bit of a rant really e xp walked out on me and dd 3 weeks ago now totally unexpected and have been switching from moods of utter devastation and total anger/bitterness neither of which are nice for my dd and I have to hide them and bite my tongue in front of her. Was just wondering how long is it before these feelings subside into a more constant theme ? Im pretty sure Exp has someone else but denies this and also just found out that the mortgage deal is up in 3 months and he wont want to redo another deal so will have to sell house thing is equity is about 200-230k total im entitled to 50% jt mtge nut that wont buy a studio flat let alone a 2 bed house where I live and my wages are less than £500 a month so up the preverbial creek without so much as a stick let alone a paddle. Exp wont speak to me prefer e mail - He told me he was leaving by e mail! so that doesnt help I just keep wanting himn to fall under a very fast moving train at the moment I hate him so much and really want to get past this for the sake of my dd but once shes in bed those feelings are totally freeto roam about my head alwso very lonely pnce shes gone to bed and sure he has another woman - he has a secret mobile number so hes off enjoying himself whilst Im stuck at home holding the fort I feel like but for my dd Ive totally wasted the last 13 yrs of my life sorry to go on everyone just very very fed up!