Hi I hope you can help. I had a difficult pregnancy diagnosed with vasa praveia and was admitted to hospital for the final 3 months of my pregnancy and had a planned c section 3 weeks early. Since he was born my baby has been difficult. He cried and whined constantly and was interested in anything. You couldnt leave him on a play mat or in a bouncy chair etc.. The consultant did say he may have had silent reflux and he is on a dairy free diet but I have been told to reintroduce dairy now. At 11 months I hoped things would have improved but he still is bad tempered, whines and tantrums a lot of the day. He is easily bored and I feel embarrassed when I take him out (which I do every day for my sanity) as he often creates, whines and cries. Nothing seems to interest him. I dread when he wakes as he always starts crying yet he does sleep well day and night now. I find motherhood boring and mundane and run out of things to do with him all day. I look forward to his bedtime and am going back to work in a few weeks which I am happy about. Yet I feel bad that I am happy the childminder will have to find ways to entertain him all day. I feel like a bad mother. I look forward to doing things like baking; gardening and taking my little one out for walks but at the moment find it all very difficult. I am so disappointed in myself for not enjoying being a mum at the moment and hope it will change one day. At times I regret having him. He is still not crawling or moving around really so I am sure he is very frustrated now. Any help or advise would be appreciated as this is really getting me down. I did go to the doc for possible pnd as have been on citralopram for 4 months now. I often meet other mothers who have babies the same age and their babies are so much more settled. Thanks