I am stupid

[nutcracker]

Just that really, I am the most stupid person i know.

i think you need to imrpove your assertiveness

but ti isnt easy when you feel so crap

Yes, soneone once told me that, think it was my HV when ds was small.

Think i might just not bother with friends anymore, because to put it bluntly i don't have any that really give a shite, unless they have a probkem, then i am their best friend.

Is there a nice pub near you where you can take the kids and read a book while the bomb round the beer garden?
I do that more than often.
Thats something to look forward to.
You need some new mates.
When ds1 starts school get chummy with some of the mums from his class.
Because I said so.

LOL

Nearest pub is erm not really kids friendly lol

Was gonna say i'll become a workaholic but then remebered i have no job lol

awww nut stop letting him make you feel like shit....you ended your relationship with him because you weren't happy.If he wants to neglect his children because he wants to get in this womans knickers then let him....his children will one day be old enough to realise what a complete shit head he is for doing it.I have looked at some og your threads before and you seem like a truly nice person, and you need to stop beating yourself up about things.

have u thought about any college courses full or part time???? it will get you out of the house and your bound to make new friends.

Have applied, am waiting for them to invite me to interview or not.

i applied at my college 4 weeks ago and have an interview on wedensday...why not give them a ring on tuesday and ask to speak to someone who can give u some answers as to when you are going to get an interview.

I have,they said that they are behind (they say that every year) and that if they want to invite me to interview I will definatly hear before the sytart date of the course. If not then I have been unsucessful or the course is full.

Tbh i am not expecting to hear, I had my chance several infact and blew them all.

nut honestly do not worry about it.have u applied for a full time course or part time??

Par ttime, one day a week, but tbh I need a job so badly that if I am offered any job that is on the day of the course, I will have no chpoice but to accept ot anyway.

well why dont you think about doing an evening course part time...they dont just enrol part timers in september, they tend to enrol again in january.have u phoned learn direct.

Can't do evenings as no regular babysitter, my mum works shifts.

sory if you think i am being nosey.

No no not at all.

can you make a arrangement with the ex to have them one evening a week??? sil does a learn direct course once a week on a monday evening at the local college, so you wont have to switch days or anything like that

Hi NC - Have followed your threads recently. I think you need to push the College thing. What do you want to study, there may be other routes to the same qualification. I used to advise people in this sort of thing so may be able to help.

By the way. I looked at your profile - you are a great looking woman with 3 beautiful Children. Get yourself out and make new friends! Your current ones sound a bit too tied up in their own lives.

Can the DGP take them for an evening? go to a fitness class or even a singles night somewhere and have a laugh.

Oh and you do not come accross as stupid. We all allow the ones we love to walk over us from time to time, it does not make you stupid just a loving person.

Thanks

I'm just no sure I care anymore, stacking shelves in asda is what pepole expect me to make of my life, son perhaps I should just give in and do that.

FFs just realised i haven't washed up./

fuck what everone expects you to do!!!
you need to do what you want to do...what is going to make you happy, if you want it you can do it.the only people you need to be concerned about is YOU and YOUR children.strive for what you want for you and them, not anybody else.

oh nutty you're not stupid at all. He has the luxury of opting to escape the kids as and when it suits him and you don't. Because you ar ea better person. You desperately need something to inspire you , be it a course or job, to throw this waste of space into perdpective and have others value you for you, not some trophy . Ignore his "personal life" , he is just out to rile you and don't ring him , he'll interpret that as you chasing him(even if you argue) and flatter his ego.

Do chase up the college asap, even if to just speak to someone about your options. It won't hurt if your name is raised. good luck

But I don't know anymore, I can't decide wether to wash up now or in the morjing, let alone anything else.

I've forgotten what the pointis of me doing anything i think.

i get like this sometimes, you need to remember that the holidays will have affected you with the kids being around constantly ( i know its done my head in anyway).things will seem so much better once they are back at school. do the washing up in the morning

Do it in the morning! Even better get the DC to help and have fun with the bubbles
You haven't told me what you want to do at College. What did you do work wise before?

I have CATed you with a great idea so let me know what you think when you get it.

Did you mean me Collision ? If so, I can't get the CAT as the email addy I am registered with, I can no longer access. My hotmail addy is [email protected]

I have applied for access to health science Cmoc. Workwise I haven't done much, cleaned hotel rooms pre kids, then was a childminder and then more recently I stacked shelves in Wilkos of an evening.