I’m so sorry for everyone struggling with the lockdown news. It’s so depressing. @Takingontheflab, you poor thing! I’m so sorry that you feel weak and lost - because from everything you handle it sounds as if you are actually very strong and capable. I hope that soon you feel that way.
I read somewhere that it’s not about having a lot of strength all the time anyway: it's about organizing your life so you don't have to use strength/willpower all the time.
I don’t know quite how that would look for you, but is there any way you could give yourself a day to meal prep and get some great freezer options ready to go? Or stock up on low carb snacks you like? I bet that if you did give up, when you looked back on all this (which will eventually come even if it feels distant right now) you wouldn’t be saying ‘oh, chocolate really got me through that’ - you’d probably just feel grumpy with yourself! YOU are the thing that’s going to get you through this, and so you should give your body what it needs to be at it’s best. I’m sure there will be cheat days but I think one thing that we all have in common here is that when a cheat day becomes a cheat week, we all feel pretty horrible.
You’ve already done so well. When spring comes and the weather is nice again, things will be a lot more positive and we will all be ready to reenter the world looking fantastic if we put the work in now.
Sorry for the long ramble - I hope that doesn’t come off as preachy and that perhaps some of it helps.
I’m feeling back on track with this WOE again today. It has been a really bumpy ride since Christmas with days when I feel strong followed by days when I feel a lot of emotional hunger, restlessness and cravings.
I chose to take two days off for Christmas and broadly stuck to it but I did really go mad on those two days and having gone through this, I’m not sure I’ll do the same next year. I’ve talked before about having infrequent cheat days over my 4 months of low carbing but they were actually cheat meals. I’ve realised now that there is a very big difference in one higher carb meal vs. two solid days of eating carbs constantly. The (infrequent) cheat meals didn’t seem to derail me in the same way the Christmas cheat did (not that I am recommending anyone cheats!).
Anyway, god this is a long message, but I am basically very hopeful that I have turned a corner because I really valued the sense of peace and satiation I had with this last year.
Breakfast was some leftover smoked mackerel plus a coffee with cream
Lunch will be my slow cooked sausage soup
Dinner will be lamb, olive and courgette ragu with roasted courgette, tomatoes, aubergine and pepper.