I'm glad you are feeling better about it all now, lou, and like you are ready to move on.
We made the decision to separate last summer, but we lived together for nearly a year following the decision, so it often felt a bit surreal.
We eventually went our separate ways in May, when I moved into this house, and ex H stayed with my parents until his house was ready to move into.
This guy I have been on a few dates with, first approached me before Christmas, but I refused to meet him until I had moved into my own place, so we stopped any text contact until I got back to him to inform him of my new number.
I knew I wasn't ready for the first couple of months, but recently felt that maybe a few dates would do me good, and I guess they have, but after a couple of dates they start wanting more from you, and I don't know that I am mentally ready for that yet.
He is a lovely guy, and I don't want it to get to a stage where I could hurt him, and it's all panicking me a bit.
Am I making any sense, or do I sound a bit bonkers?