sasha I am sorry you are feeling these waves of sadness. I totally understand this feeling and, like you, look forward to when it stops. 
So… Coventry was interesting. Will try to remember everything Prof B said. He was in a bit of a rush as there were 17 people booked in this afternoon (the lovely doctor who did the biopsy said it was because of the Bank Holiday) but he still spent plenty of time explaining things. Should we decide to try again, I’ll have to take the progesterone from day 23-ish, depending on ov date, but will need to take heparin throughout pregnancy due to Liverpool’s finding of the borderline high blood clotting issue. However, Prof B said to only take aspirin from 8 weeks as it can interfere with lining development for implantation. He thinks progesterone is better than HCG as he said HCG is just a ‘complicated’ way of doing what progesterone needs to do (ie prepare the lining). Discuss! He also said that I was of interest to their research due to the fact that each of my 4 miscarriages have been ‘missed’. If my biopsy is good enough I’ve consented for them to use it to help them try and work our why this happens to some women (yet again, I seem to fit into an ever decreasing circle of women 
) He didn’t think the adhesions would be significant and that the scratch today would help regenerate things. He explained the ‘no no no no yes’ thing that we’ve been discussing on here but that he wanted to find our why this happened to some women, compared to those that, for instance, have a ‘no yes yes…’ pattern.
march he said that the natural killer cells are always there and build up throughout the month. From what I can remember, basically, he said If the lining was properly selective, they would come into play earlier and help a non-viable egg be rejected earlier. In the instances where the lining is not selective enough, the lining will ‘age’ too quickly and then the NK cells will mount a response to this. Does this make any sense???? Please be kind on me scientists, as I’m an Arts graduate!
Regarding my late miscarriage, he was very honest and said he didn’t want to comment until I’ve had the pathologist report on the post mortem, which is fair do’s as this could provide more info. The biopsy went well. My lining was 8mm and they managed to get a good sample (I asked to see it. Is that weird???). And the gas and air was amazing again. Love, love, love it.
One final thing that I thought was very interesting is that he talked about how current conventional thinking about women who miscarry repeatedly doesn’t make sense as, for example, many women will have adhesions or a blood clotting syndromes and not have any problems whatsoever with having children. So these explanations are red herrings. And he said that something like aspirin may be pinpointed as being the thing that helped a woman carry to term on that particular occasion and that, therefore, this will work for lots of other women. But that actually, it was probably just that that month the egg and the lining were good and would have worked anyway. I liked this theory as, thinking about it, explains why I managed to have my ds. It also gave me an insight into how scientists think in an uber logical way!
Am knackered as the drive back was bloody awful. I am done with crappy delays on motorways for a while and am done with travelling halfway up/down/across the country to find out what the fuck is wrong with my body. And am totally done with both things being combined.
Love to you all and sorry for not name-checking more. Am reading and thinking of you all, wherever you’re up to in this horrible journey. And sorry for yet another fucking huge post, but writing it all down really, really helps me make sense of all this. Happy Bank Holiday. x