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Come on over animals, I think we'll be very comfy here

Check you out with your new wardrobe what's the betting you get pg now so none of it will fit Gutting that the cb test didn't work, but of a cheek the price they charge!! Might have been too early if. Lp is now 13 days with 2nd test especially as it wasn't FMU
Well my symptoms are sore (.)(.) twinges in lower tummy, very emotional, nauseous and v tired. It's probably a virus

Oooh Buddha your 'symptoms' sound promising. As always I'll keep my optimism quiet, don't want to tempt fate. I assume you don't usually get these symptoms pre AF ? I have sore b00bs and I never have that pre-AF - I know some women do. I tested again this morning and BFN with FMU (cheapie). Think I'll leave it and test again on Tuesday, give any hCG a chance to build up. I am pretty convinced it is all happening in there again, just have a nagging doubt that it will be the same as last time where levels rise too slowly then MC again. Am not giving up hope, but equally am not allowing hopes to build up. It is such a flipping rollercoaster. Let me know how things are going mrs xx

Hi ladies :)

Lovely to see you both

Ooh symptoms! I hope you both get the BFP and it is a sticky marvel! ;)

I am on CD5 I think as AF turned up late again...I have started getting odd hot flushes the past few weeks and a very achey bloated lower left abdo region so I'm pretty sure something is amiss in there. I'm thinking the big cyst has made a reappearance but it must be playing on my mind as I vividly dreamt I had ovarian cancer last night so yet another GP visit on the cards for me I think. Plus Lupus has flared up and I am aching all over and generally feeling shite...

Sorry for the mememe post...

Marbles so sorry you're feeling so poorly at the moment. Scary dreams too Is there anything you can do when your lupus flares up?
Murray Anything to report?
Well still no af for me. Might do a cheapie test in morning, but I just know it will be -ve it's just my body playing tricks again

Marbles how are you feeling now missus ? Did you make appt ? Sounds like there is a lot going on with you at the moment, I hope you are being kind to yourself. How is S doing ?

Buddha oooh please post result in the morning - fingers crossed xx

My temp dropped today then no symptoms all day so figure I may be out - AF def late but I suspect that it is all going wrong. My skin flared up and seems to be clearing which also indicates end of PG for me. TBH if it is going to go t!ts up I'd prefer it happened sooner rather than later and I have my appt for bloods for the recurrent MC clinic in 2 weeks so will hold out for that to explain WTF is going on. Sitting with glass of wine as so convinced not happening this month now. Will test in the morning if no AF by then.

Hi ladies:)

buddha sounds good :) il lurk while I work tomorrow to await an update ;)

murray so sorry you feel like AF is on her way! I hope your temp surprises you with a leap tomorrow :)

I haven't been to the Dr yet. My lovely job is 9-5:30 with no wiggle room apart from during school hols so I will get an appt next week unless I feel much worse.

BFN I hate my body

Buddha so sorry your body is messing with you. Maybe still too early for BFP ?... If you were only due yesterday then there is still hope - any sign of AF coming ?..

News from here is that I got a very, very faint BFP - TBH by 14dpo (given I am now 3 days late) I would have expected it to be darker if healthy so I am assuming that it is the same as the last 2 times and I will MC soon. Will test over the next few days to see what happens but cannot get my hopes up as I will only be disappointed . Surely 3 x MC in a row means my body is well and truly broken. I guess on the bright side there is no problem with conception it is just getting the blighters to stick that is the issue.

I'm lurking ladies and keeping everything crossed for you!

Murray Not again Like you said on the bright side you can conceive but wonder what's stopping it continuing? Worth a trip to GP? Have you had anything through about your referral yet?
Still can't believe you might have to go through all that waiting crap again. But I'll still hold a little hope in my heart for you
Moomin I'll just pick myself up off the floor You alright my lovely? Good time at Centre Parcs?
Marbles How you feeling today?

Moomin !!!! lovely to see you . Pop in for a proper catch up and cheer us up mrs.

Buddha thanks for the support. I'll test in the morning and see whether line darkens or disappears altogether. Sooo frustraing. I don't mean to be ungrateful that my body 'tries' to get PG but it just delays the next opportunity meaning I only get a chance every 6-7 weeks between MCs and long cycles grrr... .

Any other lurkers out there ? pop in and see us ladies

Is there any news from you ladies today?

CP was brilliant, really good fun. The littles enjoyed it but I'm exhausted now. Yawn! Half term begins on Friday and I'm really ready for it.

Still no Af for me just want to get it over with so we can get the next set of tests done and get a referral. Been getting the odd bit of period pain but nothing
Murray Any news?
Moomin Glad you had a good time away. Wish I was off next week too. Work is manic at the moment

Buddha sorry to hear your body is messing with you. Hopefully AF will arrive and put you out of your misery. If not then you will have to get those pee sticks out again...

I got another very faint BFP this morning - not so faint that I had to squint at the window but faint enough. It was no darker than yesterday and have had some very mild AF cramping so hoping AF just gets on with it and buggers off before I have appt on 31st Oct to have bloods taken. Am so bored of my body taking to p!ss now. However, I am also mega busy at work which I find helps take my mind off things - keeping busy is a good coping strategy for me.

Moomin glad you had a good break - enjoy half term. Our schools are off this week which is a pain as DS has no pre-school tomorrow and I need to do some work form home arrghhh - the DVD babysitter will be employed

Still no af for me. How about you Murray?

Ooh Buddha you tested again ? Surely you are tempted by now ?...

No AF here either - tested again today and BFN - hope AF comes soon and I can move on. So fed up of this crap now - messing with my head.

Wasn't tempted as I just knew I wasn't but af arrived this morning. For once I hopes comes too

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Aww Buddha rubbish news . Onwards and upwards missus - when is your next appt ? What tests will be done ?

I have bloods for recurrent MC clinic on 31st - no idea when consultant appt will be though as I guess that is the important appt. What happened when you went to MC clinic (I'm sure you mentioned that a while back) ? I know it was inconclusive but interested to know what they tested for, if you know.

BIG glasses of wine tonight and it IS the weekend so all not bad

Murray Sorry thought I'd replied on here but must have dreamt it! Will be back later to reply properly as I'm at work at the moment x

Right made it back! I've not got an appt as such, they will do my bloods again 7dpo, DH has to book in to have bloods done (diabetic and if his hbac1 bloods show that his average blood sugars are too high apparently it can affect fertility?) then he will have a sperm count done and my GP will then refer me to the hospital, she would prescribe me clomid but apparently GPs can't anymore has to be consultant now [hhmm]
When we went to recurrent m/c clinic they checked me internally to ensure there were no obvious problems with my "equipment" then they did bloods to ensure we were genetically compatible and that was about it, then a bloody stupid registrar gave us the results and told us that we were "just one of life's statistics" Made us feel fantastic I just wanted to slap her across the face, insensitive B*tch
I just hope you have more luck than us, I think they would have done more tests if we weren't conceiving

Hi Buddha thanks for posting. That is interesting about your DH's diabetes and how it could affect fertility - is there something they can do to 'fix' that if that is the issue ? So you'll be off for day7 bloods soon then - today ?... Keep me updated missus, I'll be crossing everything that they find a simple fixable issue. When they did my bloods after losing the baby last Dec I was told that best case scenario was that they find nothing, whereas I tend to disagree - I prefer to think that there is something wrong that can be fixed (I know they say that because I guess lots of major issues aren't fixable) but I'd be gutted to leave with no positive course of action other than "just keep trying".

Like you we have proven that we can conceive so I'm sure they won't run tests for that - albeit I know that poor quality swimmers can cause MC. And I guess my body has shown that it can carry a baby to term so unlikely that my 'equipment' if at fault (unless something has been damaged from c-section). All I can think that is worth testing is bloods for anti-bodies (the rhesus -ve thing) and hormone levels. I am chasing up a private hospital at the moment - getting prices etc... If on Weds when we go for bloods it sounds like it is going to be a long drawn out and slow process we are jumping over to private as I need to feel like things are moving forward. Esp at this time as I am all too aware of the anniversary of losing our boy approaching and we are no further forward in terms of number 2 and I am now a year older - tick tock. I feel like this is my last chance - whatever the bloods return in terms of results will determine whether we call it a day or get the 'problem' fixed and continue this bl00dy emotional rollercoaster journey.

Murray blinds aren't for a bit as they're 7 DPO rather than day 7. I think re diabetes if he keeps his blood sugars stable it will improve any reduced fertility but he's a crap diabetic tbh All our tests were done and results through in less than a month before so hopefully will be as quick for you too. Time is a bugger though and I'm do with you on the tick tick and constant arguing in my head over whether to quit or not Hope you've had a lovely weekend?
We had a food festival in town and Katy from CBeebies I can cook was here (after not being at Butlins when we went in Sept and disappointing dh and ds) it was brilliant, small venue and then she did a meet and greet (may have seen photos on FB) Ewan was so very excited as she picked him up for a cuddle and a chat, dh was very as he has a crush too. Now E can't say her name without a goofy smile it's so cute

Aww Buddha that is so sweet and LOL at DH being envious of DS gettng a cuddle !!!

Only 2 days until my appt - quite looking forward to it now as planning to arm myself with questions/info and if their timescales are too long then I'll be onto the private clinic to make an appt for ASAP. Either way I'm hoping to have more direction by the end of Weds .

D'oh yes of course 7dpo not Cd7 - what a plum ! Are you temping so that you know exactly when you ov ? ikwym about internal debate about giving in and accepting 1 child - I have that 'conversation' in my head frequently as I consider a 5 year age gap and the practicalities that go with that.... I'm quite determined that by March next year I will be ready to throw the towel in - there is only so much a girl can put herself and her family through.

Good luck for tomorrow x