It is one o clock in the morning, I need the night shift to mind my worries whilst I sleep....

[NaomiFromMilkShake]

I am 50% of the way through chemo. (second time around)(different primary)

My DS (18) has just been diagnosed with depression I think me being diagnosed again was the tipping point.

Due to above I am having to delegate Christmas, it will get done, it did before just not my way.

DH retiring in three years, should be more than enough to live on, but at the moment I am worrying (Like I couldn't worry about that closer to the time)

Sausage rolls, my job, ditto mince pies.........if they don't happen my DH and my DS will suck it up. Just me worrying.

DS struggling in college and have to go to a meeting on Wednesday

So if some of the night shift would like to come and mind my ,worries whilst I attempt to sleep, it would be gratefully received.

Feel free to add your own, just writing that down has helped.

Welcome, @sunflofferes - I am sorry you are here. But you have found us, and you are in the bestest of hands with our most special @NumbersStation. If she tires, one of us shall leap in and hold your worries tenderly - or scoldingly, depending on how they behave - until you feel ready to have them back.

- that's a lot of pain you are holding. Let it go. We've got you.

Thank you for your kind words @NumberStation. It's the first time I've admitted I'm struggling and I hope that will help in some way. Wishing for a restful night for all.

Sorry for your loss @bettybattenburg. 💐

We all struggle @sunflofferes And admitting it is the best thing we can do for our hearts.

We drift along in our life doing the best we can even though times can be hard and not what we wish for ourselves.

There is a beautiful support network the guardians of this thread. You can dump your worries and flee any time of day. The load is for all of us to bear and in that we have strength. X

Thank you, I think I entered the thread at slightly the wrong time and @bettybattenburg needs the support tonight. So I will come back tomorrow and hope she finds some comfort in the darkness tonight.

There are plenty of us here to carry worries for anyone who needs it. And each worrier is important.

Pass them here flower - we have you. Peace in the darkness belongs to you too

betty I'm very sorry for your loss

sunflofferes I can help with those worries tonight. Don't ever delay posting if you need a worry minding, there's always someone around.

@sunflofferes I won't be sleeping and can mind worries and if I can't others can. Thank you for your kind consideration.

@bettybattenburg I’m so sorry for your loss.
@sunflofferes there are always plenty of guardians on here, so no one ever needs to feel there isn’t enough worry baskets to go around. Even if I haven’t signed in, I’m always available to take care of any worries.

@bettybattenburg I'm so sorry for your loss love x

This is such a great thread. I'm worried about my divorce and the ongoing financial negotiations. Wondering what/how I will make do financially afterwards.
I'm also worrying about my job as they are restructuring. And the book I'm supposed to be writing. I am surely too stupid and too tired to actually write it. What were they thinking giving me a contract?

@Spritesobright

I’ve had the ‘how will I manage’ worries. Hideous at the time but it will sort and you will manage. And yes, sometimes it is hard but you will manage.

Fingers crossed the restructuring will wiggle itself in your favour but it must be an uncertainty you don’t need.

And the book? How fabulous is that?? They have faith in you and you aren’t one bit stupid if you’ve secured a contract. Well done you!

The bit we can fix is the tiredness. There are a lot of us floating around tonight and we have got you. Lay your worries down, plump up your pillows and dream of how you want your life to be. It is there - within reach

I slept very well last night thanks to you all.

I'll take any worries and I stress this, big or small, it doesn't matter. There is no hierarchy of worries that steal our sleep.

@mrsterrypratchett I have a big one that I’d be glad to leave with you.

I can also take some tonight. Just not my own.

I got you.

Hi all, extremely long time lurker but this thread has truly warmed my heart.

I'm more than happy to take on worries for someone in need - pass them over and I'll carry them gladly for a while and lighten the load.

If anybody could help with carrying mine that would be lovely. I gave birth 13 weeks ago to my second child, a son who was sadly diagnosed with Downs Syndrome when he was 24hrs old. I'm really struggling to come to terms with this and the nights seem to be the worst time for rumination and dark thoughts. If someone could give me just a handhold and a nod of reassurance that would make such a difference.

Hope everyone who is awake finds some solace in this thread tonight 🤞🏻😊

@Junibug
I’m here and will take you worries for your son and your family.

Also, I had a very lovely family member with Downs so grew up with her and spent time with so many of her friends. She was my Aunt and an absolute joy.

I know the diagnosis is a shock for you and not what you wanted for your baby boy, but he can have a wonderful life and enrich yours also.

As I write this I want to make sure you know I’m not saying you shouldn’t have the feelings you do. You have every right to them. But for tonight I will keep hold of this for you.

@HannaYeah thank you lovely, it makes me feel just that bit more stronger to read your kind words. Thank you for reaching out and taking my hand.

I love him so much and know he will be ok, it's just the shock and enormity of it all that I can't get my head round! I'm sure in time I will become stronger.

@Junibug I'm going to be backup to @HannaYeah. Not because she can't carry your worries, but because I want you to feel total unburdening. Just for tonight. We have this.

Congratulations on your beautiful boy. I can only imagine how you are trying so hard to come to terms with this new reality. But you will. He will be loved so hard that you will not be able to imagine him any other way. He's your boy.

Welcome, little one. ❤️

Junibug; congratulations and a huge welcome to the world for your son ❤️
Let me unburden you for a while. Rest easy for now. Myself and the other worry guardians who are on shift have got this. We've got you too. Wrapping you tight in the power of our outstretched arms. Sleep gently, for now, if you can.

NumbersStation thank you so, so much.
I'm not a spiritual person but reading this thread is comforting in that sort of way. I did sleep well having them cared for.
Everything looks better in the morning doesn't it?

@Spritesobright. So glad you managed a wee sleep and hopefully your worries seem lighter today. I am the size of a fairly hefty sow. If you need them squashing down again you know where to dump them. I can stamp them down with my dainty great big walloping trotters.

@Junibug

Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful little boy. May your love for eachother carry you both through this life.

Welcome to the world sweetheart. x

Congratulations @junibug, you have given your little one the best gift of all.. Someone who loves them. Be kind to yourself, your a star 🌟

My anxiety is so bad right now and I’m not even sure what’s set it off. Really hoping I can get some zzzzzzz’s tonight as it’s been a while- if anyone’s up for a bit of night duty it’d be much appreciated