it is not just a bit of spotting and it has got increasingly worse so I am bracing myself for bad news tomorrow whilst trying to remain positive. I really need to finish my dissy though because at this rate I could end up loosing two things I have worked hard for - my masters and my baby!

Please send all your good vibes and prayers this way!

If the arguments are illogical and seem to be amde up, do your dissertation as an alysis of those secondary sources? Looking at the lack of available source material, etc.

And expect your tutors to be sympathetic, they'll have heard it at thousand times. As my lecturer sasys, if you ask me early on I can help you. If you ask me the day before, I can give you irections to the drop off point for the assignment.

Gillian sorry to hear that you think it might be much more serious , thinking of you and sending my best wishes to you and your baby. Really hope you are okay

Hi, just got back from being checked. They found a sac and a foetus but it measured 4.5mm (i.e. 6 wks) and I am supposed to be 9 wks today; and there was no heartbeat.

This could be as a result of two things-
a) my dates are wrong
b) the foetus stopped growing at 6 weeks and the bleeding is my body telling me that it is getting ready to miscarry.

They have made another appointment for next Monday morning to check me out and advice on a course of action then.

I know I should remain positive but I am pretty sure of my dates. The only thing is that I am on a 25 day cycle rather than a 28 day which could knock a few days out here and there but not 3 weeks.

The bleeding has not stopped and it feels like a proper period now (but less cramping than normal). We have resigned ourselves to the fact that it was not meant to be this time round.

Thanks for all your words of support though, it has meant a lot to me.

you have my sympathy, hope you get through this okay.

Gillian

Thinking of you

oh sweetheart I really hope you have got the dates wrong.

I am thinking of you I really am.

thats good caboose

Dear all, its all over. Within an hour of my last post it all started to happen naturally at home. The pain got increasingly worse though and by midnight DH had to call an ambulance because I was writhing in pain. They gave me gas and air (so over rated ? no effect) and then morphine which did the trick. Got to the Gynecology and they did a full check up ? I have never met gentler, nicer people in my life ? stayed the night and was scanned this morning. It had all come away except a small piece of ?product? 2x6cm which they have waited all day to see if it shifted (didn?t). I have been sent home to see if it happens naturally and I am due to be scanned again on Monday to give me the all clear or intervene if appropriate.

This one was not meant to be, I know that. It is very, very sad that it is also our first pregnancy and it has really knocked my confidence. I?ll continue to pray that next time it is better news. Thank you for all your words of comfort, they have meant a lot to me.

..and now back to my b***d dissy!

Gill xx

sorry to hear of your loss you have my best wishes yet again.

you are so brave to be contemplating your uni work , I hope you get through this difficult time
I am glad the hospital staff were kind to you
XXXXXXX

Sorry just seen this, but I am very sorry for you Gillian. My thoughts are with you.