Back in the Zoo for new adventures with old friends

[CaptainNemo]

Come on over animals, I think we'll be very comfy here

Murray glad you are feeling positive about the future but so sad too for your loss :( I hope you have found some form of closure from knowing more. And fingers crossed for ov soon.

Do you know what this symptom spotting is really quite useless every symptom I have I could have on any day of my cycle! For example yesterday I had a headache, starving hungry and tired all three are early pg symptoms but also can be because I'm stressed at work hungry and tired!!
Oh and if you think I'm becoming obsessed with mn your right its because if I keep posting I can keep up with the thread on my app

Now moomin will tell me off for the wrong your you're

Come on mummyltd stop tweeting and visit the zoo!!

Yes, where is that naughty mummyltd? She's in for a shock when she sees how many posts there are here for her to catch up on!

Murray I'm so glad the appointment went as well as it could and that you'll be given extra appointments next time round. Still so but you'll never forget DS2, he'll always be a part of your lives. Have you made any decisions about naming him? Did you have any sort of funeral in the end or did the hospital take care of things for you? I've been thinking about how long it took for my cycle to come back after we lost DS1 and for some reason I have the figure 45 days (cycle length) in mind. Where does that leave you if yours is similar? I also remember that the first AF was not very pleasant. I found it quite uncomfortable and the cramping brought back v unwelcome memories. Hopefully yours will be fine, but just so you're prepared. Think I took some co-codamol which knocked it on the head. We were on a day trip in the mountains of turkey at the time, had just stopped off to sample some local speciality goat stew (you should have seen DH's face ) so as you can probably imagine, the toilet facilities were not quite all one would have hoped for... could have been a lot worse though.

impala yesterday was fantastic, thanks for asking! Now if I could just do that say once a week month I'm sure I'd be a better person! Full membership is £75 a month, so if any of you have a spare £75 you've been wondering what to do with, just lob it my way and I'll see it's put to good use! Back to reality today with a bump. I have loads of paperwork I can't be arsed need to catch up with and I've been very VERY slack the past few months weeks do really need to get my act together. Not looking too good so far mind, the only thing I've achieved so far today is breakfast and mn! Next stop shower and dog walk, then the sky's the limit!! wish me luck... xx

Ooh fat bird asos order just arrived, yippee for another distraction!

Oh my, I can't possibly catch up with all these posts, so I shall just jump in with what I have managed to scan and hope that I don't put my foot in it and get something horribly wrong

frazzle it is so good to see you back and sorry that you are having a rubbish time of it. The running will help loads - all those endorphins whizzing around.

kat Congratulations what fab news and Nemo A boy! how lovely and even more lovely to hear that all is well, as I popped on just before you had it and saw that you were understandably worried xx

Right, what else do I need to know, someone catch me up QUICK!

I'm fine, very busy. N really keeps me on my toes and E is now shuffling around too, although he really is the easiest baby you could wish for. He is 8mo today, in fact. It's gone so quick.

Just gearing up to get N at a pre-school, starting after Easter, he's going to try the one that is attached to OH's school. It will be 2 mornings a week to begin with, but should give a bit more, much needed time.

I am busy with the blog, trying to build it up a bit and get some paid work from it, no rush but just need to put the work in now. Increasing readers and comments takes a bit of work.

So lovely to have everyone back. I will be back VERY soon

I caved did test this morning wasn't FMU as I was up at 3.30am with E but it was -ve Preseed let me down!!!

Buddha Could it just have been too soon to test? [clutching-at-straws] What month is this? Was there anything special/different about the month E was conceived you could do/not do again? Though I suspect that's a stupid question and something you've already thought about... But you've done it once, you can do it again, you'll be throwing up before you know it, I have every faith xxx

Buddha it took me a while to get a proper + is it too early?

Hey hey.

I'm so cold I can barely type! I'm a bit annoyed actually as I've put about half a stone on recently and it's doing sod all to insulate me. I was embracing it for this very reason but now I'm going to have to give up the chocolate, seeing as it doesn't work Plus I can't justify buying a whole new wardrobe in the next size up...

Murray It sounds like you got the best outcome. I can't ever put myself in your shoes so I've no idea how I'd cope but you are doing amazingly. It certainly puts things into perspective for me and I really admire your strength xx

Nemo Glad your spa day went well! What did you buy from ASOS? I've never bought anything from there. In fact anything I buy off the internet I end up sending back!

Mummy Yay, yer back! I'm also hoping to get Jack into a day nursery from March/April time. Need to take full advantage of the free 15 hours a week. He's been ready to start nursery for about a year and he doesn't start at Charlie's school nursery until Sept . Seems ages away, or it did do a year ago!
I'm going to see a nursery on Monday.
I'm half tempted to write a blog, a few friends have suggested it. Might save me from updating FB every five minutes! I'm not sure what I'd write about though

Buddha oh booooo! That's not good news The thought of having to go through all the disappointment again puts me off ever having anymore children (not to mention my schizophrenic DS2...) I do hope it happens really soon for you!

So I had the most amazing conversation with the "other woman"... We were gassing away for about an hour!
She made me laugh with her revenge plan, sending him a professional looking box of "arty design stuff" to his work but when he opened it, it'd be a box full of poo Cos that'd be quite embarrassing wouldn't it, especially as he's just started with BBC magazines as Art Director

She's absolutely lovely and totally gets how I'm feeling. In fact, the morning after I felt like a different woman. I didn't get that awful dread feeling I always get. I actually smiled when my alarm went off! Result!

Right, better go, I need a wee and must wake up the kids so we can go and pick up my Jedi knight from school.

Cheerio for now!

Af arrived yesterday and yes I feel all those emotions!!

I'm glad to see a smile in there Buddha. We appear to be in sync at the moment....

Aaah Buddha sorry to hear that. How long have you been TTC now, I may have missed this?

Frazzle I have thought in the past that you would be good at writing a blog. Just write about what interests you and be yourself is my advice and do only do it if you enjoy it, otherwise it just becomes a hassle

We are having a lazy afternoon with Toy Story 2 - I haven't heard a peep out of N since it started. E is sleeping (as usual)

Frazzle sounds as if you've met a kindred spirit in the other woman! Love the revenge plan she had but the best bit is that just talking about has cleared your mind a little and made you feel better about life
mummyltd Been ttc about 4/5 months so not long in the big scheme of things it's just in my head if I don't have a baby this year I'll be too old! Times a ticking

Have you all got snow? We had a little which stuck and now it's stopped falling so I'm sure it'll just be slush soon

evening ladies

i have had the whole night free of DH and DD snuggling on the couch with a DVD and dominos pizza (and the dog) its been blissful DH is back home now from the pub so my peace has gone away haha

i tested and got BFN albeit not FMU but it would be a BFP by now either way...i have a GP appointment on thursday to discuss things and thats lucky as i seem to have hurt my shoulder and cant lift my arm properly i suspect its lupus related but my mum said it sounds similar to something my dad had at around my age. He had a calcified shoulder and had to have it surgically released!! im hoping its not that but hey ho...given my health luck its gonna be more than nothing

buddha sorry AF came to call my next AF should be due around the 14th ish and i feel like, if only just to draw a line under this whole thing, i would be ok with that. i really hope this is your last month TTC and you get your BFP il be here to hold your hand and also if you want to talk about it you have my number

hope everyone is enjoying the weekend (and the snow for those who have it-we dont)

marbles that sounded like a delicious evening good luck for thursday in advance you are so overdue some luck my lovely seems to be one thing after another you really need some conclusive answers so you know exactly where you stand as you can't keep on like this it will drive you crazy
If its any consolation our snow is melting now. I know what would cheer us up what about bringing one of your scrummy cakes I see on fb in for us all to eat. Virtual calories are good for us

Evening ladies,

Buddha so sorry to hear BFN . Hope you are coming to the end of AF and looking forward to the fun bit soon .

frazzle thank you so much for your kind words - much appreciated.

MummyLtd we love Toy Story in this house too

Sorry laptop keyboard has started playing up mid post apologies for lack of punctuation for rest of post

marbles i second that you are way overdue some good luck mi dear really hope dr can help with shoulder as well as ttc issues

no news from me still no sign of flipping ov arrghhhh ! body still trying but failing it is doing my head in almost as much as this keyboard

will call back when i have a better machine at my disposal at work xx

hi ladies

i just thought i would ask if anyone has any insight into WTF is going on inside my body? no? me neither! i ask because i went the loo before and i am spotting again!! light pinky peachy colour...heavy enough to need a pad i am around CD22 since the CP and i NEVER have mid cycle spotting even with the other MCs its always been finish bleeding and move onto next cycle....im quite con fused by it all and i called the GP who is going to call me back for some advice...any other suggestions? shall i just give up trying to guess its next move(my uterus)? im getting utterly utterly peed off with it all now

marbles oh you poor love , you are having such a rubbish time of it. Has GP called you back yet ? There is little point trying to guess what is going on as guessing is all that it would be. I reckon that with all of these strange goings-on you are surely going to get fully investigated - scans, bloods etc... to find out what is happening and put your mind at rest while helping to sort out whatever the issue is. Feel free to offload any time mrs, you know we are here to listen, even when we have little concrete advice to offer. My heart goes out to you xx

nemo I forgot to thank you for your words of wisdon on 1st post-MC AF. Am dreading it but also willing it to happen. Had a bit of a meltdown this morning. I had convinced myself that temp was going to rise this morning so was absolutely gutted when it remained low - poor DP was woken by me in floods of tears. Such a shitty start to the week, esp when I have to come to work and see everyone else's massive bumps which just remind me of what I have lost and my stupid body won't even give me a chance of growing a new bump

thanks murray

the GP called back and wants me to go in and see him at 3:50 as he thinks it may be a threatened ectopic and seemed quite concerned about it all...i thought he was going to ask me to wait until the next time AF turns up/doesnt arrive and go in then...im a bit worried now bloody norah!

Right firstly big hugs to marbles and murray
marbles Good to know that gp is taking this seriously, goodness what a pickle your body seems to be in lately I really hope that you get a referral out of this if nothing else. Let us know how you get I and good luck x
murray It must be so hard seeing those bumps day in day out do you think you are putting the pressure on yourself to be pg before due date too? Your hormones are probably still confused, didn't your gp/consultant say they'd do something if af/ov didn't happen soon? Can't go back and check your post on this ap

buddha I'm surprised actually as the same GP has been very poo in the past! I'm sat in the waiting room now and it turns out my appt is at 4:10 so I'm a bit early...

Marbles How did you get on?

evening ladies
i went to the GP and it looks like i am either still MC retained products etc or MC again(not likely as you have to have sex to get preg last time i checked) the Dr examined me and my cervix is open suggesting a continued MC i suspect that the spotting was the 'baby' part and this is everything else maybe? either way my 'cycle' has been the epitome of a WTF cycle in every way and starting from today and i have told my womb that this doesnt happen again and i am going to start some vitamins tomorrow called B100 that have been recommended by other MNers as helpful for recurrent MC. any other suggestions would be welcommed with open arms as i appear to be totally inept at avoiding Mc

Oh Marbles that's completely shit for you is there nothing they can do medically? Have you ever tried acupuncture? Some MNers say that's good? Do you do baby aspirin too? I'm a bit stuck for advice otherwise but I can hold hands and give really good hair strokes too