Sweetheart, some people will just have not been able to accept what you've been telling us all this time, and some will have accepted but not acknowledged.
BBB you've nailed it in that one sentence. I do try to understand but it's incredibly frustrating when I have done everything I could to make people aware that every apparent step forward or improvement is temporary.
There's one extended family member (my late godson's mother) that I just can't bring myself to ring. I love her dearly but she will fall apart (sob, etc.), want to come rushing over to visit and she is just incredibly draining.
Part of what set me off last night was an e-mail from my uncle. He wants to fly over for a weekend visit ASAP. I desperately want to see him and spend time with him but the fact is that until after Wednesday (at the earliest) I will have no idea what my schedule for the next few weeks is likely to entail. I had already started to put together a tentative plan for a trip to Virginia in the new year. I want to spend some more time with ZombieLad & his fiancee, a day or two with his adoptive family, a few days staying at uncle's house and a few days in a hotel in my hometown so I am within walking distance of my old boss's wine bar / restaurant so a get-together of as many of my Virginia friends as possible can be arranged. Anyway, I've told uncle he is welcome to come over but explained the immediate problems with timing and put my visit to VA on the table as well.
Hearts, (and anyone else reading this) my feelings about fighting cancer and losing the battle are well known. I'll state them again: One doesn't fight cancer. One learns to live with it. When the end comes, it comes. If anyone DARES to utter those words about me I will come back and haunt them. (I rather fancy creating a bit of poltergeist activity and throwing hard objects at them.)
Also, Hearts, there's a world of difference between what you apparently consider "gushing" and what I consider "gushing". Words of support are always welcome.
Thank you Phalanx.