Week 7 - Summer Low Carb Bootcamp - are you still with us?!

[BIWI]

Morning all

Here's the spreadsheet - sorry to keep you all waiting!

So we have four full weeks before our final weigh-in - still time to lose half a stone if you stick at it.

Here's to a good week ahead

Ha! Cross post there Natsch! What are your toppings? Mine were pepperoni, goats cheese and a little sun-dried tomatoe

Goats cheese is a good call! We've got some courgette, parma ham, olives and (more) mozzarella. It smells good...

Ugh. I've just noticed the stray apostrophe in my post. Huge apologies to any pedants.

Back from holiday :(.

Had a great time though and I'm now a committed bikini wearer at any size. Trying not to be over invested in tomorrow's weigh in, but do feel a little anxious given its over two weeks.

On the plus side, didn't stray once. No alcohol, sugar, bread, pasta, chips, ice cream, paella etc etc. Stuck to it rigidly, with the exception of a tomato a couple of times and some raw onion, though did do most of our meals myself. The supermarket was a bit of a glorified Spar but used the market for veg and meat or fish most days and my daughter said she had loved the food. May have been related to not having to plan, shop or cook it herself though.

So we'll see. My travel trousers and top certainly seemed to be looser than on the way out - just noticed hem is filthy so I guess they've been trailing on the floor which they didn't before.

Knackered atm, and missing the fact I'm going to have to send DH to the shop and then actually cook something whereas before it would certainly have been a chippie night.

C4 I really don't know what to say but I can't leave your post unanswered. Is someone there looking after you at the moment? Please try to eat something, anything! Your body needs fuel to recover.

I'm sorry to rain on everyone else's parade, but we didn't like the fathead pizza... it was weird and I now feel sick. I ate one slice and then scraped the topping off the second and had it with salad.

Nazchekatze. DH is here looking after me, I've spent the day on the ventilator. He's sad, broken by the situation but is head down powering on with garden, cleaning rabbits out, cooking a big meal etc. His default position is - ignore it because it's too difficult to deal with and might hurt his DC. He keeps coming into bedroom to see me, cuddle me, bring me food but all I do is cry because I feel so hurt by DSS behaviour over the last week and can't cope with what DH is going through, it must be awful for him being torn apart.
I think the kindest thing to do is for mr to suck it up and pretend it doesn't hurt me if we divorce DH won't have a relationship with my DC or the 8 DGC who all adore him because his DC won't back down until they get their own way and he cuts all ties to my family. Skids have had a master teacher in manipulation from their BM, they have been taught to never back down and do anything to get what they want. She threatens to go to dignitas if they don't look after her. She has no consultant, no diagnosis and I feel like I have a creepy disability stalker.

All this will have outed me but I don't care.

It might be inevitable C4 - sometimes things will never change. Do you want to be miserable or free?

I came on to post an NSV - I have just made 3 tiffins for work. Not licked the spoon, sampled the melted chocolate AND.... I got some golden syrup on my finger & licked it off without thinking. My first thought "OMG this is disgusting!!"

C4, all I can say is I wonder how long you've been needing to get that all out.

Your approach is very noble, but why the feck should it be? You deserve as much as the next gal.

Life is difficult.

C4 that is truly shit. Very sorry to hear what you are going through.

Nasch I wasn't mad on the fathead pizza either. I was going to post and ask what recipe people used in case I got it wrong. It was ok but not orgasm-in-the-mouth

Saw this and thought of us: www.buzzfeed.com/shannonrosenberg/is-there-anything-better-than-red-lobster-cheddar-biscuits?utm_term=.nhY66edx#.qmm55RJX

C4 I can see that might be kindest for everyone else but it's not kindest for you. It will surely end up eating away at you. Your feelings are just as valid and you matter just as much. I'm glad your DH is looking after you. I think he is the one that needs to speak to his DC though.
I hope you've found something you feel like eating this evening? I've got some fathead pizza I'll happily send your way.

I'm sorry to rain on everyone else's parade, but we didn't like the fathead pizza... it was weird and I now feel sick. I ate one slice and then scraped the topping off the second and had it with salad.

Nasche I've yet to try making the fathead pizza.
I don't like the bullet proof coffee everybody raves about
or those egg muffins made with coconut. They just taste of coconut flavoured omelette in a cup!

Evening folks. C4 - we just wanted to let you know we're afraid we have had to delete your post. It's our policy to delete posts that mention methods of suicide. We do hope you understand. It might be worth starting a new thread about all this actually. If you'd like to do that just drop us a line and we can send you your original post so you can cut and paste it into a new thread. Totally up to you though. Just let us know if you'd like us to do that. Good luck with your situation - and good luck to everyone in week 7 of bootcamp.

C4
It sounds as if you've been living in intolerable circumstances (and under extreme pressure) for a very long time.
Here's hoping you can finally start finding some peace in your life.
You deserve it!

C4 What are you going to have to eat?
Have you decided yet?

C4, you've had so much to deal with . Remember DH chose you, and that speaks volumes. Pour your love into that relationship, one day SDCs will leave and have their own lives to get on with. Your body's been through a lot this week and that's bound to affect your emotions. Maybe a favourite book or film would help ground you, I can't get through a day without listening to my favourite band! Try to eat something LC, focus on the good and shut out the poison. I know this is easier said than done. I'm sorry if this sounds trite, just didn't want to say nothing. Hope you have a restful night x

Oh C4 I have no words. Try and think positively. You have your DH, your DC and DGC. Sod the Step Gits. They sound like ungrateful and spiteful people. Take each day at a time and concentrate on recovering from this health setback. Park the emotional stuff for another time when you are strong enough to deal with It, with help from a counsellor if you need. Just look after yourself for now.

I'm a teeny bit worried that eating 18 eggs in 3 days will raise my cholesterol.
Can someone explain the sciency bit again? (To reassure me)

I'm sorry I've broken the rules, right now it feels as if I've been fucked over by MN as well. I won't start my own thread because I found people here I could open up to and trust.

MN just remove the bits that break the rules, that post took me hours to write and the sort of courage you clearly don't understand. Your actions and suggesting I leave a place that I found safe has done damage, lots of fucking damage. It's not helpful, it's not kind, it's given me a final kick in the teeth at my lowest point for two years. Cheers for that.

I've been unfair on all of you by burdening you with my crappy home life, I'm sorry..

I'm really grateful to everyone on this thread for seven weeks you made my life so much better.

I'm going to crawl back under my rock and I don't think I should post again.

Good luck everyone and thank you BIWI for everything you and the others do to help people discover a way of earring good food and losing weight I think you're wonderful.

Over and out

C4 I am given to understand from your posts that you almost died last week. Now I also understand that with your medical history, this is not a new experience for you. Nevertheless, I want to say that almost dying, no matter how many times it has happened before, is a psychological trauma which should not be underestimated.

I don't know what was in your post which was deleted. I'm very sure I don't understand what you are going through right now. All I can say is, feelings aren't facts. Eat something. Sleep if you can. Keep talking, we are here. Things can change. There is always the potential for change. Really there is! Namaste

C4 I read your post before it went. I can see how it took you hours and how it was opening up your heart in a very raw way. MNHQ have offered to email you your deleted post. Take them up on this. You can repost it on this thread after having taken out the bits they objected to. I think it is just one line where you gave specific details of the drugs you overdosed on. I can understand how they don't want anyone learning how to do it from this.

You are amongst friends here. We are all here for you as far as online friends can be. I think it was Oldbooks who has offered a number of times to come and visit you in person, to bring you snacks and keep you company. Take her up on it!

Keep posting here, we need your positivity back! You have been an amazing support and inspiration to others, all the more remarkable given what you are going thru. Whether or not you repost the amended deleted post, it doesn't matter. Please remeber that you aren't alone.

C4 The bitches will be here waiting for you as soon as you feel ready. Please keep posting if it helps. Sending you strength

We are all here for you @C4pinkwheels. Please don't stop posting here. We all understand how hard it must have been for you to open up and we respect that courage tremendously. As YoLo suggests why not repost without those particular words?

Good luck with weigh in those of you weighing today

C4. Please keep writing and talking here. My heart hurts for you.

Namaste Bitches