I am stupid

[nutcracker]

Just that really, I am the most stupid person i know.

You must hang out with some pretty smart cookies then

What's the matter?

Of course you're not. What's happened?

nah, you have to wrestle me for that crown.

whats happened nutty?

nutty of course you are not stupid
stupid people dont have a great sense of humour like you

Nothing in particular, just xp making me realise how stupid I am. He didn't say I was either, I just think I am, no I know I am.

dh trying to mak me feel stupid too. but thats his way of making himself efeel better aboutsomething. if i can remmeber that, then i am ok. if not, then a blubbering mess.
can you think something like this too?

Not sure, as I can't decide wether he is deliberatly trying to make me feel stupid, or wether it is just me behaving in a stupid way or what.

I don't want him back at all, he made my life hell, but the thought of him with her makes me feel like shite. Now that is stupid.

I thought I had perusaded him that she wasn't worth the effort, as he said he wasn't going to bother contacting her again. Now he reckons he didn't say that.

I asked him if he'd like to stay for dinner, as I thought the kids would like it seeing as they knew he'd spent last sunday with her and her kids and tbh I never even entered my mind that he'd say no, but he did.

So, he is off to the pub for hiwian (sp?) night and i'm here sat listening to squabbling kids with no where near enough wine to make me feel better.

Oh and even more stupidly, I rang his mobile again wasting even more money, just to tell him that he is shite.

here nutty try to relax

ach. he's a git. always was, always will be.

better to be hearing your own kids squabling, than someone elses.
but for the future, never ever invite him for meal at home again.

Thanks thats exactly what I need.

I was trying to be nice though, I like being nice.

He obviously prefers us being shitty with each other though.

He keeps saying he can't see what the problem is who he has a realationship with and he is right of course, I ended the relationship twice so why the hell do I give a toss.

It hurts tbh that I have gone from being the person he worshipped to someone he couldn't care less about.

Told you I was stupid.

And i never even liked him worshipping me.

no, you are not stupid, just going through a period ofself doubt. and from experience, i know it is easy to call ones self stupid.

i doubt if he doesnt care at all about you. but he is doing his best to put that attitude accross. tty and ignore it. if you can rise above it, then you will feelbetter. and he will feel like the shite he is.

Am not sure i can rise above it, not when he is carrying on under my nose.

I so wish I had the option to move away.

he's probly just doing ti to annoy you.
git
have some chocolate

I am just crap at being single, he on the other hand seems to be great at it.

and i swore i wouldn't cry again cos of him.

Well don't cry anymore [smaile].
Youa re a good mum to your children and that is what counts.
I seem to remember he was never that much help even when he was with you.

You are better on your own. repeat!

What have you got planned for tomorrow?

you need sex nutty.
good sex.

until you can get that, get a babysitter, and go get yourself some male attention. get all dressed up. hair makeup, clothes. and go to a nice bar/club etc with a couple of girlfriends. stay out till late. chat up as many blokes as you can. be open and friendly. your'll get lots of attention, andit will feel great.

No he wasn't ever a great help.

I have nothihng planned for tommorow or ever really.

No money for days or nights out, and no one to go on night out with, and tbh i'm not sure I can stand anymore rejection whoever it is from.

Oh and sex...................14mths is all i'll say, 14 looooooooooooooooooooooong months, and I never even liked sex that much before.

I feel like a bloody robot.

can you get someone to babysit for you for free? or rather, gethim to have the kids for the weekend.
then get all dressed up. tart yourself uyp. and go let someone buy youy a drink. shouldnt cost more than twenty quid, if free babysitting.
i'd take you out but i think you are in edingburgh?

Birmingham, but you were close

I couldn't go out on my own, don't like going anywhere on my own, and would rather stick pins in my eyes than go in a pub/club alone.