where have all the fit,interesting and available men gone (part 7)

[aseriouslyblondemoment]

blimey onto pt. 7 here!
and im on msn to my latest cyberman
still thinking up a nickname

i dont feel down though, it's a good thing i know all this

i know i didnt over exaggerate our feelings now

and we can just enjoy what we have for however long we can

ASBM sorry your date was a damp squid.

Lou reading that makes me realise that everything isn't as black and white as I think things are.

It's hard being with someone who you know wants children and you cannot/don't want anymore. Just hope you can bear it if it does come to parting over this issue.

I'm typing this on DD's new laptop in front of the tv. I gave in and we bought it today. It is an early birthday present. I'm loving it but it's hers. Don't want to go to the other end of the room to my PC. Still no more kicking me off it.

he took me out on his bike this afternoon as well which was great fun

even if i could have a baby with him, i dont think it would be fair of me to say yes, and have him take on 4 other children to have one on his own

it's a lot to ask from someone

of his own i mean

no things are def not black and white!! Ever

Maybe he would be prepared to take on 4 children?

Reminds me a bit of my exbf who said he couldn't do step children - tbh that hurts me all the more because it meant he had actually thought about it IYKWIM. I suppose if he loved me enough he would but maybe I am wrong!!

And things aren't that straightforward. Behind my cynical and weary exterior lurks a soft romantic who just wants love to win out over everything!!!

hes only 31, it's not fair on him to be doing that

i'm just going to enjoy the time we have

i didnt thinki would ever see him again a month ago, so anything i get is a bonus

i was just talking to the friend we saw last night, and she said i need to find a way of getting him to stay as she thinks we were meant to be

He might be prepared to take on the children. An ex of mine didn't have his own and asked me if I would consider having one more with him. It was a couple of years ago so I was 45 but he was 10 years younger.

He thought it would be a wonderful thing for DD too. I must admit I got a nice warm feeling from the thought of it. He turned out to be the prat that still owes me money and whom I couldn't stand in the end. Still I was a little in love when he asked me.

Must admit to the relief when I could see it was only a pipe dream. I would have had another up to age 43 if I had met the right one.

i cant give him a baby even if i wanted to though

I didn't know that. We can never know what will happen with any relationship so you are doing the right thing by just going with the flow atm.

yes i was sterilised 7 yrs ago

oh lou i really feel for you, hopefully whatever you have now both of you enjoy, live for the moment. x

well guys, I had a lovely evening, I think marathon man has lot going for him. I wonder what will happen next?

I am so not making any moves, just for the fun of it, he he, even tho I think he is fairly gorgeous!

night all

oh you cant leave it like that!

itm - come on. spill. where did you go? does he look like his photo. did you even kiss?

hi guys, yes he does look like his photo, and yes we did kiss (very good kisser) :-

we ended up in covent garden, we did have a few glasses of wine, and considering he doesn't drink he managed to keep up with me!

Managed to get the last train home by MYSELF, yeah, I was tempted tho.

My only reservation is that he is way to sporty, I could never keep up with him, and have a life myself, so we will wait and see.

when you say too sporty? do you mean he's too busy with sports or after someone who can travel about easily doing sports

he big into mountain biking, running etc he more or less said that I would probably have to start mountain biking to be able to see him at weekends!

but that is something that can be worked around if you both have the right vibes

exex was into all that too but we managed to make it work

exex just sent me a text to say his head is all over the place after our conversation on saturday night

i said me too

plus my best male friend was in need of me last night too so both him and exex have been going over my mind all night, so again not much sleep

ooh itm
sounding pos there
fingers crossed lol
lou i found what you've posted v moving and it made alot of sense to me
dont know what else i can add to that really
well phileas sent me two boring,dull,fucking irritating texts yesterday
havent replied
and he still said speak soon ffs
have blocked him on email,msn and now on frd
if he persists with the texting will def.tell him where to go

i think its always best to let htem down rather than just ignoring, we wouldnt like it

yeh its a bit odd wrt exex atm, given as our discussion is based via text atm, it isnt easy to explain

i have already misunderstood him once this morning lol

i dont know what we are doing!

texting is tricky isnt it?
esp.of the marathon text-a-thon sess's and with an ex as well
there's alot that you want to say but kind of have to hold back on

oh lou you have been on an emotional roller coaster recently, but at least at the moment you are together again.