We are a relatively - but not for the poncey bit of London I live in - affluent family and my two beautiful dds have a very enriched existence - all the usual chattering class accoutrements -
BUT I wish they had a different mummy. I am a very affectionate person, which is great - they get lots of kisses and cuddles, many many I love yous, lots of praise. But they must wonder whether they have two mummies, because I am also critical, controlling, cold, angry and mean to them. I have ludicrously exacting standards and am very harsh on them if they make mistakes. They are both - unsurprisingly, given their mother's treatment of them - hypersensitive, hyper self-critical, and given to massive emotional outbursts. I'm very, very sad, because I think their emotional stability and self-worth is way more important than a million extracurricular activities. I have a great dp, who works away a lot and who doesn't ever really see how bad it gets and tries to support me by saying I am a wonderful mother. But I fear I am really damaging them. And I try to control myself and I can see myself being like that, but I can't stop. Is any one else like this, and have they found a way to sort themselves out?