Recurrent miscarriage testing and beyond.. Part 6.. Over here!

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We have filled up the last thread so here is the next.. Deep breath and grit your teeth for the roller coaster of emotions that continues... Hope tea and butterfly and all find it!

It was just routing booking bloods but she took 3 bottles full and every time she changed the bottle it hurt and after bled like mad but not sure if that could b to do with the asprin? But my arm hurts all over the inside of my elbow!! ;( I am a whimp anyway lol hope everyone else is ok today xx

Suspect the aspirin is not helping - it inhibits platelets which are your first line of defence for blood clotting so will make you bruise more.
Mind you I had an armful taken today with no aspirin on board and it is pretty sore. First of many (hopefully only 3 sessions - now, day 2-3, and 6 weeks post MC)

It's amazing how much like a pin cushion u begin to feel I know since my mc in dec and now more bloods for this pg it seems never ending I hate needles too which doesn't help I just have to think its better than being at the dentist lol hope your bloods bring the answers u want bakin xx

I don't know if you have any arnica cream to hand - it's very good for bruising even though I'm usually anti any woo herbal medicine

Can't write too much as in rush to get to work Despite pin cushioness I'm pleased everyone is getting their blood tests.

Guppie and tea too. Sorry you are feeling rubbish :( it's so hard with other people having babies. I think I used to just try an detach myself as much as possible (not easy). It still got to me but I didn't want to let friends know so put on a bit I a front.

Baking I'm so pleased about your sympathetic and pro active GP. It makes such a difference.

No news from me. I'm 18 weeks now. Just waiting to feel regular movement- hopefully won't be too long.

Xxx

Hi, sorry I'm not keeping up as regularlt as I do normally I just haven't had a minute this week with wedding plans.

Just wanted to check in really and see if you are all ok, hope all of you that have been having bad days (sorry can't go back on phone to name everyone) are feeling a little better. It's awful when you get them days I'm not too bad because I've got a distraction for the minute but normally I feel like that a lot I'm probably going to come crashing down after the wedding when there's nothing. else to focus on and we ate ttc again. I had my first accupuncure on tuesday I felt really positive afterwards at least I'm doing something that might help. Getting a lot of cm lately though (sorry tmi) I keep having a panic that I've fallen pregnant again it would be typical when I need to fit in to a wedding dress but what will be will. be! Must start using a reliable form of contraception though!

Hi everyone.
Just a quickie to say hello and sorry for not posting much. Have been having really had headaches. Think they're tension headaches from stress which doesn't bode well. Although I've actually had a reflexology session but still got a bad headache the next day. Has anyone else had it and found it helped? Also bought grapefruit juice as I read it helped with cm!!!
School 18 weeks is just so good!!!

Butterfly do you think you could be pregnant?!
Lands I second arnica as think it definitely works (although I'm probably a bit late now!)
Guppie hope today was better at work and at least its the weekend soon.
Hope everyone's not too snowed in and freezing today!

Thanks for the advice ladies was not as bad the next day as I thought it would be feeling a bit up and down ATM had quite a few pains not cramps just constant dull ish but it is just above pubic area in the middle think I might get check up scan next week to make sure everything ok 9 weeks is a hard time for me!! Hope u are all well today also myopia been very up and down crying at the slightest thing it's driving me nuts xx

Oops that's supposed to say my moods lol x

Hello, Just checking in. No news here, very straight forward af but super exhausted from both it and being social early in the week. Have been laying low all weekend. CD7 here, the time is flying past. Starting the usual ovary cramping so will start poas'ing soon. Been looking to find ways to re-focus my life a bit as focussing on all of this has been detrimental to say the least. I've signed up for race for life (to walk it!) and am making plans to walk up snowdon. Looking for things that I can feel proud of, tat inspire or motivate me in some way and that are partly to do with my body but that don't require me to be fitter than I am!

LandsN, when's your scan? How are you feeling? I've realised I cry most days.

My 12 week scan is 18 April but I am going to call epau tomorrow and see if I can blag another one as I have been feeling so ill just for piece of mind as its now it always goes wrong and I am so convinced it is going to say I had a mmc like before and I am driving myself crazy!! I also have a appointment that day to c the consultant which is a bit later than I had hoped for but better than nothing!!
I don't know if I was just imagining it but I thought I felt a little flutter earlier but I am sure 9+2 is far to early prob just wishful thinking!!
Hope everyone else is ok and twenty that is a amazing thing to do I did debate doing race for life at a walk but was just a bit worried that the low blood pressure might not b a good idea as I get very light headed very quickly xx

Any news from the epu LandsN?

How's everyone today?

No have not been in touch today my fil was taken into hospital last night so been a bit busy today but am going to give them a call in the morning!! Hope everyone else is ok today x

Been and had scan this morning and all is good baby has grown rapidly to 22 mm bleed is still there and still the same size got to go back in 10 days for another scan but fingers crossed its looking good this time round xx

That's great news Lands! So how many weeks did baby measure? X

Thank you exactly 9 weeks! Only 3 days out from my dates!! Have started bleeding again this afternoon but its brown this time spoke to epau and they said it is probably just the bleed from outside as everything on scan this morning was attached and looking good just can't help but worry x

Fx LandsN, I know you still worry, I would, but that's a good scan!

Hi everyone!!

Lands that's fab news about the scan. Well done you are getting there! I know you will still stress especially with the bleeding but I'm crossing everything for you.

Twenty I'm very impressed with the exercising. I've been so rubbish lately and feel quite fat - also going on holiday soon so should probably do something about it!! Hoping if the weather ever improves I'll start going for walks again. Have you started poasing? I did yesterday as am CD13 today although dont expect to ovulate until next week (if at all!).

I am trying to stay calm but have had a rubbish few weeks really - the week of AF I was just really sad and then have had headaches nearly every day since. Have had a massage & acupuncture and having reflexology too now so can't really do anymore but find it hard to relax when I feel under such a time pressure to have a baby! Totally my own fault and completely messes up my hormones but seems to be a vicious cycle.

Is anyone on any of the conception boards? Can't decide whether to join one to obsess over my cycle and cm/ovulation or lack of... Although I'm sure I don't get excited like 'normal' people when I get pregnant!

Haha tea don't think any of us will ever be normal pregnant people we all been through far too much I said to midwife at epau today I feel like a lunatic and she laughed and said its normal in my situation! Made me feel better!! Thanks for fx everyone I am trying to keep positive and just rest as much as I can I find it hard to see past the next few weeks but I suppose I will when I get there I got this far x

Argh, I started to write earlier but was talking to OH at the same time and I closed the computer, I can be so dim sometimes!

Tea, I'm sorry you're having a hard time. How long has it been now since your last mc? I mark mine by af's and 4 have passed. I can't believe it's 2013, nearly april, the year is rushing past again. I hate that. It sounds like you're doing some really good things. As for my ideas, I will be walking, that's all, no running, probably won't even get much of a heart beat going - well perhaps a little breathless on snowdon but I can go as slow as I need to. I just need to have done something other than try to get pregnant and wait to mc this year. I need to be able to look back and say I did some other things. Crying every day needs to be balanced out with some achievement somewhere. We've also just booked a lovely cottage for a June holiday.

I have started poas'ing, just today! Cd 9. The earliest I've had a pos opk was cd 10 and that was a cycle we got pg on. It caught me off guard, I'd literally got up that morning and said to oh that he could rest up that day re ttc as he'd been ill, I then went to the loo and came back saying "nope, sorry, back to bed!" so I keep an eye on this earlier now!

Sounds like you had a very understanding mw LandsN, here .

I'm not on any other conception threads Tea, I prefer not to watch first timers have a problem free breezy time of it while the ones who've mc'd explain their situations, too complex. Maybe once I'm 4 months pg with some super child able to go the distance! What about you?

Sorry, for more me me me but ALSO I've been having odd ovary twinges this month. Normally it's like a dull cramping that eases up and then down over a couple of weeks. This feels more like occassional pinpricks either side. I don't know whether to feel hopeful that maybe it's a healthier cycle or worried that it's the start of menopause!

Hi everyone. Lands that's great great news! 9 weeks- Yey!

Sorry everyone else not having a great time of it :(

Just popping in to say I have my 20 week scan (bit at 19 weeks) tomorrow. So hoping everything ok. Will let you know tomorrow. Xx

Hi everyone! Lands that is fab news so pleased for you :)

Tea and twenty sorry you are both having a rubbish time :( Hope you both ov soon! It feels weird to not be joining in I feel a bit out of it all on here at the min with not ttc but I want to hang around if that's ok, I'm feeling better with having another focus but still have bad days and sil's baby is due in about 6 weeks and that's bound to stir things up and I need you lot!

School enjoy your scan tomorrow :) you are almost half way that is fantastic! Update us tomorrow x

Thanks everyone. I'm doing much better now than just before AF but I do feel sad most days and having (or not having) a baby seems to be the last thing I think about at night & the first thing I think about in the morning. I even dreamt about ewcm last night!! I mean that cannot be normal!!!

Twenty my last mc was last July so aaaages ago. We stopped ttc after that due to waiting to have tests and then waiting for results but I kind of regret that now as I just assumed I'd get pregnant first cycle as I always have before but now don't seem to be having normal cycles. I also can't believe its nearly April and keep getting totally panicked about the fact that its nearly a year since the last mc and therefore also nearly DDs birthday. It's the time frame issues that's stressing me the most!! I still cannot accept that things have not worked out for me and I think until I do I'm just going to be in a constant state of anxiety.

I'm not sure I can face the normal conception boards either but wondered about the ones for long term ttc-ers as I'm also having issues with my pcos and hormone levels - as cycles are super long and I'm not sure I'm ovulating. I know that rmc is a bit shocking and upsetting for people though.

School lots of luck for tomorrow. Definitely let us know how you get on. You should be able to relax and enjoy your pregnancy if its all ok.

Butterfly you must hang around!! I stayed here for the whole 6 month period when I wasn't actively ttc as I was still obsessing about mc!!

Lands I'm glad the epu are supporting and reassuring you now. It's good to be in the system and have hcp that you can pester refer to

Hi everyone,
just got back from scan and all looked ok (heart/ brain etc) - only thing was that the lazy baby was lying on his back and wouldn't turn over so the sonographer could get a good look at his spine. I went for a walk (and a chocolate bar!) and came back but still no joy so got to go back in about 10 days time so they can tick that off.

i feel ok about it- she didn't seem concerned and know a friend who had the same thing happen.

cant beleive its actually feeling real now- after 2 years and 4 miscarriages... my gorgeous DS may actually be getting a baby brother!