Hiya Shabs, wish you were here now with a bottle and a hug. What an awful awful day. When I came down this morning she seemed ok, but when I put her food down she wasnt interested. She then wanted to go out, went about 2ft and laid down, spent the next hour moving from one spot to another, everything an effort. I told H I was going to call the vet and ask them to come out, she hated going in a basket, stressed her so much. They were very good on the phone, said someone would come out after 12pm. I had a houseful of kids and at 11am he decides to take some stuff to the allotment. At 12.30pm I was worried that the vet would come and all the children would be here, so I gave all 6 of them lunch and packed them off on a bike ride. They hadnt been gone 5 mins when the vet came with a nurse. Tess was asleep in the garden, I carried her in and he examined her. He said she had heart failure, thats why she had so much fluid, he said her quality of life was poor. I just couldnt let her go on, so she was put to sleep and left with me. Oh god how I cried, I went upstairs and in the top of my airing cupboard I had Matthews blue check cot sheet, my favourite one. I wrapped her in it, she looked so sweet and held her, crying for about 30 mins when H came back. He just stood there and said, "why didnt you ring me, I would have come back". I said why did you go?? We buried her nr Matthews tree in the garden, I just couldnt let her go away. Then we had to wait for the kids to come home. They came one at a time and I was left to do all the telling and all the comforting. Feel very angry with him tonight, feel he let me down, no words of comfort for me either. So in bed, cant believe she has gone, sweet little girl xx