Today's the FIRST and we still have each other :)

[MummyMcKT]

A thread for all of us who were due in 2010 and who've bonded through the last few weeks.

It doesn't matter where your head/heart's at on this journey at the moment just as long as you want some company....

I'm sorry about your nan fordy, it is rubbish but it's good that she's got her family around her.

McKT I've been thinking similar stuff, I keep looking at my wobbly tum and thinking that it should have been full of something other than lard. I just know I'm gonna keep thinking that until I'm past my due date. Gods know what I'll be like then!

Personally, I have never been so glad to be in work today, I'm gonna miss the england game! I don't have anything against football or england- I just don't want to have to be stuck watching it.

So sorry about your nan Fordy - rubbish stuff always happens together doesn't it.

McKT I know what you mean about reading threads but not replying - I have felt guilty about that too. I have even been chatting about it to people at work as though it didnt actually happen to me IYSWIM.

I'm with you on the upsetting bumps tho

The Venetian was just too expensive in the end so we have gone for a junior suite at the MGM Signature - it has a jet bath which I am very excited about! I am definately just focused on getting this term finished and going on holiday!

I have already caught a throat infection from the lovlies andI have only been back 3 days! I am glad to be back at work though because it gives me no time to think. I cried on the way home on Monday- I don't even know why! I am still bleeding a little but I think that being up and about might help that to sort out a bit quicker too. I hate sanitary towels!!!! Getting fed up with no nookie too!

Anyway half time is nearly over so I had better get back to the game.

So sorry about your nan, fordy. It really does seem that rubbish stuff happens together. Thinking of you & your family.

Velvet - your hotel sounds lovely. Glad you have something nice to look forward to.
I found it helped being back at work too, you don't get much time to think when working with children, that's for sure!
Hope your throat infection clears soon. I had one last year - they're the pits!

I had a bit of a moment yesterday. I had been doing so well for weeks now, but DP was talking about his 40th birthday & planning what we could do, and I just burst into tears, as baby was due on his birthday. The tears just came from nowhere. Oh well, to be expected from time to time I guess.

Evening All!

Well at the grand age of 36 I've just been told I have two new cousins Twin girls (am so relieved! Was convinced ours were boys despite lack of proof wasn't wrong about my twin inkling so I'll stick with boys!)Didn't really take in details was totally focused on the GIRL bit! Uncle now has 7 children (two girls from previous marriage; twins and two girls and a boy who are his DPs and he live with now)..... totally brilliant

Am so sorry to hear the news about your nan Fordy. It sounds like you are very close to her. I hope you get to spend some time together but it'll be a difficult journey for you all.

QueenOTCW Wobbly tum alert here!! FAR too many s !!/chocolate etc etc but cannae seem to avoid them at the mo!

What ya got planned for Sunday? (assuming you're still avoiding the footie!!)

Velvet I find myself telling people what happened and then making banal excuses for it such as "Ach! well it's just one of those things eh!" because they look so uncomfortable. I cringe every time I do it too

Ooh! Jet bath - very plush!

Loopy! School Hamster!!!!! lol You are def a glutten for punishment but good on you Does it have a diary?! I used to send a class teddy home when I taught infants which the kids loved but the parents always def felt under pressure with!

PinkC I've been thinking of due date too. Twins were due on my DPs bday also (although he's going to be 39!). I KNOW they'd have arrived sooner but it's the only date I have for them. The others - date MMC was diagnosed/first sign of natural MC/end of it/day we took them to the crematorium etc etc don't feel like dates I want to associate them with longer term but I don't want to dampen DP's bday either - I empathise with you and am sending you lots of hugs. I hope you might find some comfort in knowing your LO would almost def NOT have arrived on their EDD but it's hard to let go of it as their date too. Maybe your OH would like to celebrate his 40th bday plus 40hrs or 40th bday plus 40days.... It's hard knowing what to do for the best but I hope it's something you can both do together.

Tears are totally normal and absolutely to be expected Look after yourself.

Well I got my first period (after MMC) today. Not sure how I feel about it . Good to be back to working order so to speak but odd when it's been so long. Onwards and upwards!

Big hello to everyone

Congratulations on your twin cousins, McKTastic!

That first period is a funny one isn't it? I remember feeling a lot like you do in that I was pleased to see my body was back in working order, but a period is also a big reminder that you are no longer pregnant.

Yesterday, those tears just seemed to come from nowhere. I went from feeling fine to feeling really emotional. Strange how it just hits you like that, isn't it?
I hope I won't put a dampner on DP's birthday, I really do, but I fear I may get upset at some stage. If I can get emotional just thinking about October, I dread to think what I will be like at the time!

I had my performance management at work today, and my team leader asked how I was doing, so I spent half of my PM talking about all this. Nice of her to ask how I was doing though, as lots of people just assume you are fine now.

Booked a horrible smear test for tomorrow.
After the year I have had, I am really worried about it!

Hope tomorrow goes ok PinkC. If it helps try and look upon it as a positive thing - you're looking after your own health and well being (which can't be bad!)

Who knows what October will bring but we'll be here to hold your hand. It will pass as time always does - a train of thought I often find strangely comforting so hope it helps you a little too.

Hugs to you ((((( )))))

Oh that's exciting news, Loopy! So wish I could join you, but we are not ready yet. DP has only had one viewer for his house in around 4 weeks. Very frustrating stuff!

I don't have a memorial place for my LO. The remains were tested & cremated by the hospital. I just have the memories in my head.
I had been doing so much better, was feeling far more with it again & getting on with life, so was a bit taken back by my sudden tears on Wednesday.

Smear was quite painless. I explained I had an ERPC on 1st April & nurse said it should be ok as nearly 3 months ago now, but I have noticed a small bleed when I went to the toilet today. That sometimes happens after a smear though doesn't it?

I am off to Brugge for the weekend with DP today. I feel very ready for a break!

Hope you are all ok.

I'm under a black cloud today

This thorat infection has spread to me chest but I battled into work everyday this week anyway which I'm quite proud of.

Last night we went to a wedding reception but I couldnt wear any of my nice clothes coz I'm still in big knickers for the sanitary towels. That really upset me!!

I am supposed to be at a bbq today but don't have the energy to behave like a normal person around the 5 babies and 2 bumps that will be there so I'm staying in.

Congrats McKT on the cousins - it must be a relief that they are girls.

Loopy I joined that thread too but I can't do anything about it yet until this all stops! It's so frustrating!

Pink - glad the sear went ok. I always bleed a little after them so it's nothing to worry about. Have a great weekend in Brugge, you deserve it!

Hope everyone else is well.

Hey all!

Hope you've all had the same sunshine we've had here

Spent a bit too long in it yesterday which resulted in a raging headache (prob hormonal as well!) and a few red bits!!

My sister's been at my Mum and Dad's house with the kids this week-end so spent all day yesterday with them. Went to a farm in the morning where we met lots of my sister's friends with their kids - I felt like the fat childless cow who wasn't up for making polite conversation.

Glad you've decided to go for it Loopy Fingers crossed your ttc gives you a BFP soon. Sounds like you had a good time in the pool with your girls - am sure DD2 is being spoiled rotten at Grannys

At least the smear's out of the way for you now Pink. Def a good thing to do. Hope you and your DP have had a fab week-end away. have just booked tickets to see something in August as a surprise for mine. Am def needing to focus on more quality time for just us!

Hope you're feeling bit better now Velvet Cruel that you're back to work now and feeling pants for a different reason. I can totally emphathise with your feelings re BBQ. I hope you'll feel a bit brighter and more able to face these situations soon.
Not long now till your hols so try and keep VEGAS firmly in your sights!

A bit of me thinks we'll only ever feel truly "ready" when we've our own healthy babies to take along to social events/outings/the shops etc. I met a friend of my Mum's yesterday afternoon who has a 5month old son - conceived at the age of 43 after two MCs one of them a MMC detected at 12wk scan - and she was telling me how important it is to focus on the good things in life and enjoy what DP and I have. All I could think of when she was speaking was that she could say what she liked until I was in her position with the healthy baby life wasn't going to have much (true) meaning for me. I absolutley adore my family - I just crave one of my own.

Am now on the countdown to summer - we break for hols on Wed! Nowt planned yet but ever hopeful we'll pull something out of the bag last minute!

Catch up with everyone soon.

Hello ladies.

Feels like I've been away for ages! Away from you guys i mean, I haven't been up to much. Plenty of uni work and a few parties, a friends 30th and the like. Am just packing for my holidays next week.

Think I've got my first period. It's only just started, so i don't really know
I did get a negative last week, so I suppose it must be. And it's bang on 28 days after ERCP.

I've had a wobble this weekend. A close friends exgirlfriend, a really beautiful, cheerful and kind girl died in an accident in Singapore. I have been really a bit wobbly. So sad. And of course it makes me question all our mortality.

loopy you'll have to tell me what all the wierd acronyms on the other thread are, you seem to have the hang of it. Glad you've decided to try again

Congratulations on your cousins mckt

Sorry to hear about your cold as well velvet. I'd catch everything going in a school, I think.

Hope you had a good weekend Pink

Off to enjoy some sunshine now, I'm on a mission to get rid of these milk bottle legs before we get to Greece.

Hola

Loopy Crossing everything for you and willing no5 to work out just fine. I lurk on the ttc thread and will probably be running after the April bus (am never on time!)lol

Just heard on the radio that a study done at Guy's (don't quote me but I'll be checking it out) and reported today found that overweight women increase their chances of MC by 50% - F**KING HELL!!!! My summer hols are destined to be my kick start back to health - I still haven't shifted the stone I put on when I was pregnant with the twins and was a wee bit overweight before then

Watched some spooky prog on tv last night about the psychic Sally Morgan - kept thinking there was no way she could've made it all up!! I've had reading's done before - always think people go when they're in need so a fairly easy target but I HAVE been told some pretty mind blowing things they would have had NO WAY of knowing!I find it pretty reassuring.

Welcome back YRMOTB Hope all's gone well with the studying (must've if your legs are still milk bottle white in this weather!!) Greece sounds fab - something to look forward to.

Am so sorry to hear of your friend - it's awful when someone in the midst of life goes.

Bought a HUGE bar of chocolate tonight - will be my LAST ONE!!!! after that radio bulletin. Off to google it now to see how accurate it is!

Ciao x

Sorry to hear about your friend, YRMOTB. It really does shake you when someone young dies suddenly, and make you realise just how fradile life is. I lost my just 40 year old cousin 3 weeks after my MC. She died very suddenly & a cause of death was never found. DP has just heard that his cousin (in his early 40s) has also suddenly died of a heart attack. 2010 seems a very bad year.

McKTastic - know exactly what you mean about feeling you won't be able to truly move on until you have that healthy pregnancy. I know we should try to focus on the positive, and I have been really trying to do just that, but there is a sadness & emptiness that just won't go away.

Brugge was lovely, but Saturday night I went & spoilt things a bit by having one too many of their strong bacardis & then confronting DP as to whether he was at all upset about what happened to us, as he had acted so strong & together that at times I questioned it. He told me that he did have his sad moments, but wasn't as affected as I was, as I was the one who carried the baby & experienced all the physical things.
I ended up blubbing in the middle of the street (not helped by the alcohol!) & felt it spoilt things a little. Glad I had the talk with DP though, just maybe would have been better to have raised it another time, not on our weekend break.
I also seem to have miscalculated my cycle by a good week, so wasn't mid cycle when I had the smear, and the slight bleeding turned into a full blown period! It is a little early still, but think the smear may have helped hurry things along there. Another downer, as I now fully expect to be called back for another test, due to my timings being so wrong.
I have a heavy horrible period & have just seen an internal scan on the TV, which has triggered memories, so not feeling a happy bunny tonight. I am fed up of feeling miserable!

Hope everyone else is ok.

Thats such sad news YRMOTB, and Pink I remember you saying you had lost your cousin but now for your DP to go through it to, it just doesn't seem fair does it? All this awful news at one go.

That is some stat there too McKT isn't it? Have you checked it out? IT sounds rather extreme doesn't it? I hope you enjoyed your choccy to...I am finding it hard to stay away from sugar at the mo too.

I hope you are feeling better velvet? and loopy i hope this works out for you, DP and I have discussed when to thik about TTC but It woin't be anytime soon, It came as a huge shockfor him and I think he needs some time to get his head around it all, but thats ok, i think I need some time to get over this too. I am struggling with the thought that my nan is never going to meet my baby even if this one had turned out to be fit and well,as she seems to be sleeping more and more and has less energy.

Today I went Pick your owning to and came back with a mountain of amazing looking strawbs...better to eat those than the choccy eh???

Hello all. Just a quick check in and place marker as I seem to keep losing track of this thread.

With the exception of dd2, we all spent last week ill. I had strep throat. The dss had ear infections and dd1 topped it all off with a very bad tummy bug that lasted for 4 days.

It made me wonder how I ever would have managed with a newborn... Strange how the mind works sometimes.

I must run but I will be back to read posts this evening. Best to all.

Tmrw's the start of my summer (and despite having it previously ear marked for pram shopping etc I think it's going to be a brighter time than of late! - am with you on the positive thinking Pink)

It's bloody hard though isn't it! Am sorry to hear about your DPs cousin - I lost a few family members in their forties when I was in my teens and started dreading reaching that age - it's def too young to die. Very hard to get your head round

I think it's totally natural to vent your feelings at DP (esp with the alcohol as you say) Try not to give yourself a hard time about the timing. Am sure it was good for the two of you to be away together. Feelings are always better out than in and am sure you need to say how you feel if you're to move on. Sorry - giving you total platitudes for which I apologise but I do empathise. We'll get to a better place one day

Fordy That's a really sad thought about your nan. I'd just met DP when mine was ill so she never met him but I told her all about him when she was sleeping in hospital I'm absolutley certain that any future babies of yours will have a little bit of your nan's qualities in them. Am thinking of you x

Hello Cadmum Sounds like you've had a tiring week. You would've coped - you sound like a trooper! Hope you're all feeling a bit better and DD2 hasn't come down with anything now. How are you settling in in Cambodia?

Evening all Hope you're all well. Read some of the newspaper articles about that study - am not sure how accurate they were. They talked of risk of mc being 1 in 5 but increased to 1 in 3 for overweight women. Overweight was also referred to in obese terms so not sure how overweight they're saying makes a difference. Didn't read it properly and don't intend to. Am def going to lose weight but will prob not put off ttc until I do - would def take me 6months!! Sorry if I've freaked any of you out by mentioning it - google it if you want to read for youself. Am with you on the strawberries Fordy!

Thanks Loopy.

Not rocket science in that I guess we all know being healthier makes it easier to conceive but def a bit of a big kick up the butt in black and white in terms of MAKING SURE the choccie intake gets reduced so the rate of mc we face is as good as it can be!

about your nan, Fordy. Must be hard for you to see her like that.

Cadmum - sorry to hear you have all been poorly - sounds like a tough week! Hope you're all feeling a bit better now.

I am still suffering a mammoth period. Was so heavy that I had to nip home from work to change my trousers.
Was advised by a colleague, to ring NHS direct, as period so heavy & was so soon after smear & ERPC.
Have just got off the phone to them. Hopefully it is nothing to worry about, but was advised to go to the doctor if it doesn't improve in a day or so.
They kept saying "oh you have had a tough time" etc, which made me feel very sorry for myself!

Good on you for the positive thinking, McKTastic - think I need to try some of that again!