Oh, on a serious note....if it is wrong, I am a terrible terrible person FairLady, I think more of a particular person, then I do my H. I come very close to crossing the line and breaking my own principles. And I never thought that I was 'that kind of person'.
I can not win, without that person as part of my life, a bit of me is just hollow, and with him as a part of my life I am on a constant rollercoaster. I think I prefer the latter.
I haven't crossed the line, but probably need locking away sometimes for my own protection.
Am I a bad person?
A big, empathetic hug, it is a hard place to be in.