Evening all. trashcan - that whole family situation sounds unbelievably stressful. You are a legend for keeping on track. What to do about the bloody stagnant weight loss i don't know. I've just had a pile of cauliflower cheese for dinner, having actually not been great today (glass of wine at lunch, went for indian and asked for a 'thoran' dish they offer instead of wine. When it came out the thoran was a mixture of lentils, fresh coconut, and beetroot, so probably barely better than having rice. Was delicious though.
I've had a shit day here, this time all to do with some work I have been doing for a friend. I had to urgently try to get some work in once H and I separated, since he literally gave us nothing for months and getting regular money out of him has been a nightmare. Prior to that I was a SAHM, it's been good for me in the long run to start getting 'back out there' and it had to happen at some point, but to start with I have been doing some work for an old friend.
This old friend is a recovering alcoholic and has a small retail business, mainly retailing online but also to national stores. She is a very fragile person and VERY difficult to work with, but we have been friends for 20 years and actually up until now it has been okay. She's very loyal and a good person in lots of ways, but utterly exhausting to be around. She falls out with people all the time, can't take any criticism, and often misreads things or situations and launches extremely aggressive attacks on that person which she shortly then apologises profusely for. I have largely been 'in favour' but recently have had two or three incidents which - until today - I have brushed off.
However I'm starting to feel as though this is a different sort of abusive relationship to the one I'm just coming out of. I really cannot believe the message she sent me today because I tried to gently tell her that her behaviour during a meeting I'd set up was inappropriate. She showers me with "oh you're so amazing, don't ever leave me" compliments, whilst being unable to offer me any sort of reliable income, and then occasionally treating me like utter shit. I think I need to basically start putting massive feelers out for other work - I need regular income and this isn't it at the moment, and I'm not being paid enough to have to put up with the abusive messages I received today. I used to work in tv production and often had to deal with people like this but was getting paid a damn sight more!!!