Thanks everso for thinking of me guys.
Last night was OK, he turned up about at about 8..
Passed comment that my posture was hostile, said so are we going to talk then - I said well you are, I've nothing to say to be honest...
Cut a long story short, he wants to carrying on seeing me, said I looked pissed off when he said that.. told me he understood that I needed a couple of days to think.. I said the problem was I wasn't sure if I was that bothered anymore, he said it normally takes people at least a couple of weeks to get over things like that. I said I only allow myself a certain amount of time to feel crap and that I'd pulled myself together after I spoke to him Sunday night.
He told me why he thought he'd been feeling it wasn't right, said I was in the right with everything I'd said basically. I told him his behavious had sucked and that it had put me off him.
At 10 I told him he ought to be going as he wouldn't get home til 11, he ended up leaving about 10:45.. on his way out the door he asked if he was forgiven, I told him I hadn't decided and that he had behaved like a twit, he said he knew and that he was sorry and he'd make it up to me. I said wasn't sure (we'd had a talk about how I felt I'd let my barriers down for the first time ever and this had happened and now not sure how i feel about the whole thing). Told him again he was a twit and it better not happen again. he kep trying to hug me, eventually I half heartedly hugged him back. he buried his head into my neck, I let him give me a peck on the lips and he frigging well got a stiffy. MEN!
Blimey that wasn't so short was it.
In short I don't really know how I feel - his behaviour has really put me off him. and I guess made me think about what the real issues are, not sure I'll see him again yet.. don't know what to do!
Nothing is never easy.
Thanks again for thinking of me and supporting me! I've had a really poo week!