to be fair, pollypeachum, you did stumble onto one of your first threads and upset tiktok, who is in all honesty one of the most respected posters on this site.
she gives a lot of her spare time over to helping mothers struggling to breastfeed, but more than that she is hugely sensitive to the issues that a 'failed' breastfeeder or someone who just doesn't want to breastfeed has.
i'm saying this as a 'failed' bfer myself who has taken a pasting or two in her time on BF/FF threads, she is really on the side of the angels.
i do hope that you didn't feel that you were being ridiculed on that particular thread (i don't imagine you do, as no-one mentioned you on it). and it looked to me as if you'd apologised in good heart, rather than had it 'wrung out' of you, so i'm going to assume that as being the case.
i haven't seen the other threads but from what i have read so far i find it hard to believe that you have been downright offensive. I think you'll be an excellent addition to MN, and it's true what ruty said, no-one has time to remember who said what anyway so i'm sure you'll find yourself chatting amiably (or disagreeing violently) very soon with the peopel you most feel have wronged you. given that we are all mothers on this site (more or less) the one thing you can guarantee is that our short term memories are shot to hell. . hope your baby is feeling a wee bit better this morning and that you can take the chance to get some sleep.