Oh Lyra! A big, big hug. I do know how you're feeling.
I've been on AD's since Sep, as you all know, and they've done me the world of good. I'd probably been depressed for around 5 years (according to DH who effectively sent me to the docs) and I am now so much happier, not to mention saner. And more importantly, my marriage is still intact. It would be fair to say I would probably have walked out by now if I weren't on them. Citalopram, if that helps any.
And to cheer you all up, I've just told the office I'm seeing Joseph and they are all sooooooo jealous. My boss wants to forbid my leave and pinch my ticket as she wants to see Lee too.