Dear Pamela, I just want you to know that you've had a significant affect on my life over the last few weeks. I'm a stressy person, and I keep catching myself worrying or getting pissed off about something relatively inconsequential, and thinking how very lucky I am, not just that my worry is relatively small, but even just to be alive having the experience of worrying. I hope that makes sense!
I'm on holiday in Spain at the moment, and have been carrying you in my heart, looking at the beautiful sea, feeling the warmth of the sand, or gazing out to Africa and have been trying my best to send you the energy of every experience. I'm not a particularly woo person, but I do believe in the collective power of well-wishing.
I was also thinking of you trying not to feel bitter about the appalling (lack of) treatment you had, and totally get you not wanting to waste your precious energy on it. But if you find yourself caught by that wave, maybe you can channel it into powerful, protective anger. Anger can be such an enlivening emotion, and when steered by a steady and graceful hand (which you most certainly have) it can serve you and yours well. It's there to restore and protect the things that you value, which I imagine for you is your life and your lovely family.
Much love to you xx