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[MultipleMama]

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Well I hope she is right and they are all sitting with her, wouldnt that be lovely? I have had a horrible day, touch of vertigo, couldnt stand up for most of the day, feel sick and now my ears are buzzing. Got to be ok in the morning as its the Tiny Tigers day out and they have asked me to go. Hopefully get a decent sleep and it will go away. Kale Nits :o xx

Shabs- l hope that you get things sorted soon. I am glad your mum is reacting well to the meds, and you have a bit of your "real" mum back
Soks- hope you feel better soon.
Trips- hope you had a restful day.
Chops- hope you have had a good week.
Mama - has blueA settled enough for you to go skating?
I rested today except for going into town to send off the passport forms for all the men of the house, inused the check and send, and they said we should have them back in 4 weeks, which surprised me considering all the hoohaa at the moment.
I am feeling a little better, but I had work ring up pressuring me to say if I am back to work Friday, I said I had to speak to the Dr tomorrow to get her sayso I am well enough, They have put me down to work on my supposed weekend off, so I'm a bit pissed off with them atm.
We also had the CAFF gent come again, and he is referring J to CAMHs as he feels he may have mild Autistic traits, just like DH, which doesn't really surprise me, as both DH and I have discussed that it may be a possibility, but it does make me sad . I really didn't want him to struggle in life like DH has. I hope that if he does get a diagnosis, they will be able to help him find some coping strategies.

Yeah, he's breathing is settling down, thank god. Managed another skating session today, and I received some awesome news. My awesome brother & Petrov are coming to stay for 4 months!! They fly on 23rd August and go home on 28th December :) We're in the process of buying a house so no idea how it's all going to pan out but I miss my brother so much, I'm not turning him away. Dad will be joining us for Christmas.

I'm fine. Twas the boy who was sick. Although I managed to lose my voice yesterday afternoon. Just completely went! So talking in whispers is... Interesting. Especially when it comes to saying 'stop!' to the children. Although the twins are responding better than I thought they might. The bigs just persist in shouting at me if we're in a different room. Even though I've told them 100 times they should come and find me as I don't want them screaming their heads off to get an answer.

Dh is being a knob and switching off from the children. Because he's in a pissy with me over various things. I can take him sulking. But the children shouldn't have to suffer that. Hoping he snaps out of it soon.

soks - banging very loudly on a table works for a bit! I was like that a few weeks ago, was hard work :)

bubby - Really hope that camhs can help J. it is horrible when you have to face up to suspicions due to concern from third parties, makes it all so much more real. Our CAMHS has been ace so far thought for my J, whether he gets a dx or not, hopefully it will help your boy too and he will be happier.

mama - lucky you! How do they manage to get so much time off work! Hope blue A is still settled.

Trips - sympathies, i also get vertigo. Mine is the opposite though - I can't lie down! Hope you made the trip ok.

shabs - hugs and thinking of you. It msut be so frustrating being kept out of the loop but at least your mum does sound settled for now.

I've been clapping my hands a lot. Especially when out. Just need to find my whistle. Think dh has it as he wanted my old work one for something or other. I did tell him he needed to acquire me a replacement.

Was amusing on the way to school. Put dts on reins. Which was lovely. But of course I couldn't shout the bigs to come back to me whenever dts decided to detour lie down thankfully one of E's friends had overtaken us and they ended up walking together with J holding her mum's hand.

Just so so tired today. But I've counted my runner bean plants and I now have 7 successfully growing - 4 properly sprouting and 3 just shoots. Also trimmed my bay tree so got leaves drying in the airing cupboard and found a second sucker has popped up. So mum is having the first one as it's quite well grown and strong enough now to remove. And I think my sister will probably have the second one. Am loving my little garden this year. And so far we've no caterpillars. Munchy little bleeders.

Just a quick reply as I can hear Apollo fussing!

Chops - Petrov is a freelance architect and Ivan is a independent midwife. BlueA is doing well :) xx

Sok, hope your voice comes back soon!

Soks - amazed you get time t

To grow stuff in top of everything else! Hope voice is back properly soon!

Mama - hope he is on the mend. They both have fab jobs!

Soks if you get lots of beans, I shall have to send you by rubber bean curry recipe! :)

We have an allotment so plenty of beans to come. Atm freezing pounds of strawberries never had such a bumper crop! Mama how on earth did he get into midwifery, does it mean he doesn`t work for a surgery or hospital? Lovely morning here, up in a bit and off to the church summer fayre looking for plants!

Oh..........morning everyone :)

The veg patch is a bit like my sanctuary. When all is shit around me I can do some wedding and it looks good again. It's really not very big.

Dh and I are having major problems at the moment. He is barely speaking to me and I'm wondering whether to leave or ask him to go. Isn't that awful?

I'll admit I've not exactly shone through here. But at least I can say what I did was in the best interests of our family surviving. We've only just bloody put a deposit down for a much needed holiday. I don't know whether we will still be going. Or whether I say bollocks, pay it off and take the children myself.

Quick reply before we head to the theatre hall.
Trips - He witnessed a friend give birth when he was a teenager and has had a passion for helping bring life into the world since. Incredibly weird as he's stereotypical Russian, blunt, upfront and hardly speaks but he's an amazing midwife. He's mainly a homebirth midwife & offers his services to a few local birth centres. If his mothers want a hospital birth he attends there. So I guess he's in the private sector. People mainly choice him because he's honest on what he's willing to provide & offer.

Sok - I hope things work out for you xxx

Soks sounds like you and me are in the same boat!! I am already in bed as I am very very very with dk. Our neighbour asked us round for a drink tonight as his domineering wife is away! Avery pleasant hour was spent. Dk came back here about 20 mins before me. I admit to feeling rather heady after two large glasses of wine, but came in and within 15 mins had supper (curry) on the table. There was only three of us tonight, us and dd. She as usual picked at her food and left it, I said to her its marvellous that she can eat chocolate an crisps no bother. Dk left the table to go to the loo but didn't come back. She ups and leaves, no thank you, just bloody surly. I start clearing up, he doesnt come back to finish his supper. I find him watching the tv, so I said I think its rude that he doesnt come back as I have stood and cooked it. My God, the verbal abuse was quite shocking, including the 4 letter word, saying he is fed up of me having a go at dd. So I bloody well told him how I feel, I am fed up of cooking for 5 people 3 times a day 7 days a week and then get the sort of treatment I have tonight. I really don't see what I did wrong tonight and don`t feel I deserve the verbal abuse I got. I am soooooooooooooooo I could scream and leave here for good. I feel nothing tonight but hate for him and I mean it. Bloody bloody bloody men.

Kick him in the nuts Trips - they are all malakers!!!

oh Shabs I dont think I have ever felt such anger as I do tonight, I am so so bloody irate and just feel so angry as I just did not expect or deserve it. I have just typed a very long email and sent it to him, I really would like to go downstairs and scream at him but I cant. I do think men are such selfish bastards.

Soks and Trips - My sympathies go out to you both, as you know, my dh and I have had some very rocky times, and, even now, he and I often have our moments, he was sleeping on the couch only a couple of weeks ago as I couldn't stand him near me, he made me so angry, as he was deliberately provoking fights with me and the boys, in fact, he was doing so again today! I hope you both work things out to your needs, whether apart or together.
Trips- sounds like both dd and dk are selfish little arses, at least dd can blame it on teenage hormones, but dk is a grown up with no excuses, he should be backing you up, not having a go at you!
Shabbs- you have the right idea mate!
Mama- he sounds like the sort of person you need when in labour, honest, upfront, and willing to back you up and help you get what you need, even if its not what you may want!

Morning! Well I woke up feeling positive this morning. And gradually had it eroded away. Dh worked last night. I found out at 5pm. Precisely half an hour before he left. Had a good cry. Emailed my sister. Who promptly came over. Am taking josh to nana and grandad's today for his sleepover and then taking the other 3 to my sister's so dh and I can talk. He's asleep at the moment so will have to wake him up for it but needs must.

Woken him up. Now to admit being a naughty girl myself, get him to admit he's been a twat and ask some pretty tough questions. Fingers crossed he's either honest or stops being a twat. Not entirely sure which I want tbh. Although is it wrong that in already mentally planning what I need to do in the event that things do go tits up.

Soks- hope that things work out ok, twatishness I think is male perogative!!

Oh Soks there must be something in the air! My tough as old boots sil phoned this pm very angry and upset with her dh, she actually cried something I have never seen her do in the 40 odd years I have known her. Dk is trying to be nice to me but I can`t be arsed, his outburst shocked and up set me. xx

Back home. Had an amazing night at the theatre watching Phantom, it was lovely to spend some child-free time with DH. Our after dark activities really got the romance back on track - DH thinks I'm getting pudgy though . Cheeky sod. I've actually lost weight!

Soks, Trips - I hope your men pull their bloody fingers out!! Good luck with the talk Soks xx

morning ladies x

sorry to hear about all the man troubles :( Soks, hope the chat went well x

Chat was pretty meh tbh. Very 'me, me, me'. A lot of it boils down to the babysitting comment. Dh feels like he doesn't get any time off as if he's off I always go out (just a slight over exaggeration there). So now I'm left feeling like I can't do anything without asking permission first. Tit for tat would be me saying it's not convenient when dh wants to go away for 3 days for a work course... But of course I wouldn't do that.

So I'm quite ho hum. Not really sure how things are going to pan out. But if dh wants to effectively lead the single life while I'm chained to the kitchen sink, he might just find that's what he's got.

soks, it sounds like you could do with buggering off and leaving him to it for a few days - then see how hard done by he feels!

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