My step mum dieted my whole childhood and had lots of special diet food - whilst forcing me to eat massive portions and by 15 i was a size 16. We had lots of low fat low cal food. I developed an eating disorder that no one knew about (bullimia). I had a bit of a difficult childhood.
I left home at 16 and met my best friend who ate nothing, ever. I lost loads of weight whilst friends with her!
We used to eat one bag of crisps a day and a contraceptive pill! and drink all of our cals when out.
I kept my weight fairly constant until i had the contraceptive implant at uni (went when i was older) and put on 2 stone in a yr. My weight stabilised at 11.7 stone ish.
I gave up the fags and shot up to 15st that was when i was 30 and over the last 5 yrs i just cant shift it. When i gave up smoking i started sw - put on 3 st whilst there!
I did cambridge for my wedding and got down to 12.7st - i was miserable! I even started smoking again (between pregnancies) to reduce my appetite and starved myself which led to bingeing and my bullima creeping back (i am fine it doesnt affect me usually).
Fell pregnant on honeymoon and put all the weight back on! Didnt loose a pound and got pregnant again and had GD. This is the only thing that works for me, i wish i had found it years ago it would have saved me so much heartache.
Even when i had GD i was advised by the dietician to eat more carbs even though i had to have ever increasing doses of insulin to keep my blood sugars under control.
I am so so so grateful to BIWI and EVERYONE on here. I lost 1st 7lbs last bootcamp and i know that whilst i will prob never be a size 10 i can get somewhere close to a healthy weight. I am fed up of being the biggest person in the room and hating clothes shopping. If i never get to eat another carb again then so be it - its worth it.
My main motivation now is that i really dont want to pass my issues on to my daughter, it so often follows and i dont want her to have the misery i have had. Being fat is hard and unhealthy and i dont want that for her or for her to have to deal with the consequences of my poor choices later in life. ( my inlaws are suffering from obesity and related health probs and they are still relatively young)
My family are really judgemental and keep asking me when i am going to loose my baby weight, i was teased for being fat. I want to get this done and just focus on being healthy. My DD is 3 and now is the time.
I am finding it hard not to have food to comfort me ( i really have a great life so not sure what i need comfort from?). My gran even suggested i put my DD 3 ! on a diet as she is a bit chubby (she isnt just top of range) FFS, so i need to dilute this unhealthy-ness with a positive role model!!!!
Sorry total for the over share but that feels better - i am trying to identify patterns and learn from the past.
Would love to hear everyone elses stories.
Oh and uber bootcamp sucks! It had better work lol x