where have all the fit,interesting and available men gone (part 7)

[aseriouslyblondemoment]

blimey onto pt. 7 here!
and im on msn to my latest cyberman
still thinking up a nickname

Well, no go with making a go of it where exbf is concerned.

He kicked off last night with the weird, scary, ranty text messages that sound like they come from a paranoid lunatic (nothing that I would dare to put on here).

I read some to my mother who was up staying annd she was quite shocked.

Anyway, I told him not to contact me again and he texted me back saying 'See ya'.

I really think he has some sort of mental illness

Sorry for essay, bit freaked out.

lou that bloke not turning up is so bloody rude. Glad you didn't mince your words! Tosser.

Good luck to all who have dates tonight !

Yes, good luck everyone.

I've replied to a message off POF .

eve - got it and replied

wonder how dates are going?

RJ, Checked him out and replied to you.

I think it's going to be quiet on here tonight. That's the way it sould be. Also give me a chance to catch up with DD. lol

i'm trying to study. but hangover isn't helping

evening all!
just back home thank goodness!
yes it was awful,i was thoroughly bored and kept switching off
i can't believe he's only a few years older than me more like 20 odd yrs
at least there were some rather fit waiters to look at.
he's just text me to thank me for the evening and to see if id like to go out again soon
god am cringing here with the embarrassment so have text back a polite 'thanks for tonite 'and that hopefully will be the last that i hear from him unless he's very thick skinned
i have also blocked him on msn
god i do feel mean

itm
good luck for tomorrow
am rooting for you

your not mean. just not for you. at least thats one knocked off your selection

hmm i guess so!
do hope he doesn't get in touch again and has got the message!
think from now on i should trust my lack of excitement about meeting men
it's obv.there for a reason!

blonde - sorry it didn't go too well but at least you know the score now. am sure there will be someone eventually who'll will bring that excitement back - obv this one just wasn't meant to be.

lol
and he's text me again
have not replied
feel v rude and mean
but i think it's the best way

sorry to hear it didn't go well ASBM. Some people can seem very old even when they're quite young IYKWIM.

Have you got a date tonihgt ITM?

Anyone else?

Have arranged to meet samename2 again this week. Tho he is ill with the same thing I had I think.

wonder how he got that?

lol @ blonde - am sure he'll get the message eventually. my xh is/was very old for his age due to how and where he was brought up. good in some ways (ie family values), bad in others (of which I have a large list - see my divoroce petition!)

if he really isn't getting the message, maybe you could text him to say 'thanks for the date, but don't think we clicked, all the best for the future' type of things?

can i just say my head is all over the place after yesterday

we didnt finish talking fully because we got interrupted and this morning he was more than a bit delicate, but he told me some stuff i didnt know about before, regarding how he felt about me

we are going to see each other again though

more details lou. email if you want

no its ok i will post it on here but it might not be in the right order, it's all just being put down as i think about it

we never got to fully finish talking because we got interrupted, as i said

but he told me that the day he said goodbye to me in the uk (he left my house and went to thailand the next day), he drove off in floods of tears , he found it one of the hardest things he had done to leave me behind

when i said goodbye to him in thailand he said he didnt want to let me go, the pain was awful, plus his friends there all said he was a c*nt for leaving me and hurting me so badly, he felt so full of guilt for doing it to me he found it easier to believe i wouldnt want to know him anymore.

i said we only split because of circumstances and we both knew it was going to happen, he never treated me badly and i never thought he had, but his aloofness in the intervening years had made me question the whole basis of our relationship, and that was the thing that hurt me.

i told him i had refused to believe he never cared and that i had decided in my own mind that he had kept away for exactly those reasons

he apologised and told me he was an idiot and in hindsight he should have come straight back to me when he got back

we also agreed that whilst we have an undeniable chemistry between us still, we both know we wont be together forever, as he will want children of his won at some point

i reminded him that this was not something new to me, and i have known this from the off, but he wasnt looking to have them yet, so we may as well just enjoy what we have for now and see what happens

then we had to cut short our conversation

but basically he really did love me, there are still feelings there but we know we wont end up growing old together, though we will always keep a friendship somehow when the time comes to go different ways

i have found all this confirmation of our past really quite intensely emotional

i didnt feel like i was ready to try and continue the discussion today, and he was definitely hungover, plus kids were about etc

just have to enjoy the moment i suppose.

i guess

it makes me feel emotional just reading it lou.

But I suppose it does confirm that what you thought about your feelings for each other was right.

It does amaze me though how people stay away even if they are burning up with love!!

i feel drained by it, but in a good way

btw it was him who instigated the conversation, not me

should have said what you knew about your feelings for each other!!

I hope he never wants to leave you!!

we will leave each other behind at some point , because he will want kids of his own

oh lou ...