Am I going to have another miscarriage?

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Had a positive pg test - faintish line but clear enough and not really faint - last Friday when I was about 3 days late. By my reckoning I must be about 5 + 3 now. Went to the gyn today to have the pg confirmed. They did a test which I didn't see, then a transvaginal scan (usual over here). The gyn said he could see a sac but not that he could see anything in it (it wasn't the best quality image but I could see the sac couldn't see anything in it either) and took blood to check the hCG levels - the results of that should be back on Monday afternoon. He said things to the effect that we need to keep cool and see what happens - not that he thought I might miscarry - but when I asked him directly he did indicate that things were behind what he might expect at this stage. As I was going out I asked the assistant who'd done the pg test what the result was and she said it was a 'really faint' positive. When I got home I did the other test in the pack and the line was exactly the same strength as a week ago - not really faint but not strong either. I have to admit I have a not very positive feeling . I don't have pg 'symptoms', apart from an increased need to go to the loo since yesterday, but I didn't in my last, successful pg either. Am I going to have another mc (I had one, also at about 5/6 weeks, before ds)? After my last pg was successful I really wasn't expecting this to repeat itself and am having a really hard time right now. Has anyone got any stories of similar things happening and everything being OK? I'm feeling guilty too - when I did the test last week it was a bit of a shock and at first I did wish I wasn't pg - but that all changed over the weekend and I realised I was really, really looking forward to this baby. Can't help thinking it was something I did
Would appreciate any advice or just a listening ear!

FiT. you sound so sad. i hope you feel better soon. xxxx

It comes over you in waves IME. One minute you are marking, the next minute you just cannot cope with the simplest task
Knowing it is "normal" doesn't make it any easier to live through FIT, of course.
The cyclical nature of the academic year provides you with unavoidable reminders of what should have been doing instead, unfortunately. Coming back after losing Tom the first thing I had to do was de-organise my maternity leave cover and start opting back in to effing working groups and committees etc. You have my total and heartfelt sympathy.
I did feel able to cry at work but that's maybe because it's a performing arts college and people emoting are an everyday sight. Would it really be so terrible if anyone saw you weeping?
No-one can be philosophical all the time after a m/c just as no-one can be wall-to-wall glad 24/7 about an unexpectedly swift conception. I was consumed with guilt about not having wanted Tom enough and you just have to work through those feelings and then remind yourself gently that being ambivalent about having a second child did not harm your baby.
Sending you lots of supportive vibes and love. It does sound as though you are getting good, thorough after-care and lots of cherishing at home. And all your Mn pals looking out for you of course. XXX

Thankyou hoxtonchick and Marina. Marina, what a lovely post, thank you - and I'm so sorry you've had to go through a loss so much worse than mine. How right you are - it does come in waves.
I actually decided to pack up and come home as I didn't have any more classes or students, and wanted to be in my own home. I just rang the doctor who confirmed that all the pg hormone is now out of my system, so I suppose that's closure, in a way.

Sending you hugs and thinking of you, FIT. Hope your ds is singing to you and making you smile!