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Buddha an symptoms to report ?

I'm still at home - should be on my flight to Spain right now . I got a call yesterday afternoon as I was finishing up at work to tell me that the Consultant is very concerned about ectopic (despite the fact that I appear to be miscarrying) as hCG levels are not dropping quickly enough . So, we had to cancel our holiday AGAIN - we had just confirmed the booking that we had previously cancelled at the weekend. We hadn't bought insurance yet (stupid but we always buy it last minute - now I realise that is a BIG mistake) so we have lost out on a fair bit of money. Thankfully we were able to reschedule flights so we have pushed them forward to next May. In the meantime they want to see me Tuesday which is rubbish as it just prolongs not going on holiday and I NEED a holiday right now. So, I have chased hospital and asked if they can come up with some sort of plan where we could track bloods to see if they are consistent with ectopic or MC. In my heart I believe it is 'just' a MC as I have med-heavy bleeding, cramps etc... exactly like a MC. I guess they have to err on the side of caution as you can bleed with ectopic but deep down I KNOW this is just a precaution and it is pissing me off as if we could prove it is MC in the next few days I could book flights for early next week. Otherwise I will have to go back to work next week and explain to people why I am not in Spain . Lady luck is def not looking down on me at the moment.

Murray Well when things go wrong for you they sure go wrong it's like you are destined not to have this holiday just days of stress I hope they can come up with something quickly that will enable you to salvage something from this mess
Absolutely no symptoms so just waiting for Af at the weekend now

Don't want to rub it in but I'm on holiday next week, nowhere glamorous but looking forward to the break. Might restrict access a little though x

murray so sorry all is still up in the air I hope you get some answers soon and you can at least have some you time whilst you are off work

buddha good luck for the weekend

Murray Any news on a plan of action for you yet?
Marbles Meant to say before congrats on new job clever girl

Buddha are you late...? crossing everything mrs

No news from here - hospital just told me to come in on Tuesday, they are clearly not as interested in me going on holiday as I am ! MC has almost finished and had some very faint BFPs so hoping the hCG levels are decreasing quickly enough to get the go ahead to jet off to the sun next week

Oh yes I saw your FB status Marbles - when do you start ? Well done missus

Murray I wish but I ov'd late this month so af usually appears around ish day 28/29 no point testing. Can't face the disappointment as I'm sure it will appear later today ready to gatecrash my holiday

Oh and fingers crossed you can sort out holidays very soon x

Buddha I'll just be quietly confident for you . Please pop in and update me as I'll be watching this space...

AF is here tew gatecrashed this morning

Oh Buddha I'm so sorry, I was getting hopeful for you . How are you feeling ? Big glass of wine prescribed by me xx

I got good news yesterday as hcg down to 6 so got discharged and booked a fortnight's holiday in Gran Canaria leaving on Sunday - whoopeee !
Also, while I was having bloods taken yesterday I was asking questions about the possibility that I have antibodies after the baby I lost in Dec - I am rhesus -ve and my baby was +ve. I was given anti-D but wanted to know whether there was a risk that my baby's blood crossed mine prior to delivery therefore the 72 hours window for administering anti-D was missed..? The nurse was unable to answer my question but as I got emotional talking about the delivery and loss in Dec she referred me to the recurrent MC clinic. Technically I have had 3 MCs now but we know why the 1st one happened so I have only had 2 for unknown causes therefore I am really surprised and grateful that they are wiling to investigate. DP and I have to go to have bloods taken at end Oct then we will get appt with consultant to discuss results

Murray Thank goodness you have finally got somewhere, a holiday and an appointment about the mcs, brilliant I just hope you have more success than we did, we got a bit disheartened that there wasn't something we could "fix" if you know what i mean? Have a fantastic holiday my lovely you deserve it.
I'm ok about af, well i haven't had chance to think about it tbh we are having a fantastic time on holiday, Ewan hasn't stopped and although I was a bit snobby apprehensive about Butlins I can't fault it.

No Murray no talk

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Hey Buddha

I'm currently sitting in our car with DH waiting for RAC to come as our shed car has conked out

How's things? I take it by your pics on FB that you all had a lovely holiday E is looking so grown up and handsome

Marbles Hope you've finally got home? We did have a fab holiday thanks, glad you liked the photos I saw a lovely one of S today. How's she doing?

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I can't stand this app. It's fine for lurking, but not for posting

I've got used to it now, but there's no way you can do a proper catch up on it but its not too bad when you're up to date Come on in and post a little

Practice makes perfect

Went to GP this morning, she was fab, but is concerned that we are not getting a confirmed ovulation with the bloods that have been taken, last month I only got a faint line on OPK, due to age and length of time we've been ttc she wants to refer me to the hospital once I've had some bloods done and after DH has had his swimmers checked. I know that this is a good thing, but I am feeling really low at the moment. It took us 2 years to conceive the first time, followed by 3 m/cs and then a rather stressful pg and birth, etc etc etc and I seem to be surrounded by people that say "I want a/another baby" and just have one I know this is a very similar rant to anyone else ttc at the moment, I wish I could turn off this feeling of wanting another child, or at least have someone say you will not have another child so I can stop hoping and just get my head around being grateful for E We sorted out the spare room at the weekend and put the pram up in the attic (should have done it AGES ago) but it kind of felt symbolic, I think I kept it out in the hope we would have use for it again
So sorry to go on with the same old crap but just needed to offload in one of the few places I can

Hello ladies ! I'm back and full of energy and after a fabulous holiday . Weather, food, wine were all fantastic. E learned to swim . It was just exactly what we all needed. Feeling so relaxed about everything, I can't even remember which day I ov'd as didn't bother noting temps and the days were merging into each other !!

Moomin keep practising mrs

Marbles how is your car ? You TTC this cycle ?

Buddha my lovely lady, I sooo know how you feel.If someone could take away every glimmer of hope it would be easier to move on and accept having an only child and be grateful for that child. However, as long as the glimmer remains there is a nagging voice reminding you that "maybe one day..." I actually swapped over summer for winter wardrobe clothes tonight and yet again I kept my maternity clothes within reach "just in case".... When we moved E into a bigger bedroom the nursery was left as is, again, "just in case".... even though DP is itching to convert it into a study. It is so difficult when others seems to fall PG so easily and sail through 9 months then pop out a baby - simples ! At one point on my holiday I realised I was in the pool with 2 baby bumps (just the bumps and me - lovely) and one of the husbands of one of the bumps asked DP if we were planning another baby - FFS !!! Thank goodness I was feeling way calmer and more relaxed about our situation ! Buddha please feel free to come on and rant as much as you like, I know exactly where you are coming from and often have similar thoughts. Good news about getting tested though - I know your age may reduce your chances but it will also ensure they don't hang about. Hopefully you will know something soon. Big virtual hug xx

Anyway, news from here is that we had lots of holiday 'fun' and as ov wasn't delayed by much after MC I am now on the 2ww (which wasn't the plan, but equally it wasn't not the plan either....) I think I am about 7-8dpo. Have had spotting for the past 2-3 days, mild cramps and very tingly/sore boobs on and off. I have to say there is part of me dreading a BFP (I know it sounds ridiculous) but I have so little confidence in it working out that I just dread yet another MC with days/weeks of a tiny amount of hope until MC confirmed. It is my birthday tomorrow so maybe a little belated bday pressie at the weekend .... ? If so, pleeease let it be a sticky one.

Murray Hope you had a wonderful birthday! So glad you managed to have a relaxing holiday, you really sound bouncy Thanks for the empathy and virtual hug it was much needed Looks like its just us two on hear so we can have our own personal moaning spot with the odd drop in (come on girls give us some support)
Any more symptoms to report? When is af due? Mine is due Monday, I'm currently ignoring all the shitty arse probably fake symptoms that my body is trying to fool my head with and just waiting for TEW to fly in.

Buddha I had a lovely birthday thanks - I was very spoiled and spent today splashing a lot of cash in the shops - my arms and feet ache but I have a whole new winter wardrobe, bring on the cold weather !!!

So, what are your "fake" symptoms then.... go on humour me and tell me.... You never know mrs

I am due AF today. Did a test this morning but it didn't work, the control line didn't appear grrr... and it was a CB so not cheap ! I did a cheapie test an hour ago and and it was BFN (held wee for 6 hours !) I will test again tomorrow. My LP has been 11 days since I lost the baby in Dec but prior to that it had always been 13 days so maybe it is returning to normal in which case am due Monday too... Glad we are here for each other mrs xx

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