Where to start? It was my cousins baby's christening today, we had to be there for 1pm, service at 1:15pm ... lo's woke up at 8am, had breakfast - I got dd 18mths dressed and put her down for a nap at 10:45am so that she didn't get tired and ratty at the service, ds 3.6 didn't want to get dressed so lots of bribery and rushing around, then I finally got dressed! My parents drove to me so that they could follow me to the church. Had to wake dd up to put the lo's in the car and off we went...I got myself upset on the drive there because I was wearing a dress which dh had commented on (he said I looked gorgeous in it and it was the best dress I had ever bought) which was quite unusual and then realised that I hadn't worn it since that day, I got half way to the church and took a wrong turn and got myself upset again because I thought I knew where it was but it was always dh who had directed me to it and actually I didn't know, I eventually found the church (mum & dad still following) just in time, we got out of the car and parents had a go because we were driving round in circles!! )they have got a sat nav just didn't bring it!) Went in the church and cried all the way through because the last time i was there dh was with me and the last christening i went to was our dd's and dh was with me (where i had worn the dress)
We then went to the reception - me, the dc's, mum, dad, sister, her fiance and her son. Everyone was chatting but i had the dc's to keep an eye on and chase after, so didn't speak to anyone, didn't even have a drink - I asked my sister to keep an eye on dd while i took ds to the toilet, when i got back everyone was chatting and no dd - asked around, nobody had seen her, panic set in and I was running round the pub looking and calling for her - saw sisters fiance at the bar and said "i can't find dd, I can't find dd" and he shouted at me "what do you want me to do about it!!" So I screamed at him "Help me look for her!" but he didn't ... just then a man came in from outside and asked if I had a little girl, I said yes and he said that someone had just grabbed her out of the middle of the main road!!! I just burst into tears - dd was fine, I wasn't - I gathered both dc's and went home I just can't face family functions like this on my own, I can't be in 2 places at once, I can't do this on my own without dh, I feel like I am not a good enough mummy - My mum just called and said the family can't be expected not to socialise just because I have 2 dc's - I only asked for them to keep an eye on her for a minute!!
Sorry for mammoth post, I could put more but I am sure you are fed up if you have got this far ... just needed to talk to my cyber friends and get it off my chest