Today's the FIRST and we still have each other :)

[MummyMcKT]

A thread for all of us who were due in 2010 and who've bonded through the last few weeks.

It doesn't matter where your head/heart's at on this journey at the moment just as long as you want some company....

All in good time Pink..... all in good time (and even then my "positive" thinking comes in waves!)

It does help that I'm now officially on summer hols - just need to hatch a plan now!

Hope the heavy period sorts itself out pronto Fingers crossed for you to be donning floaty summer outfits with no fear very soon!

Hello all

Hope we're all well x

Well ladies, I am off again! I am away on my summer jollys from today until a week on Monday, so I shall catch up with all your news then.

Take care all.

Ohh, have a lovely time, YRMOTB.

Hello!

Just a quick post to say hope you are all enjoying the weather and have/are on holiday

I have had 2 bleed-free days whoop whoop!

Am feeling a bit mixed coz I have my bikini body ready to go but I should have my baby bump instead

Anways here's to a productive summer for all of us

Hello all.

Everyone is feeling better in the Cadclan.

I received a lovely email from a RL friend back in Switzerland who remembered that I might be feeling awful around due-date time. It helped to know that I was not wallowing alone. I suspect that she might actually be pg but had the kindness and forethought not to mention it. They have been trying for nearly a year so I would be most pleased for her.

Nearly everyone on my antenatal thread has popped so it won't be in active convos for much longer...

Have a fabulous time YRMOTB.

Pinkchampagne Has the bleeding slowed down? You certainly have had a tough time. I hope there is an end in sight.

McKT: I am very proud of you for trying to remain positive. I will attempt to follow suit.

Fordy: I am very sorry about your nan.

Velvetcu I am envious of the bikini body as mine was utterly destroyed even before the C-Section in January but I know what you mean about preferring the thought of a bump. I hope it happens soon enough for you.

Loopy Well done for hopping on the April bus. I hope you make it!

Apologies for anyone else that I have left out. Keep strong!

Sorry Loopy.

Aw, sorry Loopy. These milestones are hard aren't they?

That was nice of your friend, cadmum. It is good to know there are friends thinking of you.
I had to hide the October thread myself, and have recently done the same with the November one (even though I was due in Oct), as couldn't bare reading all the scan updates.

My period has gone now, thankfully.
Feel I am not coping with things as well as I once did though. Had a major rant at DS1 (who is nearly 11 & full of attitude atm) on Friday, which resulted in me collapsing in tears, and then last night I went out with DP & some family members who had come down. Drunk quite a bit again & had my cousin asking if we would have a baby together. I told her what had happened to me. Kept it together. Then we left the pub to walk home. They all got a cab & DP & I walked. DP mentioned ex h popping round to my parent's house to give my nephew a present. He seemed unhappy about it, but as it was something out of my control, I just exploded. I cried & cried & cried, ranted & cried some more collapsing into a bush. It was like one of those moments where just one more little thing is too much for you & you explode in a bad way.
I am crying so often these days. I don't feel I am coping as well as I should & wonder if I need to see a doctor.

Hello All

Hope YRMOTB is enjoying her hol - STILL to book here!!!

Am very envious of the bikini body Velvet Am finding my own body image of late something v difficult to feel comfortable with - only me can fix it though!

Thinking of you around your due date Cadmum. Helps when RL friends offer support too.

Thinking of you too Loopy I could tell you EXACTLY where we should be with the twins - a week and three days behind you! - fingers crossed the half way mark will be a happy milestone for you around Dec

I think it's natural to feel as you do Pink It's not crying that does it for me but rage - I fly off the handle really easily at the moment and seem to psychoanalyse and stress over the stupidest of things - everyone's different. Have you thought of phoning the Miscarriage Association for support? Aparently their counsellors are all women who've been through MC - a friend of mine found them very helpful and it's def something I'm considering if the end of the summer comes and I feel the same.

My gorgeous handsome nephew is two today so we've just been to his party Mixed feelings - LOVED seing him and his sister andbeing part of his day but both DP and I felt a bit on the sidelines without or own kids amidst a sea of them. I know if we'd been there with a twin sized bump it would've been different too. All in good time.... have to keep hold of that thought.

Thinking of everyone. Sun's out again here

I hadn't thought of contacting the miscarriage assosiation, McKTastic, but might be worth bearing in mind. Was actually thinking I could do with some sort of counselling right now, but reluctant to go to gp, as don't want to be thrown AD's. I have the rage & the tears all mixed right now.

I went to my gorgeous nephew's first birthday party today & although I have my two boys, I found it made me a little sad watching all the little babies, toddlers & one lady with a bump, who is due a month before I would have been due.
Was lovely to see them all, but made me think of what I had lost.

Oh what very sad news, Loopy - your poor friend. I agree that that would be so much harder to deal with. Can think of nothing worse.

Hello All

Have been at a bit of a lose end past two days - trying not to get sucked back down but hard when the hole of "this is shit" keeps swirling below!

Have just written something mammoth on the Sarah Beeny webchat! lol LOVE the Beeny - DP and I met on MSF (despite the fact he lives up the road!)

Will head back there to see if I've been answered or ignored and catch up with you guys later.

Am going to try and drag myself to GAP this afternoon and hope that they have a pair of jeans big enough

Sorry to hear that, McKTastic. I know exactly how you feel. There are times you just can't fight how awful you really feel, aren't there?

I had a day at school where all the parents were invited in, and one turned up fresh from her 12 week scan, flashing all her scan pics. Of course I tried to look enthusiatic about the pics, but inside I felt sad seeing images that I had so hoped to see a couple of months back.
Have also just braved throwing out all my bits from the midwife. It was a job I had been putting off, but having those reminders hanging around doesn't help me.

Hope everyone else is ok.

hello lovelies...I am sorry I haven't been here much, i've had a busy week and have felt quite sad and down when not doing anything so thoughtit best to keep doing stuff. Thank you all fir your kind words about my nan, she is actually still very well. She is sleeping alot but still has her mind and can still get around. she has my grandad running around and has us all in stitches alot of the time. I feel so sad at the idea that she'll never meet my baby that never was and we are not ready to actively try fo a baby just yet.

It seems like its a bit tough for all of us right now...peaks and troughs right??? We'll be ok just need to come here and let it all out xx

I got back to some exercise today, i just need to address the food!!

rightyooo I am off to watch to kill a mocking bird on the tv...I love it xx

thinking big positive things for you all xx

re scan pics PinkC and Loopy.

Good to hear from you Fordy. Glad things sound as good as they can be for your nan. Hang in there.

GAP - size 18!!!! (enough said!)

Loopy I got lots of chat from the Beeny which gave me a wee boost (weird eh!) I loved Property Ladder, met my DP on mysinglefriend despite him living a mile away and was always boosted when she appeared preggers again on tv as she's a similar age. She prob thought I was a stalker!

Met up with an old old friend tonight - food, wine and catch up chat but the best bit was sitting right next to her on the sofa and having a hug

Thinking of you all.

Glad to hear your nan is doing well, fordy.

McKTastic - pleased you had a nice catch up with your friend. Good company & wine always makes me feel a bit better!

I have not had any further moments of hysterics, thankfully, but still having night panics, so have booked a doctors appointment for Monday afternoon.
Have been thinking about it all a lot recently. Seems there are reminders everywhere. Just yesterday, two mum's came into school & they were both due in October. Seeing what my bump should have looked like gave me a bit of a sinking feeling in my stomach.
On a positive note, my smear test came back fine!

ARGH!

I recently found out that a good friend was accidentally pg at 42. She was delighted because she needed IVF with her ds(7). I was just starting to feel envious when I found out that she has had a mmc... No heartbeat and dating only 5 weeks when she thinks that she is nearly 8.

I was trying to tell her to remain positive on the off chance that her dates are off but I guess that this is unlikely.

Now I feel terrible for being envious. Poor her. I cannot imagine how awful she must be feeling. Life is CRUEL!

Loopy Your poor friend. I agree that this would be far more unbearable than a miscarriage. I hope that she makes it through the next rough stages.

Pinkchampagne I don't find that the scan pictures bother me so much anymore. I would attribute this to having children and having lost so many pregnancies; I was thinking that I was a hardened miscarriage expert. Then I was heartbroken when dh went to visit a colleague's baby shortly after he was born by CS. I just could not imagine speaking to the new parents as I was also recovering from a CS without the baby...

I hope that your appointment goes well on Monday. I agree that you are very brave to be going to speak to someone.

Sometimes, you just never know what will affect you or how.

I think that it is important to remember that whatever you are feeling is normal and that you are entitled to feel a range of emotions from sadness to outright rage.

Oh no, how awful for your poor friend, cadmum.
I have done the same thing, in that I was envious when DP told me his work colleague's girlfriend was pregnany, only to find out a couple of weeks later that she had had a MMC. Life is cruel.

Is strange how different things effect you. When I had a MC years back, seeing babies upset me, but this time, as I saw a big empty sac at my 12 week scan, it is healthy scan pics that get to me. I can handle seeing babies atm, but that may change in October.

Hello everyone

Hope you are all ok.

I'm bleed free and have even ovulated whoohoo things are getting back to normal. Not TTC this month due to holiday in 2 weeks.

Pink - hope the appt goes well for you.
Loopy - sorry about your friend. Dont feel guilty it is only natural to want what you have lost, I'm finding that part hard right now.

Sorry to those i have missed

take care all